mixed feelings~~~
hey hey.. haben really decide who will b in my blog readers' list...
first lemme share wif u wad i read in e papers few days ago..
dis 14-yr-old wrote.....
sometimes i feel lonely,
like i m in the world for no purpose.
it's like i haf frens but u nv know whether they r true to u.
i m afraid that i will do something wrong,
i will make people hate me, be angry wif me.
yeah. evribody says dat we shld b ourselves,
but frequently,
i don't haf e confidence,
to just live life like what i want,
but rather most of e time,
i m jus living what people want to see.
maybe it's not their fault.
maybe it's jus dat i dun haf e courage to face challenges...
to take risks....
u noe when i first read dis... i m really appalled its written by a 14-yr-old signing off as lost soul..
hmmm how many times haf i felt e same way.. i haf lost count...
even like e recent thumb drive incident dat i haf been telling u abt... hmmm... mayb a lot of u r wondering y i dowan b harsh on him n demand my thumb back... or wad... hmm dat's bcos i really hate to make a wrong step as dat wld spell the end of our friendship... i think i haf told some of u.. dat working in maybank wif my bunch of temp temp was one of my happiest times in life.. dey really brought me joy n laughter n i treasure dis friendship a lot a lot.... i dowan dis incident to strain our friendship i dowan him to think dat i m irritating or hate me...
in my 19 yrs of life.. i haf lost a lot of close friends along e way.. i m v upset... n how i wished i cld turn back time i wld haf done all i could to salvage e situation.. as such e huimin now somehow dun really noe the way to be fierce to my frens... i will only keep quiet or complain abt it to my frens..
how many times do we actually find e courage to admit our mistakes.. to find a way out.. to lead e kind of life we want without ppl's dictation.... making the choice to come to ntu.. starting uni life again as a yr 1 freshie... u all really think i haf taken evri thing in my stride?? NO!! some of e ignorant people ard me hafta make life difficult for me... but i strongly believe all these obstacles are there to challenge me n make me a better person... thou i m really tired at times....
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