dunno....
i jus read ur blog after ur sms today...
hmm i think all along i was being selfish.. i was reading e autograph entries u had written for me.. u mentioned dat most of e time i wld complain to u.. n u seldom complain to me.. so u conclude u r quieter than me.. haha..
but dat aside.. i think after reading ur blog.. i realised mayb i dunno u after all.. i nv knew wad were ur worries n stuff.. hmm somehow as i was reading i thot mayb u haf changed... budden again mayb i dun eben understand u initially.. u ged wad i mean?
not complaining but jus a bit saddened...
家家有本难念的经.. evri one of us has a fair share of family woes to handle.. jus dat i believed dat in different stage of life we need to handle different issues...hmmm did i ever tell u b4? i qt envy ur family de.. ur mum v nice.. ur siblings all v close.. n ur mum alwiz bring u all go overseas etc..
u noe ur family members r alwiz there for u.. i rmb when we were in sec 4 u told us ur mum took leave to prepare lunch for u.. cos it was during exam period n she din want u to eat outside.. she was afraid of the unhygienic food u may consume..
hmm i also believe in contentment.. n i m contented wif wad i own so far.. my friends n i m thankful i get to do e things i wanna do.. eg learning driving.. my braces n stuff.. but recently i learning how to control my expenditure.. cos i think i m over-spending to a point that i dun eben noe how much i haf swiped.. this is really bad cos i haben even started earning money.. to a point dat i was so appalled to c wad was left of my bank accounts... haizz...
n i was still trying to prioritise which electronic gagdet i shld get first: hp, laser printer, ipod?? haizzz... dun need to think le lor...
k anyway... to my blog-ders.. i think of sth u all can share n get me liao!
i want a polaroid!! haha i alwiz find dat v cool!! so if u all can get me one i will b v happy!! haha eh its e cheapest electronic gagdet i can think of for u all to share liao...
budden again i mentioned a lot of times.. i dun really want presents lar.. cos seriously i dun need anything.. so if u come empty-handed i will also b v honoured n happy with ur presence!!!
the princess left at
10:03 PM
m i really foolish???
i know all this will prolly lead me nowhere
but yet...
我还是义无反顾的继续栽下去。。。
yesterday was jus crapping wif my fren like any other day..
but somehow he seemed agitated by wad i haf been doing...
my foolishness...
hmmm mayb guys r always far more rational than girls ba...
or mayb its jus me..
i oso dunno...
of cos,
on many occasions
i wanna put an end to all this rubbish
[ i really tried，believe it or not]
but humans r emotional creatures...
n mayb cos yest i wasnt in a v good mood
[cos i failed my driving
n i dun think my presentation was good...
cos halfwa i din noe wad i was rattling on...
jus reading wadeva i typed out e night b4]
yar...
n...
我的泪差点就飚出来
after dat "lecture" by my fren...
hmmm but i know better than to
落泪 along e corridor of s3...
only i can rescue myself from this mess rite...
在我的世界里，
时间似乎不能愈合所有伤口
不能让我忘记一切。。
grrrr....
the princess left at
1:13 AM
my current fav song...
den we both thot dis song v nice.. haha n its written by *claps* JAY!!! c not biased lor... we cld only guessed its sung by Landy lar... den i went home dl almost e entire album.. jus to look for dis song.. heng she recently released jing xuan ji haha... n wow! so surprised to c e tune written by jay n lyrics by none other than fang wen shan lar!眼泪知道
曲：周杰伦 | 词：方文山 | 编：
云在走 雨在飘 好多悲伤在风中笑 心在烧 泪在掉
你的背叛没有人知道 说爱我好不好 就当作是乞讨
哪怕说出口只需要一秒 你都不要 我的痛像把刀
血在流看得到 你却在 她怀抱 微笑 如果连自尊都已经不再需要
这个世界什么爱你买不到 天真全部可以倒掉 海誓山盟变成一种玩笑
如果连誓言都已经不再重要 还有什么事值得你去骄傲
所有承诺随风燃烧 给你的爱已经停止心跳 你可知道无路可逃眼泪知道
the princess left at
11:36 PM
I FAILEDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I FAILED I FAILED I FAILED I FAILED I FAILED I FAILED I FAILED I FAILED I FAILED I FAILED I FAILED I FAILED I FAILED I FAILED I FAILED I FAILED I FAILED I FAILED I FAILED I FAILED I FAILED
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TO THINK AT FIRST I WAS QUITE HAPPY I DIN GET E KILLER TESTER... BUT WTH??? EQUALLY BAD!!!!!
said i drove too slow!!! wah lau can u think of a better excuse!!!! usually i drive at like 50 - 80 km can.. my instructor asked me to slow down...
well today i tried n keep it within 50km along roads at residential areas...
den good i ask u [e tester] wad's e speed limit.. u er n u ar... if u din er n ar n gif me a definite and specific answer i wun haf anything to say.. how can u question y i nv drive faster when there's no car?
HELLO!! U R A TRAFFIC POLICE!!!! HOW CAN U ENCOURAGE SOMEONE TO VIOLATE TRAFFIC REGULATIONS JUST BECAUSE NO ONE IS LOOKING???
ok dat aside.. i m just bu shuang he failed me can?? i look at my other fellow testees go watch video i v bu shuang cannot ar!!!!! grrrrr...
n cos i drove too "slowly" u said i was an unsafe driver!!!! wah lau u haf nv seen reckless speeding drivers haf u not???
im still not done wif my lao sao!!
e dumb lorry driver!!!! wah lau!!! u v wu gui u noe anot??? y u suddenly gain speed when i was abt to turn??!!!!! i tot i shld b able to intercept lor!!!! cos u were crawling initially!!!! den all of a sudden u drive so fast for wad!!!!!!END OF E DAY:
MORAL OF E STORY--> I DIN ABIDE TO ALL E BAN-DANGS I HEARD OF THIS FEW DAYS N YAR... SO NXT TIME ROUND I SHALL GUI GUI DO THEM!
the princess left at
12:54 PM
driving test...
here's her sms:hey good luck for your driving test tml..
btw wad time is your test?
try to relax and stay calm
sure no prob wan hehe
guess who.. haha
c really not shou one dun eben haf her no. can haha.. yar but i din guess who isit scared dis kind of malu stuff...
but its enuf to make me v happy.. cos jus now was not too happy cos of foc stuff again haizz still owe ppl $ n mayb cos i pms ba.. jus not v happy dat my own committee ppl not on my side.. hmm mayb to start off im not a good leader ba.. i think i offended a lot of ppl along e way.. haizz.. but i xiang tong le.. mayb i xiang tai duo oso...
n e new hss vice pres oso came n ask me abt last yr foc cos need to hold elections liao.. n he oso heard dat our working relationship wif hss management comm last yr wasnt too good haizz... ok wadeva..
dis whole day v stressed cos of chinese presentation tml.. hope everithing goes on smoothly..haizz dun ask me anything abt china history manz i had enuf of mao ze dong n ccp can! n kmt oso haiyo...
anyway tml driving test liao was reminded of 3 mths ago i wanted to sms him to ask how was his driving test but haizz he lost his hp so cldnt den i jus asked him how was it when i saw him on msn.. how i wish he wld sms me to wish me good luck.. but another mission impossible cos i din eben tell him abt tml...
n oh yar today's is a once-a-close-fren's bday... happy bday! 21 yrs old le.. may all ur wishes come true!!
the princess left at
11:31 PM
suay suay suay...
[5 sec to luff at me quick luff...]
today is jus not my day.. last nite i ate painkiller b4 i went to sleep cos i dowan history to repeat itself. cos sun morn i was jolted awake cos of e excruciating toothache haizz... n cldnt go back to sleep.. so since mon lect is 830am super early.. sleep time is v precious so better take painkillers!
n e marvellous thing is i was jolted awake not bcos of toothache.. but cos of jielin's phone call haizz.. she wanted me to help her get McMuffin.. over e past 4 weeks my fellow coursemates haf regained their confidence in me! believed dat i can b punctual for my lect afterall no matter how early.. but too bad i had to dui bu qi them today..
woke up hurry bathe so dat i cld b in time for my 1030 tut.. thou its e prof i hated most.. cos he is a waste of my tuition fees grrr!! 帅 liao bu qi ar?? haizz.. was contemplating not gg sch at all.. cos today's tut all wun mark attendance de.. but haizz need to discuss chinese presentation wif guanhua lar.. was supposed to discuss on sat b4 sara's party but due to my dumb tooth i had to nua at home haha..
so went sch for 1030 tut.. felt not v myself.. gh drove us to can13 cos winnie say deir western food not bad.. but too bad not open.. den we went nie to eat instead.. but haizz i no appetite so jus watched them eat.. den we went hss lib to look for info on long march.. boring topic budden i must admit bcos of dis module i actually did qt a bit of reading on china history n i can finally appreciate e importance of history in our lives.. k dat aside.. when i stepped in e lib.. i was walking behind gh n winnie lar cos i m jus v sian.. almost fell down.. dunno y oso when i walked up dat small flight of steps.. gh turned n luffed at me.. he said he saw thru e glass reflection.. but heng nv fell lar..
den took some books out to read.. no tables to sit haizz so i suggested gg to access lab.. got computers to use n tables to use oso.. den took lift up..
den blur me.. din c dat little drain n fell.. i cld really feel e weight of my body.. damn heavy lar.. n i landed on my knees wif a loud thud! n it was really loud! cos gh n winnie were walking in frt of me again n dey turned n had a shocked expression on their faces.. e cleaner auntie at e other end of e corridor exclaimed "wah" haizz so diu lian.. but i m awake then! really awake... not zombie liao.. red alert.. damn pain lar.. den walk to access lab, taking extra caution wif each step..
wanted to understand long march better cos i borrowed an ultra thick book called 伟大的长征 haizz my frens were saying look like some dictionary.. haizz... but really too much info liao cant digest! so in e end ended up reading e beginning n end of 长征 smart sia den wif some info from gh haha..i hope i can smoke my way thru...
looked at my knee again.. wah got baluku liao.. haf orh-cheh oso haizz.. damn clumsy lar me.. gh was saying how come i whole day fall down.. not i want de mah.. den i was thinking where got? den he reminded me i fell down at och e last time when we went for our recce oh yar huh haizz.. so it must b him.. cos me n winnie whole day fall down wif him ard haizz..
mayb its high time for me to 打小人.. haizz.. zhi yong msn me.. was dat u wif e swollen face yest? den now wif swollen knee cap ar? haizzz.. hannor.. its me!! boohoo...
n i still need to do my long march!! i m still not done yet! grrrr... dunno wad points to put n need to translate gh notes to chinese grrr... v hard leh! haizz... can i b lazy n do tml?? haizz...
k anyway haha my bday party! updates!! haha.. yanling will help me settle my food caterer! haha.. one thing off my load phew! so gan dong xinqiao n vien oso offered to help me if i need their help! n vien oso promised to beg her mum let her come for my party! n i settled wad bday cake i want oso! i wanna relish my childhood bdays! my mum used to get me dis heavenlicious choc bday cake evri yr! n dat cake shop ppl damn attitude one cos deir cake really nice! n i shall get it dis yr for my 21st bday!!!!!!
oh yar n joanne's fren will help me settle e chalet too! 90% at aloha loyang liao to accomodate all my frens!!
shall start compiling list of ppl to invite haha....event of e yr manz!! my bday!! muahahahha....
the princess left at
11:58 AM
i hate you!
u being nice to me
n yet having to constantly remind myself
i cant b e one...
i hate it
when u msn me
i will b over e moon
behaving like some idiot...
i hate it
when u msn me
i stop whatever im doing
to gif u my undivided attention...
n yet i like it
when u msn me
when u ask me econs qns
when u suan me
when u do sweet little things unknowingly.. =)
thanks for e 
thou it looks a bit distorted..
[n i choose to believe u drew dat urself especially for me!
n not cut n paste from elsewhere! =)]学着
曲：陈忠义 | 词：徐世珍 | 编：
夏天都还没过 爱就到了尽头
什么都还没说 就隐隐痛 只好深呼吸望着天空
拼命抬头让眼泪往心里面流 该学着勇敢的寂寞
忍耐不是成熟 当爱情沉默的时候 比孤单还难受
该学着微笑的放手 当流星划过 闭上双眼
取消永远爱你的心愿 不在一整天想你
也不要拥抱的敷衍 就让勇敢的人先说 再见
只不过到最后 爱一个人多久 想忘记一个人 也要那么久
the princess left at
9:31 PM
birthday parties....
attended 2 birthday parties in 2 days.. v different experience i mus say!
e first was at party world.. first time at ktv when i cldnt hog e mic boohoo haha.. but yar i think one thing to note is mayb not to haf ktv bday parties unless its for a small grp of close frens.. its a disaster when u try to bring everyone tgt haha everyone will become so paiseh haha n of cos there r a few sporting ones! like e hokkien singer from cs! oh manzz i m so amazed wif her singing haha.. i think many ppl present wld b taken by surprise how someone of our age cld carry that song off so well!! oh my!!
second one was my fellow hss coursemate.. having been in chee-na schs all my life.. its my first time attending a non-chinese bday party or gathering.. haha but qt an experience definitely.. haizz but given my condition i did not dare to b adventurous n stick to all e safe food.. like curry vege n this sambal fish..[a bit sweet n spicy kind] oso dunno how to describe haha.. but qt nice.. at dat time i was thinking hmm wad wld happen if rena was invited haha she wld go hungry!! haha...
but wad i wanna mention is e show! wow!! dey actually haf games lined up for ppl who attended e party.. wow i m so amazed!! n of cos a segment when my fren was saboed by his classmates n frens n cousins etc.. dig out his darkest secrets haha.. at dat time my frens were asking me if dey cld b my bday emcee! chey i not so dumb can?!! wahaha...
n oso another highlight was a saxophone rendition of the bday song.. albeit a bit slow.. it brought us to another climax.. cos a few of us were qt nottie n saying oops! we dunno e indian version of e happy bday song! n guanhua promised to play me bday song wif his guitar! haha if i invite him! cos i told him he not on my invited list!! bwahahaha... den came e other fun part! i learnt e indian version of "yum seng"! oh wow! so its not unique to our chinese culture!! n of cos dey dun call it yum seng.. dey call it goo-li goo-li-orh... sth lydat haha.. sounds like our 鼓励 鼓励 haha.. but dey dun shout out loud loud like wad we wld do.. thou deirs oso qt loud.. haha a bit contradicting but anyway..
my bday fren actually went off to change during intermission.. we were so shocked!! ma chiam some wedding dinner lydat lorr.. dun worry thou i trying to learn some stuff from e bday parties i m attending.. i wun incorporate dis part in.. haha a bit too kua zhang le.. jus wear wadeva u all r comfy wif.. cos b4 i went up to e function room.. some of my hss ppl were telling us we were underdressed.. but heng... dun feel dat out-of-place oso lar.. so ok haha...
n of cos not to mention my fren had a cameraman n a video cam man following him wherever he went oh wow! so pro!! wif super strong flashlight lor!! haizzz anybody wanna b my bday party cameraman? a cameraman will do i dun need video de haha! =)
den i realised all dis 21 bday parties a v good time to catch up wif old frens!! so we shld treasure all these opportunities. cos after all dunno when's e nxt time u will haf such big scale bday party? 50 yrs old? 60 yrs old? haha... n my other fellow hss ppl thanks for reminding me i haf more to attend nxt yr when e bulk of them turn 21 haha...
n thou i hate e forking money out for bday presents haha cos its causing major deficit in my bank acc.. i still wanna attend bday parties!! so fun! so b sure to invite me k!
n btw all my blog-ders!! u r cordially invited to my bday party on 31 dec 2005!! rmb to keep dis day free for me.. n subject to approval from me, you can bring along one more person wif u! haha... mus lemme noe first!
the princess left at
2:57 PM
a tribute to mummy...
my mummy left us on august 17, 1994...
it has been 11 years...
u were my closest kin for 9 years 8 mths n 16 days 6 hours n 25 mins..
u were unable to go thru my adolescence wif me
u missed my entire teenagehood
渐渐的。。
我忘了你牵着我的手的感觉
我忘了你的声音
我忘了你也曾在我睡觉时替我盖被
虽然。。
我还是想念你对我们的关怀
我仍想念你煮的菜
我仍想念你烘的蛋糕
我知道
你有多么疼我们
多么保护我们
把我们当公主一样呵护我们
我知道
你多么希望陪在我们身边
多么希望继续帮爸爸
但是
命运是残酷的
死神是无情的
或许
那是你唯一的解脱
[p/s: paiseh.. back in 1994 no digicam so i dun haf a better pic of my mummy le haizz n cos i moved house most of my photos dunno where liao.. this is e most complete family photo i haf le.. but it was taken in 1988 when i was only slightly less than 4 yrs old...]
the princess left at
6:25 AM
helplessness...
isit true dat if i put in a lil bit more effort i will understand! n do well again??!! haizz...
had driving lesson dis morn den my instructor asked if i think i wld pass or fail my driving test nxt week.. told him i dunno.. of cos if u asked me i wld say i wanna pass! but of cos wants n reality r 2 different things..
den he was commenting driving test is different from studying. it's not abt hard work.. i dun understand wad he driving at.. but i told him studying is not ez too.. its not abt hard work too.. like my stats n econometrics dis yr wah lau~~ can die lor..
every thing is abt luck!! grrrr... haizz..
the princess left at
9:10 PM
no more acting... *phew*
a lot of ups n downs!! haiyo! in e end janet meixian and auntie mary 還是趕下來了。。haha.. hard time co-ordinating man.. started planning this close to 1 mth ago.. i rmb when i told jialin she was like "huh??" so fast tok abt 13 aug le ar? haha den i told her yar jus in case cz's frens not free mah mus book early..
our initial invitation list included mr mervin de lar but too bad he not free dunno if 真的假的 but anyway.. wanted to ask entire cs clique but too many ppl le.. n 那里毕竟不是我们的家 not nice to impose on ah yi oso mah... haha.. yar lor..so in e end decided to invite only jialin n cz haha..
janet n meixian jus asked them this week de.. den mx told me she need to go malaysia to promote yao cao yuan.. so sad!! den janet got to go last min! haizz hard acting in frt of them n u wah lau.. as thou i haf split personality can got a few times really wanna luff out de..
den was so scared shu shu will spill e beans jus now.. had to use my hand to block e monitor.. haizz heng u din suspect anything still.. almost flipped when i saw rena's sms n yet cldnt tell anyone.. haizz n at e same time need to "tell" joanne n anna n ah yi jialin n rena wun b here so early.. haizz...
haha but i think ah yi did qt a good job!! haha.. n of cos e kids! haha.. told dem not to open e door.. but in e end it was ah yi who rushed to e door aiyo!!
k im tired le.. time to plan for my own bday le..
梦在手裏
我把每天都看成一道风景
雨天或是晴天都值得记念的美丽
我把每天都当成一个节气
感动和悲喜回忆的痕迹都由心裏停
我不去相信上天注定梦想握在手裏
相信只要努力会有奇迹爱可以操纵天气
当狂风暴雨遮蔽了眼睛
让爱正式喊停 我不会让希望在狂野流离
梦想一直前行
当幸福只剩下擦肩距离
我绝不会放弃只要守著坚定
它总会有属於我的动人剧情
the princess left at
2:04 AM
ndp 2005
first stop: thai express to settle our early dinner.. haizz but so full cant finish our food oso.. boohoo.. n alot of ppl outside our restaurant haha.. first time i outside on a national day other than 1999 dat yr when all of us were involved in ndp haha those were e days..
anyway ordered my signature "fire-fighter"...
heh but tonite de like not as red.. so disappointing.. firefighter is actually watermelon juice wif lime juice.. heh i ordered fire-fighter then suddenly occurred to me dat ar i nv order green curry or laksa or tom yum today so i order firefighter for wad i oso dunno haha...
cz's green curry came first... which is ok cos i not hungry so anything la haha..
miss cz took out e curry leaf cos she doesnt eat anything dat is green de lar...
after dinner we walked down to marina promenade to chope good view of e fireworks.. but its a gamble oso cos we dunno where exactly will e fireworks be..
n as we walked along.. we heard deafening noises of e planes' engines! brrroooomm haha so i quickly snapped a few pic!! haha...
den i saw a sign dat says "beware of falling coconuts" haha so cute... n as we walked along.. i had e feeling as thou we were in yi lan, taiwan.. cos it was v windy nice weather to stroll in.. haha but wrong person lar.. haizzz..... haha...
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10:37 PM
still got plenty of fireworks pics cos i was jus snapping away.. but sth wrong wif e pic uploading tool so i can upload this few pics... haizz....
haizz i better get back to do my tut liao.. spent too much time on dis rubbish..
the princess left at
10:23 PM
bdays n more bdays....
which makes me wonder how i shld spend my bday haha...
i think e easiest way is to book a chalet n get evri body to b there! haha.. den jus entertain ppl lor.. den if dey wanna stay over count down wadeva jus do so!
hmmm thou earlier on i thot of leaving sg on my bday... but mayb i m not dat brave to go somewhere alone.. we shall c.. cos today a fren commented dat women r really fickle minded.. =)
n i noe how impt present-hints r impt to close frens ard u.. cos we dowan to get e wrong things or things bday boy/girl doesnt need.. hmmm but if u want me to choose that one thing for my bday.. i only haf one request.. wanted to add e word "simple" to it.. but i dun think its dat simple.. hmm..
"are all girls so silly??"
i really dunno...
was reading another fren's blog.. her bday coming.. haha i think her chance of fulfilling her dream is so much higher than mine.. mine is almost mission impossible...
i dun really care if u all turn up without presents for me really.. i haf passed e stage which i look forward to unwrapping gifts n delightful surprises.. it could b a little gathering.. n evri one jus gather tgt... n i m e centre attention haha...
k k i noe now its only aug... yawnz.... it's national day!!
the princess left at
10:28 PM
bo liao stuff
The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to good manners and elegance.
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts.
Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.
think i did this before haha.. but anyway jus to c if i haf changed.. cant really rmb e front.. but when i read e last part den i rmb doing it! dat is i'll do anything for love, but i won't fall for it easily.. qt true.. cos i think a lot haha...
the princess left at
6:54 PM
是我變了嗎？
anyway i think can anybody explain to me y uni no national day celebrations?? we shld also learn how to sing ndp theme song mah!!! n given a half day haha. eh more of e latter lar.. how abt e other presidential candidate.. if u r eligible.. think u r andrew kuan if i nv rmb wrongly.. if u propose i surely vote for u de! haha yar in 6 yrs' time haha.. cos i oso cant vote!! boohoo~~!!
anyway y e title.. haha cos jus now a classmate was commenting i dis sem haben late yet n v punctual in fact.. haha.. i oso dunno y leh.. i din take cab leh.. unlike in e past i take cab oso late haha.. but tml morn i shld b taking cab to sch la cos i hate e long bus queues at boon lay bus interchange evri mon morn..
i mus b getting old.. y does time pass faster n faster?? it's national day le!! so fast haizzz n ever since i left jc ar i simply not in national day mood leh! haizz.. i wanna sing ndp songs too!! haha...
evritime national day i will think of fireworks!! haben got a chance to see them up close yet this yr! boohoo~~!! haha last yr went for fireworks concert! v magnificent sight! i will nv forget! but me n cheez were lamenting aiya wrong person! haha.. i wanna c fireworks!!! anybody free tell me k?? we watch tgt!! haha...I Believe
曲：金亨锡 | 词：阿怪 | 编：
I Believe 当我在你家门口 下雨了 你看了也会难过
I Believe 你不说话的时候 也是一种 其实你在回应我
虽然不曾说 相信你正在懂 就算牵的不是我的手 我不真的难过
不知道在高兴什么 你的笑容 有时候也宁可当作你在为我加油
不知道在妄想什么 只告诉自己 I Believe
你总会看到我 在某个时候 想让你陪伴的是我
I Believe 没有回应的时候 只不过 正好你在电话中
I Believe 语音信箱的沉默 也是一种 其实你在倾听我
虽然不曾说 相信你正在懂 就算牵的不是我的手 我真的不难过
不知道在高兴什么 你的笑容 有时候也宁可当作你在为我加油
不知道在妄想什么 只告诉自己 I Believe
你总会看到我 在一切之后 留在你身边的是我
那延续太久的一时冲动 在你身后的独角戏 聚光灯没亮过
怀疑 是自己编造的内容 你从不真的认得我
不知道在高兴什么 你的笑容 有时候也宁可当作你在为我加油
不知道在妄想什么 只告诉自己 I Believe
一定会有结果 在很久以后 留在你身边的是我 会陪着你的人是我
dat day heard dis song.. for e first time i paid attention to e lyrics haha.. tot its qt 貼切。hmm..来吧伴我飞 多久都不会累 我已不在乎 所谓的是与非
如果爱是朵很脆弱的玫瑰
我也愿意承受 不完美中的完美 原来风雪可以让我坚强让我感动
墬落在我的梦 只要一点火种 依然照亮我笑容
原来命运还有一些在我掌握之中
眼泪的朦胧 透着一道彩虹
烟雾在消散 花火生命短暂
灯塔永不孤单 因为你是海岸
read gigi's interview today digged our e lyrics for dis song! she wrote it!
recently ar nxt to my little studying space on my floor i placed a tube of dark choco.. i bot from marks & spencers de e whole tube consists of qt a few individually wrapped discs.. choco is really a happy food! i eat like 2 discs per day at least haha! i chose dark choco cos i read from e papers dat dark choco better than milk choco.. thou a bit bitter.. but still nice!!
mayb u all stress u all shld try too!!
k lar i m crapping simply bcos my bio clock is screwed up once again.. now is almost 2am... but i still v 精神！ cos i jus woke up. i fell asleep reading my money n banking text at abt 8plus pm ba.. woke up at abt midnight cos haben print my lect notes for later stoopid prof post soo late! but e weird thing is i din set alarm clock to wake up i jus woke up on my own! amazing.. haf i changed for e better??
oh no!! i dunno dis hui min in me!!
haha...k lar shall go sleep liao.. tml long day ahead.. gg lib to study wif guan hua.. we v bia hor.. week 3 only.. haizz damn stress...
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what's wrong wif me???
You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realization of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.
At this time you 'need to be needed' and again you 'need to need'. You have had this feeling for some time now and you are looking for someone who could share a close bond in an atmosphere of shared intimacy. You have the belief that with the right person you could conquer the world.
In spite of all the opposition, you are insisting that your goals are realistic but circumstances are forcing you to compromise. You are not very happy with this situation but there is little that you can do about it. You have very strict standards which you try to apply to everyone who enters your sphere of influence.
You are presently experiencing excessive stress as a result of self-restraint. You act and think differently from the common herd and you want to be liked and admired for yourself and to associate with people who feel and act as you do. Because of this need to be self-reliant and to break away from mediocrity, you are finding this situation most uncomfortable and you are experiencing considerable anxiety - perhaps even more than you feel the capacity to cope with. You need to find a 'soul mate', someone whose standards are as high as your own - but where? Keep on searching... The situation is uncomfortable and you would like to break away from it, but you refuse to compromise with your opinions. You are unable to resolve the situation because you are continually postponing the making of necessary decisions. You are stubborn but this is no deterrent to a happy life, so why drop your standards. Think positively, everything will work out. It has worked out successfully for you in the past and it will again in the future.
The tensions and stresses that you have experienced of late have been the result of trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond your capabilities. You feel completely inadequate to cope with the situation and you would like nothing better to escape from it all and to be able to relax in a problem and pressure free environment where you can do your thing.
there u go.. hmmm..
these few days ar i think i m like suffering from depression or sth.. cos i experience drastic mood changes.. i mean when i m in sch or wif my friends i m happy n luffing most of e time.. but when i m alone... i will slump into my little hermit crab shell becoming v quiet and moody.. crying at times..
like jus now came back from driving.. did qt a lot of wrong things at circuit.. hmmm i shldn't b making this kind of silly mistakes at this stage de lorr.. but sill yar.. i m jus so restless n not concentrating.. i oso dunno wad's wrong...
sometimes i cant stand myself.. it's like a qn of chicken first or egg first.. isit bcos of my friends dat's y i behave this way or isit bcos i behave in such a manner my frens treat me lydat.. sometimes i feel as thou i haf no friends.. felt so alone n friendless and dis feeling is like getting stronger n stronger when i m alone..
u noe sometimes i made choices n decisions, n eben sacrifices for friends as thou i m left wif no choice.. but yet sometimes when i do certain things for them.. i will nv be able to reach e same level as other friends r placed at.. i guess ppl r lydat.. as in u haf a grp of friends.. A B C D... there r bound to be a few u admire more than e rest.. n those friends dun haf to do anything.. mayb a sms to say dey miss u will make u all happy for e rest of e day.. if i did sth nice or sth.. u will only b happy for dat short moment n forget abt it in e nxt i guess..
that's y sometimes i chose to b selfish n care only for myself.. n its a vicious cycle and make u all dislike me more...
some ppl r jus so blessed... dey dun haf to do a lot of things n dey will haf a lot of friends surrounding me.. i dun think i command such great influence over any of my friends.. i dun think ppl ever say i m nice or sth.. haha...
ok ignore me if u dun understand... i m jus grumbling n whining...
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updates....
lemme update a bit...
[last thurs]
woohoo~~ after driving i jus drove down to sch!! wif my L plate haha.. but one dream accomplished!! dat is to drive to sch at least once in my 4 yrs..den met ui, rena, yl for lunch at can a but need to rush off to lect so in e end i jus da bao from mac...
[sat]
went shopping wif yl... bot a top from bugis street... n a pants! hmmm...
[sun]
went to reds wif yl cos she need to do her after-rebonding hair chk cum treatmt...
[mon]
super pissed!!! i think boon lay bus interchange shld increase 179 freq on mon!! wah lau i woke up super early for my 830 lect lor.. reached jp at 8am.. saw e queue almost fainted.. its all e way to mrt station can??? wad e hell lor!!! n there were 2 qs for 179.. n i dun understand how some groups of student haf e cheek to cut queue... a grp of frens pretended dey were in e q n stood behind me.. hmm if u wanna do it, for goodness sake, do it discreetly! luckily dey stood behind me n not in frt of me.. wah lau i saw daphne n april lor.. same lect de n dey saw me too! but dey oso guai guai q behind n not cut n fake fake tok to me n join in e q lor..
to dat grp of students + other guilty ones: ppl r in a hurry too not only u. its only fair to join e queue than blatantly cutting queue lor! wad e hell??!! wad's e pt of studying so much n wasting govt grant on such inconsiderate ppl??
[tue]
free day n slacked at home... haizz...
[today finally..]
hmm went to sch early.. haha mr guan hua came my house n pick me up. i suspect he drives a rocket or sth!! how can he reach in such a short time??? haha so when he called, i was stil at home! haha.. den went lib to study n do tut.. how how how?? 2nd wk only n i dun really know wad's gg on in lect!! i think i m so gg to fail.. think dean's list is getting further n further away from me.. sobzz....
lastly.. i WANT A BREAK!!!! partly cos i still semi-hol mood.. haizz....
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