Somebody stole my Christmas
But celebrating it under the beauty of the night sky was unforgettable

Elmo Jayawardena

CHRISTMAS is special, rather very special. Everybody looks forward to it. Silent nights and silver bells, mistletoe and pine smells, all wrapped up in wishes and kisses and the hugs and gifts that are so very special at Christmas time.

Looking forward to Christmas is a worldwide phenomenon; the mighty and the humble, the rich and the poor, the holy, the unholy and the super unholy, they all await the yuletide. The "haves" revel and the "have-nots" scramble.

Yet a celebration is made, no matter how small the purse is or how light the coins jingle in one's pocket.

I always look forward to Christmas. It's such a beautiful time.

There is always something wonderful about that season. To a point, it is imaginary — to be enjoyed more in prospect than in reality. Yet, it is something to look forward to, something to pastel shade the every day prosaic of life.

One can have a wonderful Christmas, a terrible Christmas or maybe a could-have-been-better Christmas. I've had my share of the entire lot. But 1994 was different.

Someone stole my Christmas.

For me, Dec 24 turned to the 26th with no 25th in between. Yes, my Gregorian calendar for that year did not have a 25th, which meant — no Christmas day.

That, in all its simplicity is my story.

It needs a unique combination of ill-luck to achieve this oddball situation. One must be really feasting on a bad news buffet to be the recipient. Well, I have often been a champion at pulling the short straw. This really was one of the shortest I ever drew.

My nomadic aeroplane-driving world had sardonically made sure my Christmas was cancelled. No silent nights, no Santa Claus, no church bells that ring silver. No wishes and kisses and hugs that bind, just one simple leap from the 24th to the 26th.

Possibly, I was no favourite of Santa. Never mind a gift; I would have been glad if he had given me the day.

Yes, some don't get into his list. That is the sad side of Christmas.

The left-out ones are usually poor little kids who believe and write those meaningless little notes and wake with hope to find that Santa never came. Almost similar to aeroplane drivers who leapfrog the Christmas day.

I've seen both sides of that coin; once upon a time I, too, have been a note writer who woke and realised Santa skipped my house.

I guess one more time wouldn't make all that much of a difference. Once in a while it's good to remember that you can't win them all. You got to lose some too. It's good to know the feeling of losing, that's what life is all about.

You win some, you lose some, and you grin and go on.

At 11 in the night on Dec 24, 1994, I power-ran the big jet engines of a 747 and rolled down the runway from the City of Angels and flew into a noel night sky, on my way to Taiwan.

It's a long flight from Los Angeles to Taipei, almost 15 hours. Flying west, I crossed the international dateline and landed in Chiang Kai Shek Airport on Dec 26. Somewhere across that lonely Pacific stretch, someone erased my Christmas.

I remember everything about that night; it was so very special, something that needed to be saved in the hard-disk of life. I recall how I kept staring at the vast clear open spaces that I love so much, the Pacific Sky splashed with heavenly lights and traces of whispery clouds. I remember a gibbous moon too, pale, yet luminous, giving a silvery touch to the mid-night blue.

It's difficult to describe, the serenity. It's the zenith of what beauty could be. The tranquillity of a night flightdeck in silent glide under the munificence of a million stars.

At 37,000 feet, I felt I was in a very special church. I was in God's own cathedral. I remember solemnly singing my own mass, at least the parts I could remember and reverently giving myself some sort of a sermon.

Then I caroled it with a hum of Silent Night and Silver Bells and thanked all the Gods in creation for all they have given me in life and especially when they haven't asked for anything in return.

That was my prayer; no request, no complaint, just heartfelt words of gratitude expressed in solitude seated on the left seat of a 747 whispering words that came from the very depth of me where sacred thoughts are stored.

Thus, under the canopy of a celestial heaven, I celebrated my own Christmas. That was a beautiful and wonderfully memorable communion.

I landed in Taipei with grateful thanks for a very special Christmas that would last in memory a lifetime.

Yes, Christmas is not only the glamour of a glittering pine tree laden with tinsel and coloured lights. Not a fancy Hallmark card or a gift from a loved one. Neither is it a visit from Santa Claus nor a feast of champagne, caviar and chateaubriand.

It is much more, perhaps something closer to a remembrance of who we are and in some ways a sanctified communication with who or what someone calls God.

1994 taught me that.

The writer served SIA for 19 years as a 747 captain and instructor. He is also the founder/president of AFLAC International (www.aflacinternational.com), a humanitarian organisation.

wad a nice weather to sleep in... pp said judging from e no of hours i sleep.. i m in a 昏迷 state... not sleeping liao.. ha slept at 12 last nite cos i was really tooo tired... slept until dis morn 11am.. woke up read newspapers den somehow i dozed off again.. when i woke up its 3pm! got a shock!!! hurried bathed n got out of hse..
finally got to go sun with moon for dinner.. yeah.. nice ambience.. n we got a nice nice cushion l-shaped sofa seat cos i made reservation!
this is e hot pot rice we ordered.. qt a small portion if u r sharing.. which we did.. hahaha.. but i think i wun b able to finish it on my own.. its unagi plus sth rice... haha.. qt nice.. n there's an hour glass served tgt wif e pot which they will place it over the cover.. cos after dat 1 min den can open e cover n eat e rice... qt fun.. much better than dat pepper lunch can.. dotz.. dat stinko place....

this is e other main dish we ordered... its some beef teppanyaki slices wrapped wif mix vege... qt nice...
lastly our dessert... e tofu cheese cake.. i wanted to order e choco parfait.. but i cant find it in e menu?! den in e end when i finally found it we placed order liao booo... nvm nxt time den i try ha... anyway i dunno y they mus cage my cake.. boooo...
really look like tofu hor.. really qt nice cos i dun really like overpowering cheesy taste after a meal... not v v v v full after e meal but was qt satisfying too...
e service qt good we got endless refill of iced water... nice place...total bill came up to 44... a bit on e pricey side ba... if we each ordered e rice thing without e beef wrap mayb e bill wld b abt e same... but if i ordered my parfait instead of e cheese cake..i think wld spend more.. hahaha...

haizz after listening to pp's tales.. i getting qt apprehensive abt starting work nxt yr... damn sian....

today is a good fren's bday.. happy bday n i love betting wif u btw.. u still owe me a chawan from waraku [thou i forget for wad] hahaha... so sad in e end u dun really like e present i chose.. haizz i wanted to get u a practical thing n yet sth farnie n suitable oso.. dats y i got u dat.. i guess u can wear it abroad ba.. dun waste hahaha...

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Friday, August 17, 2007


13年。。。

想起你的时候
还是有想哭的感觉。。。

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the 900th post...

hahaha bo liao den i went to do some personality tests... btw y r my taggies so quiet recently ar?! nobody reading my blog anymore?!

What type of personality do you have?
Here is the analysis:

Kind and Gentle
Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

muahahahhaa i m gentle n sweet alright...

The Real You
Here is the analysis:

You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.
You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

ehhh sounds good sia...

The Eating Test
Here is the analysis:

You are generally a calm person. You get excited when your favorite band is in town, when you are going on a date with your partner or when you and your friends are dancing. Your friends mean everything to you. You hate it when the summer is over.
You like art, and some poetry. You can throw a party, or help a friend put one together. You usually have no trouble finding dates, but you occasionally hit a dry spell. You like the outdoors, usually, and rainy weather doesn't bother you. You sometimes get jealous of people who are smarter or better looking than you, but you wouldn't hold it against them if you got to know them. You are on good terms with your parents, even though they annoy you once in a while. People tend to think you are reliable and trustworthy. You like animals.

so wrong lor.. heh?! poetry?! heh rainy weather doesnt bother me when i m sleeping hahaha... n i dun like animals if they r near me.. hahaha

How attractive are you?
Congratulations!

You are extremely attractive to the opposite sex. You are not only good looking but your personality is also charming in many ways.

You know how to get along with people and can allocate your time well. You are always popular among the opposite sex.

this is even worse! where got extremely attractive?! hahaha n not good looking oso.. becoming v heck care recently.. this is bad...

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Thursday, August 16, 2007


sian wif life...

booooo looking fw to nothing nothing nothing.. except mayb my tuition pay dat is due in 6 more lessons' time.. kns.. i shld jus tell my tutee i want my pay every half a mth hor.. haizz cos i tot i get greater utility wif one bigger lump sum mah... but anyway 6 more times den can get pay.. haizzz.. so i m stilll broke broke broke for e time being.. i think my braces haf 1-2 more mths of payment due den i can zoom in n out of dr tan's clinic fast fast nxt time.. ha...
just got my hp bill... its e a lot of auto roaming bill.. heh... sending sms in hk is soooo ex... kns.. its 81 cents per sms... shocked! heng i only sent 2... china got more hahaha... n e bill is cocked up.. i ming ming received dis particular call in hk... i rmb v vividly... but it says in china.. wadeva... cos i think receiving calls in china seems to b cheaper.. ha...
as u can c i really got nth to blog abt cos my life is a boring boring boring one.. v no life one...
today is my free day.. woke up at 12 thou i slept at 2am yest.. woke up bathe eat breakfast.. den read newspapers, surf net.... den dozed off while reading my translation notes [ponned first lect cos i cldnt wake up n really sian to go lect alone] den woke up at 4pm.. bathed n went to west mall popular to buy file.. but haizzz dun haf e file i want.. west mall popular really sucks lor! i think dey r e only popular without a levels tys oso.. kns... booooo... den went to my fav kopitiam western food stall to buy chicken cutlet.. haizzz price increase le! boooo.... den reached home watched tv den my dad started to nag again say i v free watch tv..den no time to pack my v untidy room.. aactually not v untidy lor.. just a lot of stuff only hahaha.... but anyway pissed den i went out for tuition liao...
so fast aug coming to an end liao... haizzz... idiot bday on sat i still haben buy present.. she say i first day noe her ar.. but still i *paiseh* dun gif her things mah hahaha... haizzz.... think i noe wad to gif liao la... i got a few options... practical stuff alright.. haha...
den i oso thinking how i shld spend my bday oso... e initial initial plan is to go taiwan again.. dis wld b e 2nd time i spent my bday in tw... haha... ehhhh den oso to stop over at japan.. but we haben solve how it's gg to work out still... n e tix r selling out like nobody's biz.. n natas n all e tour fairs r sprouting out like nobody biz dis few weeks... boooooo... but i cant tell my dad i gg overseas end of e yr.. cos it hasnt been a mth since i return from wuh-hk..aiya... sian leh.. hope hols plan can materialise soooooon den i got sth to look fw to... hahaha seriously after coming back from hk.. i think dis yr if i go tw i will only buy bags n shoes.. but not tops ba.. anyway oso no suitable tops for me to buy... but got nice jackets i dun mind buying.. anyway i miss e food!!! esp e bubble tea!!! boooo.... n e pink guava! n ru rou fan!!! haizzz all e nice nice food! n shu shu n worm! hahahaha he mus b thinking eh i haben step foot on tw for more than a yr le.. sth is wrong... i need to go somewhere at e end of e yr cos i haben wore my winter clothes for v v v long le.. i miss wearing them! hahahaha... so cute lor...
but got e stupid fyp... i dun like fyp! but ok la its grp proj... beginning to like grp proj.. cos got ppl to whine to... hahaha n of cos its v impt if u haf nice proj mates too la.. yay.. n i oredi applied leave wif my fyp grp for e end of e yr.. told them i wld b gg away.. dunno go where at e end of e yr.. to celeb my bday..

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Tuesday, August 14, 2007


pissed

怎么我做什么都错？

天天买饭给你 把你宠坏
一天不在 你就说我把家当酒店

我正要去补习的时候
你睡着 所以没跟你说
回来的时候
竟然说我长大了 会赚钱
以后不给我钱？！

男人应该也有经历更年期吧

argh~

我想念 一个月前的今天
此时此刻 我应该是回到房间
收拾着行李
应该没有再哭了
this pm we had a grp conversation hahaa thou most of e time i was away.. i was sleeping mah cos wasnt feeling well today.. woke up in e morn felt like puking.. n my head was spinning.. when i got home after sch my stomach felt worse.. paiseh la today first day.. slept all e way to 610.. was thinking if i shld cancel tuition..
ha but haha roomie was saying she wanna go taiwan for grad trip.. dotz tw.. hahahaha... den told her i qt shou wif e place la.. can recommend places.. den she oso said she wanna go hk.. den our hk-er miss mandi oso asked her ask me.. hahaha all of a sudden i tour guide liao hor... still rmb wad e fortune teller said abt me having to leave sg one day... n work wif foreigners.. hahaa... i can choose tw or hk leh! but i need to brush up my canto.. but i think i improved a lot dis 2 visits hahaha... i shld go again soon!
n oh ya read newspapers china inflation rate grew e most ever... 5.6% or sth.. wahhh so much yet still so cheap hahahaha... shld hurry go b4 it rises to e same level as us soooooon...
haizz.. really v sian... everyday is fyp fyp n fyp... boooo... n stata stata n stata... ha n its farnie to c how our profs' jaws dropped when we mentioned SPSS... hahahaha they were like who still uses SPSS now?! they shld switch to stata...
haizz my fin tut a lot of dark scholars.... [voldemort supporters hahaha] anyway ya... u noe those who haf a lot of comments n will shoot u qns when u present.. ya THAT group of ppl.. i m soooo dead.... but lucky my grp got zai people! hahahahaha... n i s/u-ing it... haha mayb i shldnt waste my option hor.. budden ar... this module no textbook leh.. dunno wad kind of exam qn he will set lor.. dotz...
looking fw to dis sat meet up wif a long-time-no-see n earning-big-bucks-fren.. hahahaa... yay! oh ya those not earning big bucks i oso v happy to meet up de.. hahaha everyone got their 1st mth pay le.. all so nice treat me.. haha nxt time my turn i think i will drop dead.. cos i will b so broke... hahahaha.. but yay i love nice frens!!

forgot to mention: my tutee told me today her econs grade improved from E to C [and its a high C] woohoo!! she rmb e stuff i told her.. my little tips.. wah! so happy! but that's for AS level which is 1 btwn Os and As la.. ha told her must work extra hard for As cos not as easy le.. n her ultimate aim is to get B for prelims.. yay jia u!

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Sunday, August 12, 2007


烦！

haizz... dun try those kind of 可怜 excuses on me.. i really will 心软。。。
yest i bumped into one of my tuition kids.. e viet girl.. haiz she was telling me she really had a lot of difficulties wif her work.. den all her tuition stopped already... cos her mum has no more money to pay for her tuition.. btw she qt rich de la.. considering she from viet n her mum working to support her..[ i think her dad also working ba nv hear her mention b4] den ya she stay at dis condo near my hse... 1 bus stop away only la..
den in june dey had some sort of a prelims.. but we stopped tuition in may cos her fren [i tuitioned 2 of them tgt] doesnt want to continue.. ya...
so now she wanna continue tuition.. but she said her mom doesnt want to pay.. n she wants chem, math n econs tuition... i declined e chem part.. but if she really dunno can ask me chem.. ya so anyway... she wants me to continue but she paying me out of her allowance.. so she hopes i will gif her discount..
e problem is ar u noe i v lazy de la.. ask me gif tuition is like wanting my life... cos i will hafta sacrifice sleep... haiz.. den now teach 2 subj.. 4 hours per week leh.. thou money good.. [ok not dat good cos of e discount] but still...
her sch fees really ex.. its like 20k per yr kind of thing.. so qt ke lian.. n somemore they all spend money like water.. cos of e environment.. those kind of intl sch mah.. haiz.. i really dunno if i shld take on dis tuition...

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4:30 PM

sianzzzz

不是我的错 我们都听过
完美的时候 要更多
找这时候说的太多
有时候的我
只想和你一样沉默
不想单单罗罗嗦嗦
水也灭不掉的火

也许大男人真的很难忍
少了点风度 还是不承认
有时候错的并不知道错的
不想借口只是直接一点说
有时候女孩没那么小孩
心里的无奈也需要点关怀
遗憾的遗留变成勉强了
怎么能重新再来

不是我的错 我们都听过
完美的时候 要更多
找这时候说的太多
有时候的我
只想和你一样沉默
不想单单罗罗嗦嗦
水也灭不掉的火

也许大男人真的很难忍
少了点风度 还是不承认
有时候错的并不知道错的
不想借口只是直接一点说
有时候女孩没那么小孩
心里的无奈也需要点关怀
遗憾的遗留变成勉强了
怎么能重新再来

也许大男人没那么难忍
少了点风度 还是不承认
有时候错的并不知道错的
不想借口只是直接一点说
有时候女孩没那么小孩
心里的无奈也需要点关怀
遗憾的遗留变成勉强了
怎么能重新再来

irritating life... irritating ppl stepping on my toes... irritating printer/scanner getting on my nerves...

irritating marche! craved for sting ray since fri so we went to eat sting ray.. but NEW marche doesnt sell sting ray anymore.. n lousy seah im food centre doesnt haf a single sting ray stall?! n so we settled for marche's crepe n rosti n garlic bread... disappointed wif everything... booooo lousy lousy lousy.... i'd rather go vil'age at heeren lor... kns... small place at vivo... dun like dun like dun like.. nv gonna go there ever again...

i wanna go back wuhan/hk la... i dowan stay here... booooooooo... i want my hols back!!

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Saturday, August 11, 2007


为什么

人真的很奇怪
做了十件好事却敌不过一件[也没那么]坏的事

烦~

我讨厌有种“苍蝇”的感觉，
宁愿坦白，而不是逃避。。
更不要愧疚感

我其实有时候也想一个人静一静

如果有不熟的朋友在，
我宁愿自己一个人回家。。
我是孤僻的。。。

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Thursday, August 09, 2007


updates

had 2nd wuhan gathering last nite.... yay another night of fun n laughter... lazy to tok abt it... if u guys r interested go chk out e blog.sina.com.cn/funinwhu webbie k... ha...

these photos r taken on e last day at wuhan... at 6am... ha while waiting for e bus to come pick us n send us to airport...
boarding bus...

突然发现站了好久
不知道要往哪走
还不想回家的我
再多人陪只会更寂寞

许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我的快乐要被认可
委屈却没有人诉说

夜把心洋葱般剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候
想你更多

如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说
悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和
舍不得又无可奈何

如果你也听说
会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
懂我的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔

许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我想我宁可都沉默
其实反而显得做作

夜把心洋葱般剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候
想你更多

如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说
悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和
舍不得又无可奈何

如果你也听说
会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
懂我的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔

如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
冷漠的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔

如果你想起我
你会想到什么

another nice nice song~~

went to ah yi's hse for "gathering" jus now...

n had a surprise bday celeb for cz.. really early one thou... but b4 we reached ah yi hse me n cz shopped at lot 1 happily! hahahaha we bot bubble tea la.. den we saw durian oso feel like eating den bot 3 boxes of durians! hahaha happy... den we went to buy 1 tub of ice cream too!! hahahaha...

cz oso brot along e unfinished vodka... n we bot mixers: vanilla coke [so dat we cld get vanilla vodka taste hahahhaa] and 7-up instead of sprite cos 7-up cheaper hahahaa... stupid bday girl hand "zhunnnnn"
e MAs gave her present...
its a DA black wif tweety-sized body... she said she gg to bring it to office...

im stressed i got nth to gif bday girl...hahahaha...

showed ah yi n jo n e kids my wuhan pics... oops ah yi was saying 怎么瘦成那样？你确定那是你吗？？
ok since i came back to sg i my appetite became rather *ahem* ravenous i can eat a lot any time of e day lor... kns... prolly put on e weight i lost in wuhan when i reached hk n hk 养大 my appetite lor!! i shld try n keep it small again... hahaha strive to become thinner if not i really shld sign up for 长江3天减肥计划 wuhan summer prog nxt yr ahain...
ah yi was tokking to me abt touring hk... haha cannot go dis yr le la... will break my record.. but she oso said go hk/shenzhen/zhuhai n macau! haizz so tempting can... hahaha... all e nice nice food! i haben reach e stage whereby i print money... paiseh ar... haf been saving money these few days.. qt proud of myself actually haha.. if i appeared niao.. so sorry la... really BROKE!

*i hope tml's lect is are cancelled.. cos i m really tired now...

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Wednesday, August 08, 2007


衰到爆

im sooooo going to make sure the next person who step on my toes will get a thrashing from me!
today is an extremely suay suay suay day...
woke up at 745 today... my alarm snoozed for 45min.. left hse at 820 cos lesson 930... surprisingly reached can a at 913am [according to e time on channelnewsasia tv mobile] slowly walk thinking i got a lot of time which is true...
den i took e same lift as e hss admin staff... tot she looked familiar n she was holding a big brown envelope...
den she saw me press "4" den she asked if i m yr 4 econs.. i said ya... den she asked if i taking he403... took me a while to think wad was my module code... ha.. den i said ya ya ya... y?
tot she wanna ask me pass notes to jinjarak.. or submit feedback form wadeva rubbish.. den she said oh lect cancelled, prof sick...
i HUH-ed?!!!! dat she jus forced a smile.. boooo... walked out wif her n told her where's e lt cos she cldnt find her way.. then i realised actually i din hafta follow her cos i only haf 1 lect today! n e remaining weeks oso only 1 lect.. dis is irritating! den she said jinjarak called her last nite to say he's sick.. kns! dunno how to post on edventure or send email ar?! surely will haf ppl chk email/edv at weird hours de...
den started calling everyone to tell them lect cancelled... yali still in her room best! hahaha...
n i saw his email i even angrier... he said he "fighting a battle wif e virus" ya when he come back he gotta fight a battle wif me booooooo.....
den we went canteen to rot... prolly e only time i will b early for lect for this entire sem n jinjarak had to dua me! kns... made me wake up sooo early for nth... my bed was really so close to winning e morn battle can?! idiot!
den i went to order my fav avocado honey.. 2 cups.. 1 for winnie 1 for me... in e end e auntie gave me aloe vera honey... i m ok wif aloe tooooo... but its really tooooo sweet n 难喝！kns... tot e auntie qt 可怜 thou she INSISTED i said aloe honey... kns.. winnie heard me say avocado honey lor.. wth! pissed pissed pissed... everyone mus make me pissed today.... idiot...
den went lib to do fyp... halfway i need toilet... stupid lib no toilet.. had to go out.. e auntie cleaning toilet!!?!?!?! alright went up 1 level.. kns e entire level no female toilet?!!?!?!?!?! i noe its an engine block but still?!!! we r in e 21st century le!!! den went down again n managed to find a handicapped one... wadeva!
oh n we hss-ers tot of a new nick for our irritating course coordinator for yest hahahahaha... prof umbridge!! hahahahaha thou winnie kept insisting e hp umbridge is prettier than our course coordinator.. pin was more concerned abt e general impression of hss prof.. cos a lot of ppl said hss has e best n friendliest prof... ya not dis umbridge... those who dunno who's umbridge go catch hp5... still showing in theatres...
i m gg to sleeep now... if not i may explode.... 深呼吸 呼~~~吸~~~~

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Tuesday, August 07, 2007


growing up

"growing up sometimes, means growing apart.."

saw these words in an article today... tot it made sense... i haben seen some of my close frens for v v v long... i really miss those days we hang out after sch everyday.. luff at stuff/guys/wadeva tgt.. we noe wad's gg on in their lives everyday...

but now dat most of my frens haf started working n attached or wadeva... they haf lesser n lesser time for me/us... ha ok i m bz oso.. but ya...

nonetheless... these r e frens who i m really glad to noe.. n haf them by my side... they r e ones who i can jus call when i m feeling down... i can jus cry n cry n cry on e phone without saying anything... n they will noe when to jus keep quiet n listen... ha i dun like those 不熟装熟 ppl... n those ppl who think i will tell them my problems... if i wanna tell u i will tell u... if not jus leave me alone...

they r also e frens i can jus call n whine n "booooooo" for v long... sometimes not knowing y i "Booooo" hahhaa..

i used to call a fren at weird times like 2 3 am... n when she pick up my call i will jus go "how how how" den she will giggle n ask "wad how?" hahahahaha den i will luff n i will alwiz give her dis ans "e state of my life" n she will say "huh? which aspect?" hahahaha den i wil luff n say i dunno! booooooo.... everything is soooo messed up! now dat my dis close fren is sooo far away from me [not in sg] n that she doesnt read my blog.. [weird huh my close frens dun really read my blog..] i kinda miss her.. n oso e limited no of frens i can call n whine now...

dats y sometimes i hate technology.. cos i like tokking on e phone hahaha [if i m not tired]... fewer n fewer ppl tok on e phone.. n conversations r usu short... everything is compressed into dat few sms-es or msn conversations.. n yet sometimes its difficult to express thru msn.. n oso some ppl seemed so inert on msn... so different from their real life... ha... n i nv believe we cld achieve much from msn discussions...

anyway enuf abt e growing up part... today first day of sch for me n most hss-ers... n so glad to c a lot of ppl returning from exch n stuff.. everyone looks different! hahaha n it seems like a really long summer hols n everyone is back from somewhere or went to some other country dis hols.. wah! cos there's sharing of diff food n stuff haha... n how we alwiz got mo qi n grumbled abt e irritating course coordinator who treats us like some primary sch kids... n her english cmi oso booooo.... we will draw to determine who get wad topic.. n winnie ask me wad is draw... i was like draw lots 抽签 n she heard me n said ya "抽签"dotz... when i reached home my dad was complaing abt how some prof english cmi hahaha.. n i was complaining to him abt lesson today boooooo.... i think my dad sometimes wonder y he pay so much for my sch fees hahahaha... oops!

n oh ya tokking abt growing up... i was never a child who love anime/cartoon hahaha... but i do noe a lot of sanrio characters thanks to my mum who alwiz buy me hello kitty bag every new sem or little twin stars or minna water bottle etc.. haha... so i really hope to go puroland sooon! cos when my mummy was ard... they din haf puroland.. booo... anyway ya n i went to watch the simpsons yest... ha cos rw wanna watch... n since cathay got discount i alwiz go cathay! hahaha... yay! movie tix alwiz $6 lydat muahahaha... n simpsons was qt hilarious wif a v noble message they trying to bring across... heh... wah... qt good sia.. thou i still find it a waste of money to watch cartoon hahaha... ok la.. better than asking me to watch horror! eeeeeks.. ha n oh ya while at e cinema i saw dis trailer... i wanna watch enchanted! out on 22 nov hahaha a bit far... but ya anyway...

其实你是个心狠又手辣的小偷
我的心我的呼吸和名字都偷走
你才是绑架我的凶手
机车后座的我吹着风逃离了平庸
这星球天天有五十亿人在错过
多幸运有你一起看星星在争宠
这一刻不再问为什麽
不再去猜测人和人心和心有什麽不同
一二三牵着手四五六抬起头
七八九我们私奔到月球
让双脚去腾空让我们去感受
那无忧的真空那月色纯真的感动
当你说太聪明往往还是会寂寞
我笑着倾听孤单终结后的静寞
看月亮像夜空的瞳孔
静静凝视你我和我们闹嚷的星球
靠近你怎麽突然两个人都词穷
让心跳像是野火燎原般的汹涌
这一刻让命运也沉默
让脚尖划过天和天地和地缘分的宇宙

一二三牵着手 四五六抬起头
七八九我们私奔到月球
让双脚去腾空让我们去感受
那无忧的真空那月色纯真的感动

一二三牵着手 四五六抬起头
七八九我们私奔到月球
让双脚去腾空让我们去感受
那无忧的真空那月色纯真的感动

一二三牵着手 四五六抬起头
七八九我们私奔到月球
让双脚去腾空让我们去感受
那无忧的真空那月色纯真的感动
the end...

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Monday, August 06, 2007


gathering

yay! nice gathering but first time we hit below 10 ppl =(
cos a lot of ppl not ard... exch n overseas.. haizzz so many scholars around...stressed sia... they r alwiz not ard hahaha....
n for once we cld start dinner on time cos everyone was early/on time! woah~~
went brewerkz for dinner n ordered a jug of india ale to share... ordered fish n chip but dun think its nice... heh... sadded...e guys n other girls ordered pizza to share.. ha...
n once again i did a very clever thing of charging my cam batt but forgetting my memory card.. kns! heng jev brot cam... yay! n he's efficient.. hahaha...
n finally eli's back! happy! she gave me choco from sydney!! yum yum!!!

haizzzz e sad part is sch starting tml.. i really v sian.. jus went to take a look at e notes n outline.. seems hard... damn sian....

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我很傻

有时候，觉得自己很傻。。。
都已经是不可能的事
可是每一次有什么风吹草动
我心中又点燃希望

明明知道
希望越大，失望越大 的道理
却一次一次的让自己伤心

i really think i get into those crying n emotional mood whenever i watch my tw dramas.. ha suddenly realise e impact of globalisation man.. we not only watch tw/hk dramas, we also watch korean/jap dramas ha...
anyway i still love my tw dramas cos can listen to e actors speak in a language which i understand..
currently watching "换换爱" ya i noe v slow.. cos din really watch stuff in china. haahha... but anyway tw air until episode 9.. episode 10 shld b up within dis few days.. n i finished up till ep9 liao! hahahaha... rainie n mike so cute!!! 我也要一张幸福兑换卷！谢谢兑换卷、友谊兑换卷。。 so nice~~~
watched my "溏心风暴"again... my gawd... cried n cried again.. hahahaha...

wanna share a lyrics wif u all

春天慢慢一点点发芽
快乐开始都有了想像
旋转木马前那个广场
爱情开始滋长
想你有时会缺氧
嘴角不自觉上扬
这是不是幸福的症状
不知不觉又缺氧
无法移动的梦想
就算没有人鼓掌
我也不会受伤
不会稀释的信仰
心穿越砖墙
在你的身旁
想你有时会缺氧
嘴角不自觉上扬
这是不是幸福的症状
胸口微微得发烫
不知不觉又缺氧

actually got a few more lyrics i wanna share cos jus listened to ah mei new album n oso my fav hk singer, joey new album.. hahaha but i m tired now.. need to go sleep liao.. blog tml~~
happy sch reopen to my frens still studying.. mon is my free day muahahahaha~~~

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Sunday, August 05, 2007


i hate these people

firstly i hate ppl who 无事不登三宝殿... made me think twice or even thrice when u msn me out of e blue n said hi...
but ar today i met someone ultimate... dis girl who was in one my modules in yr 1 sem 1... ya back then i jus trf to ntu i was so brave to take a lot of modules on my own n oso got to noe a lot of ppl.. nowadays i m so jaded n alwiz stay in my comfort zone.. i get to know lesser n lesser ppl.. but anyway ya... e girl msned me dis pm n asked if i was bz at work.. i tot dat sounds weird... cos firstly today sun.. y wld i b working?! wad a lousy 开场白... dowan reply.. i appeared offline cos i was gg to prepare dinner liao... den after dinner i came back online n decided to b nice n reply her...
ya so i asked her "ya?"
den she was like "u found job liao ar?"
den i was like "??? huh?! i haben grad leh"
she: oh i tot u very bz
me: [more dotz in my head] ok la... reading some stuff
she: eh u not limin?!
me: huh no?! i m huimin
she: huh u not kevan?
[at dis pt i wanna say ar.. my hotmail explicitly spell out i m huimin lor... kns can she chk b4 she msn?! den guessing i m kevan even more off cos i m definitely not a guy... n btw i do know kevan cos he was our dat module-mate...]
[sidetrack a bit more: i rmb got once i joined a conversation.. dunno which one.. n someone requested everyone to write their name on their nick so dat its easier to recog... or at least if ur email has ur name wld oso b much better... so wad if my email is my name?! ppl dun read]
ok back to e dumb conversation...
she: omg omg omg!!! i msged e wrong person
[thinking to myself.. wth! not i ask u msn me.. i m being nice reply u.. n u come n omg me]
she: u said u r huimin ar?
me: ya...
she: which module we took tgt b4?
me: i cant rmb its yr 1 de... [ i rmb but i jus dun feel like tokking to her anymore]
she: oh ya anyway i msn wrong person.. i was looking for my fren limin... ya.. so...
[i noe dis is her way of "alright i got nth to say to u liao... can u jus hurry up n say bye"]
me: nvm bye

ok nvm... den dis pm oso another person msn me to ask abt wuhan prog... i was shocked la cos i dun tok to him de la.. den he asked how much i spent den i told him i went for e 2 weeks one lor...
he: HUH?! not 8 weeks?
me: since when got 8 weeks? can choose btwn 4 weeks n 2 weeks
he: not all summer prog 8 weeks? 8 weeks go summer den 1 mth come back wait sch reopen
me: oh i noe tw one is 8 weeks... others mostly 5 6 weeks... wuhan one v short
he: den how much u spent?
[and i ans him]
he: if i wanna stay for 8 weeks can?
me: err they only plan for 2 n 4 weeks la.. if u wanna stay longer mayb u can go tour ard e place lor...
he: will they chase me out?
[-_-]
me: i guess not but u will haf to pay for lodging lor 8usd per night....
he: den 3 aus?
me: nope dis time they nv gif us aus...
he: HUH?! den still go? any summer prog go beijing?
me: i noe hk uni do offer.. dat time my frens went
he: really? how much they spent?
me: i noe e course fees is 500usd la.. how much they spent i dunno...
he: HUH?! not free?! how come need to pay?
me: since when its free?
[thinking to myself: wah lau u email johnie n ask la... n duh of cos need to pay de la...]
me: anyway u still haf a yr to think abt summer prog cos now dun haf anyway... nxt feb-march u can start looking out lor.. n they wun publish everything on e website... e application form has more options...
me: yupz k i gtg byee

booooooo i noe i m mean... but really mah... got stuff den msn ppl.. i dun like these ppl! worst of all its msn wrong ppl!

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Saturday, August 04, 2007


down down down

one of those nites when i jus cant go to sleep.. was thinking abt a lot a lot of things... from everyone to anyone ha.. sort of a self-reflection i do once in a while.. in e end spent e entire night crying n crying.. wanting to blog but dunno wad to blog... now eyes swollen but felt so much better... mayb cos there's my favourite goodwood park hotel durian goodies in my fridge! hahaha sis' fren jus helped us buy n delivered to our hse.. i was still angry wif my sis dat she din go n buy dis durian season... but yay! its now in my fridge.. wait for sis to come back at night n we can feast on them....

anyway yest met rw for katong laksa haha.. happy~

din really haf time to walk ard parkway [our usual practice after katong laksa] but nvm since rw v free nowadays we r meeting up again soon! hahaha...

den went down to suntec to meet e wuhan ntu clique for dinner... gh is missing n doesnt noe abt our gathering cos we r gg to spring a surprise to him at his workplace muahahaha~

happy cos one of those tyko things happened to me again at e s**** sushi place everyone noes.. hahaha....

we ate 21 coloured plates, 2 red plates, 1 chicken teriyaki don, 1 dunno wad ramen, 5 chawans, 4 plates of mochi, 1 bud's ice cream, 1 soft shell crab and blah blah blah.. guess how much our bill?! 50.69 only.. hahahahahahahaha n e manager at e cashier was trying to swipe my card n he did swipe a lot of times until e wuhan clique teased me abt my card being a qiong-one from china hahaha... well.. swipe a few more times is good de ok cos we got more than 60% discount can hahahahaha.. cos e manager din key in e coloured plates n red plates can?! n we saved close to $60.. how good can dat b?! we came out luffing non-stop.... [i was reminded of my marche dinner wif cz e last time, e forever 21 shades, e giant ziploc bag] hahahahahaha 老天爷知道 i m broke! hahaha yay!

then we luffed luffed luffed our way to musicdreamer.... hahaa e place was darn packed! n we told e waiter we r gh's frens hahaha n we dowan him to c us.. but e stupid thing is e only vacant tables r right in front of e stage.... aiyo sooooo malu....
then halfway me n mt wanna go toilet.. we walked to millenia walk to find but all e doors r locked.. den we walked back to music dreamer but we really v 急 u noe.. den i got so pek chek i asked e waiter n he was luffing at me cos he was like toilets r nxt to our cafe... diaozz.. but idiot only 1 cubicle so i let mt go first cos she younger than me.. i m v v v 急 toooo... booo....
anyway last nite i really felt i was in wuhan all over again hahahaha... n dat there's no curfew or wad.. n we cld jus hang out till late late as usual.. but haizz.. we still haf to 赶 e last bus n stuff.. so we din really stay behind to chat wif dat gh oso... hahahaha.. e last time we passed by e cafe he seemed to b playing cards wif his frens n din c us liao hahaha....
looking fw to our nice gathering yippie~ hopefully we can use e 2 mahjong sets n 20 sets of poker roomie+bf brought back from china.. hahahahah dotz...

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Friday, August 03, 2007


if

如果现实生活和梦中的一样就好...

i woke up feeling v v v drained... cos i had dis super super long dream at this [i think its some ]amusement park..
but is that wad i really want? i oso dunno.. cos in e dream i seemed to run away and i even wake up when e answer was already in my face...
haiz... e dream seemed soo soo soooo real....

anyway i woke up n saw a happy sms! cannot share wif ppl yet cos its still 不能说的秘密 muahahahahaha.... yay!!! sth to look fw to~~~

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sianzz

sch's starting soon.. damn sian
no mood to go back to sch actually.. mayb cos most of my frens grad le.. nobody to whine to haizz...
den when i go back to sch hafta face my fyp.. damn sianz....
today had a nice dinner n catching up wif xq... haha hope we meet up soon n go somewhere soon.. [actually like not v soon] aiyo.. another suggestion of gg backpack in viet,cambodia.. haiz... can we ALL go tgt? hahaha...
chk online n realised e idiot beauty counter sold me e wrong refill. no wonder it felt weird.. first time i went to buy refill without bringing my original.. lousy service cos e salesgirl seemed irritated when i m not v sure wad product i m using.. i only noe e shade.. kns... i nv bother to rmb wad is e exact name cos i alwiz bring it along wif me when i need to get e refill mah.. kns~
need to sleep.. my bio clock is v spoilt.. n my hse running out of food to eat.. sianz!!!

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Thursday, August 02, 2007


一直没留意

i heard dis song a few times but today e lyrics caught my attention...

作词:小寒
作曲:李偲菘

总装着很有把握
不准爱渗入生活
才发现闯了祸
让你当真以为我的心上了锁
让你绝望地走
成全独立的我
好想捂朵
不想不看不想听谁说
好想蹲在角落
把谴责的眼光都躲过

像个黑色漩涡
将我吞没
悔恨已逃不脱

我承认这都是我
感情事处理得不妥
从不说
我爱你
那么多

原来人可能脆弱
爱让我很难振作
我坐在最前座
人生第一次面对什么叫落寞
经历你这一走
最大傻瓜是我

我不要谁好心帮我
每个人像在隔岸观火
看我犯错
提醒我说
都是我的错
提醒我说
逼你离开我

就算同情是条绳索
我也没办法伸出双手
拯救自己(除了你)
除非是你(拯救我)
肯回头(为了我)
扭转这个结果

finally everyone's back from wuhan!! time for gathering soon soon soon... haha
i 摆 a 乌龙 yest thinking roomie is back yest... den got gh n mandy to go airport.. in e end made us worried when we din c them at airport... thot they stranded at yichang or sth hahaha.. but yupz today went airport again n finally got to c roomie n ronnie! they r li hai man! 60kg of luggage... paid 270rmb for excess baggage.. n eben upgraded wif tiger airways to 25kg of baggage allowance.. diaoz...
n everyone said e same thing when they r back... hahahaa if only everything in sg is denominated in rmb/hkd... we wld greatly appreciate that...
anyway yest e movie was hilarious.. thou if dey keep away e sexual scenes i wld appreciate more.. n so rare for a hilarious movie to b qt long.. abt 2 hours lor.. diaoz... hahaha i voted for this movie simply bcos i refused to watch "alone" kns lor... i wun spend money to scare myself.. esp after dat stupid thai horror movie i watched wif dat cz... but at least dat one was free... cos preview... but nv ask me go watch horror movie lor... idiot...
today me n mandy jus spent time roaming ard n nua-ing.. haha...
few more days b4 i need to go back to sch n face reality... damn sianz....
i neeed to reiterate a point....
I M REALLY BROKE LOR!
how come no one wanna believe?!

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