但希望我們能在邁上成功路上遇見 我們都站在正義那一邊
went mediacorp to 算票den went for lunch wif auntie jingyun.. v long nv haf lunch wif her le.. ever since she on morn shift.. still rmb e times we pei her in studio till midnight... celebrated her bday for her yadayada..den after dat me n cheezi went ktv.. but it was freezing cold.. n u noe de lar.. i cant tahan cold de.. so halfway haf to go buy shawl to wrap myself.. n order milo instead of my usual iced lemon tea.. haizz... den loogie cos hafta report early for liang jing ru sch concert..
1st time i on duty as a cac-ian... usually if i wanna watch can jus let auntie nix noe.. den go wif 933 ppl heehee.. but anyway.. cos there was supposed to b an external press conference.. den hoi ning was e public relations director.. so i supposed to contact her.. hmm.. i 明明noe her de.. but she has to sound so serious..a bit 不习惯n also i rather not c her.. nor remind myself anything or person related to u...bcos i really dunno how to face dem.. jus like u may feel guilty in frt of my frens.. i feel guilty in frt of ur frens.. anyway i was qt pissed wif hoining oso lar.. cos i was waiting for instructions from her where is e press con n stuff.. but oredi e stipulated time nobody come n inform me or wad.. i sms her she oso nv reply.. i noe she's bz lar but still.. den i called her up lor.. n yeah wif her serious, no-nonsense tone she told me i cant go in cos its only for external reporters only n it is in an enclosed room lor... haiz.. at first she tot it was along e corridor so i cld stand ard.. hmm i tot she shld lemme noe earlier rather than having me wait like an idiot lor..
but anyway i din say anything other than jus orh ok thks bye. cos i will lotsa opportunities to work wif her in future.. all e future concerts.. i rather things remain dis way.. sian diao..
was reading ur testimonials den realise u will ring hoi ning up at 3am in e morn.. well i nv knew u wld do such things.. mayb she's more impt ba.. suddenly rmb dat time i heard hoi ning's music diary being read out on air.. den i called u.. n u cried bcos it was abt dat girl.. haizzz...
i really dunno how to face u again really.. thou i really pick up our friendship again... but mayb u not reading my blog liao.. i really dunno cos u nv leave any comments or wad like i said....but i noe althou i say u WILL NOT leave de..
How are you now 過得好不好
看到你出現就安心了不少 或許經過了些時間
我們友情會更堅牢 記得嗎 那年的夏天
分享的喜悅在我們眉間 汗水和淚水終於溶成了鋼和鐵
終於踏上了稜線的尖端 兩邊都可以讓人跌下山崖
不要害怕 錯過再來 但一定要過得更精采 你要繼續前進
我們都站在正義那一邊 同一個世界 不同的視野
但希望我們能在邁上成功路上遇見 我們都站在正義那一邊
我們一定會挺你到永遠 只要你還在堅持
追求夢想那個光點 終於踏上了稜線的尖端
兩邊都可以讓人跌下山崖 不要害怕
錯過再來 但一定要過得更精采 你要繼續前進
我們都站在正義那一邊 同一個世界 不同的視野
但希望我們能在邁上成功路上遇見 我們都站在正義那一邊
this was e song for toro when he left energy alone...
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yeah our first photocard!! 
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isit over....
today i heard dis sth like dis on 933...
记忆好不是一件好事 相反的遗忘或许是一种幸福。。。
dis is wad u wrote in e letter...
It's very sad when friends fall out, they only remember the negative side of the other. And forget the good times.... and why thing turned out like that between them
if u still rmb i still haf an untold secret wif vivien.. to think our friendship couldn't last as long as I live..
i wanted sooo much to tell u abt it but mayb u shld b e last person to noe abt it.. i shldn't do things on impulse anymore...
i m listening to dis song as i was typing dis entry... share wif u e lyrics...
因为太了解所以很伤心 没有你只好听着风的呼吸
却有种叫做时间的东西 说没问题 最后我们会痊愈
因为太了解我无法坚定 这一次会有掉眼泪的决定
有些遗憾只能一个人听
很对不起 我还是珍惜 所有的事情
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*HoPe*
gg to sch later for micro test n presentations.. v stress.. feel so alone all of a sudden...
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dunno dunno dunno....
i dunno how u will react dis time..
but i noe calvin definitely know e ans..
so difficult to face him e nxt time..
i dowan meet him on e bus again!
e feeling of him knowing evrithing is ...
haizz...
told my uni frens abt it...in fact not only by dem but i haf been told by some of my frens we sound as thou we r like bf n gf... well we r not lesbians! jus dat we r really v close ba.. like wad calvin said we r like childhood frens.. even closer than me n my sis... but come to think abt it.. i think i share more secrets wif u... mayb i dun understand u.. i dunno how u feel a lot of times.. more rather u usually complain to me e not-so-personal stuff... for instance.. u n calvin.. i noe wad calvin felt for u right from e start.. but as much as i wanna help him.. i cld only based on my intuition dat u like him too.. cos u wun tell me anything abt it.. for some reason... i nv knew any of ur crushes except those in rg.. even zg.. bcos calvin asked dat y i noe.. mayb i get v excited over crushes dat y will tok to u abt it evri time.. but dis cooling down period is good for me.. cos ever since hols till now.. whenever i haf problems.. i will not do e first thing i used to do..dat is calling u... even when i knew u deleted my testimonial.. at dat pt in time i really felt like calling u like wad i alwiz did... but i din call anyone.. din tok to anyone.. until u replied me.. mayb i haf found another way of solving my own problems other than calling u up evri now n then.. i haf learnt not to think abt it.. in e past i used to dwell abt it... den complain to u day after day.. time n again.. but now i will not bother.. i thot i haf mastered art but i was wrong! dis time ard..i kept thinking abt it..
Like wad my good fren told me.. as e saying goes.. "when u break a vase, you can try to stick e peices back together but u can nv get it to look perfect like it was before..."
i haf micro test tml again..
i suddenly tot of e times e studied tgt b4 A levels.. gg to reading room.. den went sixth avenue eat icecream instead... den went cold storage buy snacks.. think u bot a packet of nachos hor.. den i saw F4 on wan bao or isit jay.. but i rmb giving u e papers cos got ur nic..
i dunno y m i typing all these.. y m i writing dis blog.. mayb cos i m sick ba.. brain not thinking liao...
last wk of lect le.. nxt wk last wk of tut.. nxt nxt wk exams le~~!!
cant wait for exams to b over!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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we must b crazy dat day haha... almost went ard e entire singapore... met in e morn at woodlands lib.. den went changi airport.. den went orchard for sushi den bugis to shop... finally near nus to eat cheese prata... thks girls for doing crazy things wif me!!!
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曲：胡彥斌 | 詞：胡彥斌 | 編：
難得見面以後 沉默多過了開口
偶爾有個電話的問候 時間也顯得緊湊
想和你一起走走 也成了可望不可求
問你理由 總推說不好受 口氣中帶點彆扭
* 別找借口 別找理由 其實我不會強求
別找借口 我已看透 什麼才是無藥可救
別找借口 不要低頭 其實我早就該走
別找借口 不要內疚 非常抱歉是我讓你為難左右
別找借口 別找理由 其實我不會強求
別找借口 我已看透 什麼才是無藥可救
別找借口 不要低頭 其實我早就該走
別找借口 不要內疚 是我讓你為難左右
一旦有了缺口 誠心免不了會丟
尷尬也在無意間滲透 這種明顯的紕漏
誰都看的出的理由 還不如讓我瀟灑地先走
那麼明顯的借口 何必要我等到最後
Repeat *
我不想聽你的借口 也不願看見你低頭難受
我會把一切全部都帶走
Repeat *
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e song i once asked u to pay attention to e lyrics...
曲： | 詞： | 編：
Ro：慶幸曾遇上 夢裡世紀合唱
在這間K 房合唱定情每字也鏗鏘
要換人合唱 情事頓覺淒涼
還情願我練成獨唱 一半沒有聲響
Ra：可說是我不肯離場 同一首歌天天唱
2R：望你來再將空白填補上
* 2R：如何熱唱 如何高唱 遺留半首金曲未唱
合唱者未到場 愛情留下了篇章
忘形地唱 沈迷的唱 抬頭看只得我跟四面牆
無人願接上 就成絕唱 行行斷句 我怎麼唱 *
Ro：你若逃避我 無暇共我消磨
為何上次又來贈我 一個夢半首歌
當我共你這麼諧和 情歌首首都點過
2R：是愛情我怎可能還聽錯
Repeat *
Ro：就算得到單曲 讓我分一半
Ra：不懂享受有的一半
2R：但介意我沒有一半
Repeat *
Ro：明明是我倆 定情合唱 誰來代你 我都不唱
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today i finally noe my hesitation to tell u my blog url was for a reason..
dat testimonial u wrote for me. it's MINE!
u deleted it...
dat testimonial i wrote for u. it's yours..
u chose to delete it...
these r all part of e memories we share tgt.. if u really wanna delete, delete urs.
leave mine alone!
when i look back 10 yrs down e road.. it's as if we haf only started being frens (if e day ever come when we write new testimonials for one another)
i started my blog long ago when i was in ntu all alone without frens... gg to lect n tut all alone... den i missed u n smu.. but in smu things wld pretty much be e same... i dun haf a lot of frens in smu u noe dat.. yar like wad chris had said i was not sociable enuf...
it gets stressful when my fren had lotsa frens wif her n seems to haf no time for me.. to start off our relationship was a v close one.. n cos i din haf many frens in smu i depended on u... it gets even more stressful when i dun seem to b able to do well in smu... all e hard work i put in is not recognised (in academic sense)
e day i smsed u after knowing u had macro test.. i was having micro test e v next day.. i was reminded of e times we studied tgt.. dat y i msged u.. i wanted to call u.. luckily i din for ur line wld definitely b hogged by calvin.. n true enuf u called calvin n cried...
i wanted to call u when i knew wad happened to ur dad.. i wanted to forget wad has happened.. i tried calling u.. ur line was engaged once again.. i smsed calvin i told him i cant get u.. he told me u were not in e right frame of mind to tok to me... since when has tokking to me require e right frame of mind?
in june b4 i start working at maybank.. i called u when janet told me she had free concert tix to f4 charity concert.. again ur line was engaged... i tot if we cld go crazy tgt again.. evrything cld b bacl to normal...
when i cldn't bring myself to tell u i m leaving i haf no other choice.. i din wanna break e news to u so early...i din tell a lot of ppl except yanling cheezi n rena.. i din wanna tell too many ppl esp u cos i was so afraid i wld not b able to make a decision..
but u chose to let calvin sms me.. instead of u.. dat hurts too...
after psycho lessons.. it became so ez to know if u r meeting calvin after dat.. if u r.. u wld jus say bye n leave.. if u r not u will stay behind watch me pack my stuff den asked if i gg mediacorp.. esp after psycho paper... i esp told cheezi we go down late today... cos i wanted to go out wif u like wad we alwiz did after exam papers.. n even econs tests n complain tgt... but u left wif calvin.. i waited for u in toilet.. i cldn't bring myself to ask if i cld join u all.. i din wanna interrupt.. so i haf to pretend i was meeting cheezi.. n shopped ard myself..
i tot i cld handle all these alone i din wanna bag u down wif all these stuff that seemed trivial..
i became afraid to face u also... i din noe wad to tok abt... cos i dunno wad r e things u told calvin.. he seemed to noe evri thing or worse still abit of evri thing..
yesh u smsed icqed me.. but i rather u sms me ur problems or calvin.. n not abt timetable or u noe official stuff... i rather noe more personal stuff...
even dat time mediacorp e 广播嘉年华 u rmb i told u i asked chris to help out.. it was e first event i was put in charge tgt wif cheezi... den chris told me siao no money??!! i told u.. den u said yar lar of cos no money still ask ppl to help out... i wanted so much to ask u to help... but hearing ur response.. i decided not to ask.. yanling n xinqiao came down n help me.. xq bf came down somemore... i was v touched by xq.. cos i only meet her once a yr...
well u din hear me mention anything abt working in maybank.. neither did i hear u mention anything abt ur dad..
it's not abt phone bill?! IT IS!! dat time organising dat mediacorp stuff.. my hp bill oredi rocketed to sky-high le lor... n u call me n asked abt official stuff.. i was more disappointed than anything..
u misinterpreted my words.. after trfing to ntu.. i went back smu once.. e first time was to return chris sth and pass eileen my text to sell.. i was supposed to go back again.. but u din sms me to confirm e time.. so i gave up.. even wks b4 when u had ur recess u din ask me out... in case u din noe.. i was waiting for ur sms evri day... i wanted to meet up wif u...
how do i noe u were frequently thinking of me? by e no. of times u called calvin up n telling HIM u miss ME?? y dun u tell me?
i became afraid of telling u my problems n stuff.. cos i dunno how much u wld tell him.. even noe u r reading my blog.. is he reading it?
i noe if i dun bother abt things n do like wad u say.. let time heal our wounds.. time wld pretty much b like wad me n wanqing r now..
n its not abt me n u.. e only way is to stop calvin from intervening.. how many times haf we lost e opportunity to sort things out bcos of him? n how many times i wanted to tok to u but stop bcos he was ard....
I HATE CALVIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Subconsciously Vs Uncconsciously
but anyway.. got to know dis hwa chong senior from my chinese trad n society class.. den yar haha his class bench was nxt to mine in hwa chong.. so mus haf seen him ard in hcjc definitely.. den we were gossipping abt some of e seniors i noe haha..den i realise a lot of unhappy things i haf oredi forgotten.. like i was telling him i din had a good impression of a senior in my senior class my mortal.. den he was asking me y? but i simply cant rmb wad things he had done to make me so disgusted haha.. which is a good thing.. i think i haf learnt e art of letting go.. dun i? i dunno. but mayb in e first place i only treat dat senior as any other senior.. or rather acquaintances so i din really bother abt him...
those ppl who r able to hurt me e most r my closest frens.. dat's e case for evri one... bcos dey r my closest frens.. there is a strong relationship n u care for e person.. dat's y u will alwiz say e most hurting words to ur loved ones... to spite dem.. but dat is not wad u wanna do... haizz... n unconsciously u will alwiz rmb e harmful things dey did to u.. to make a relationship turn sour it takes only a sec, a caustic remark... yet to build a relationship it takes a few mths a few years even... when i say i m letting go of the relationship m i really willing to let go?? a few yrs down e road wld i haf regretted e decision?
actually sometimes i hate him.. i dunno if he was e one who caused us to go our separate ways.. but if one cld come so easily between us our friendship wasn't dat strong as we thot.. isn't it?
anyway.. enuf of relationship n friendship problems haha.. life is so boring without crushes.. haha v long nv look out for cute guys or crush targets liao.. y did i become lydat i dunno leh.. haha not interested in anyone or anything now.. guess i will remain on the shelf for e rest of my life.. it has become a chore for me to develop a liking for guys haha...
yar anyway now i m in hss free access lab.. actually it's shared wif nbs de.. but we haf a little hss corner.. shldn't b in sch on fri but had to come sch to chair my foc meeting.. bleah.. it was my first meeting.. spent e whole night writing my agenda n stuff... din wanna take up e role of chairperson de.. but hmm.. dunno leh... since i haf already agreed.. i might as well give it my best shot.. hope HSS FOC will b a success.. ya dey gg to implement e GPA system on us so we r like e first batch of guinea pigs in the entire NTU.. so now dey r coming up wif a petition lorr... actually i oso dunno if i m agst the implementation or not.. well since we haf it in SMU le.. den it wasn't one of e key factors i chose NTU in e end.. but.. still felt a bit cheated lorr.. cos if i dun do well for my GEs dat's it! a lot of my course mates were saying dey cant afford to take up a module dey r interested liao for fear of pulling down their entire GPA...i wanted to take up 2 minors de.. minor in Chinese and Business... so it really doesn't affect me since all my GEs haf to be taken into account for my minor.. but if i dun do well in my GEs.. at least i can dun declare dat as my minor.. but i m left wif no choice now.... v luan lorr... exams r round e corner liao.. so i dun really wanna think abt it... i jus wanna do well for my exams.. n really well!! cos its my first NTU exams!!! yeah i can do well!! i can i can I CAN!!!!!!!!!!
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等待下次春天來 等待精彩 等待花開
den went back n continue to finish our pizza den headed to can 2 to eat waffle while dey eat sliced fish soup haha... den we moved to alison's room.. n "tried" to study in e end we were reading magazines like "bride" and "female" hahaha we all seem eager to put on gowns n stuff... there r jus so many things we wanna do tgt!!! so happy to noe dis bunch of fun n cute n pretty girls haha.... thks loads!! u make me ever more confident that my decision in coming ntu was right from the start!!!
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yo babes!! haha think we r so crazy man alwiz taking photos haha....
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lala
yar.. den last nite.. i watched e first horror movie in my entire lifetime... probably gonna b e last too! its a thai movie called e art of e devil.. e two female lead r v pretty thou.. yesh i noe all my close frens r wondering y wld e girl who din even watch "e ring" go watch horror movie.. i simply dun wanna waste money scaring e wits out of myself lorr.. but well its free... cheezi wanted to watch so we got free movie preview tix lorr..so we went to watch.. in e end i watched more parts than her n i hafta keep filling her in wif all e parts.. haizz... haha den today i was telling my fren abt e whole plot haha.. den she got so frightened lor.. but surprisingly i din think abt e movie on my way home or b4 i went to slp.. so unlike me.. prob cos i was too tired.. n got lotsa homework to finish.. haizz.. n plus wasn't feeling well..but today ok liao haha e idea of having long wkn nv fails to perks me haha..
anyway.. haha dis present stage of my life i m v happy lar haha... thou got tests n stuff.. i enjoy gg to sch!! yeah~~!!!
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lala
yar.. den last nite.. i watched e first horror movie in my entire lifetime... probably gonna b e last too! its a thai movie called e art of e devil.. e two female lead r v pretty thou.. yesh i noe all my close frens r wondering y wld e girl who din even watch "e ring" go watch horror movie.. i simply dun wanna waste money scaring e wits out of myself lorr.. but well its free... cheezi wanted to watch so we got free movie preview tix lorr..so we went to watch.. in e end i watched more parts than her n i hafta keep filling her in wif all e parts.. haizz... haha den today i was telling my fren abt e whole plot haha.. den she got so frightened lor.. but surprisingly i din think abt e movie on my way home or b4 i went to slp.. so unlike me.. prob cos i was too tired.. n got lotsa homework to finish.. haizz.. n plus wasn't feeling well..but today ok liao haha e idea of having long wkn nv fails to perks me haha..
anyway.. haha dis present stage of my life i m v happy lar haha... thou got tests n stuff.. i enjoy gg to sch!! yeah~~!!!
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