im blur n clumsy... grrr...
pm went to lunch wif rena but she din bring her hp.. hee heng we fix a e time n place le! n she brot me to a nice yong tau foo place! qt nice leh.. e sweet sauce is nice! haha.. n im really spoilt for choices.. i cldnt decide which 7 items to pick haha...
n when i was abt to walk to e counter n gif e uncle my bowl, i almost tripped n fell!! grrr e entire shop was looking at me so paiseh!! heng i din fall cos i wld haf topple all e bowls.. n i really prolly nid to wash bowls for them liao lor..
eh but toppling over e bowls is better than toppling over those yong tau foo ingredients! boohoo cant imagine how much i wld hafta pay lor..
den after lunch i walked to 3 different esprits.. i bot a top, a pair of slippers n a belt hee yesh belt again i noe.. i haf a fetish for esprit belts leh.. yar n out of e 3 items dat i bot only 1 voucher can b used haizz.. sian diao.. cos e other 2 r not apparel..
wif my 收获 i went to coro ntuc to shop for ingredients for tonight's dinner.. when i reached ntuc i promptly forgot my wanton-making thingy, only rmb my fried rice haiz.. i bot a pomfret n a few packets of vege..
i reached home dump those stuff in fridge n wanted to go sleep a while.. toss n turn a while still cant sleep.. den i had a pleasant surprise when i chk my com cos he was online!! den i stared at e screen for like 10 min not doing anything! grrr... i mus haf looked stupid.. heng nobody at home.. cos its like 发呆-ing at e screen.. so dumb.. argh!! den i decided i cant jus go on staring at my screen so i went to take e ingredients out from e fridge.. i m gg to prepare dinner.. but every 10 min i will go back to my room n chk my msn haha..
haizz in e end tonite's dinner was a disaster! cos after i steamed e fish i was thinking eh how come e fishy smell is sooo strong today? den i realise blur me!!! i m really a blur sotong i forgot to put ginger!!! grr... so i screamed n shouted for my dad!! my dad was like aiya its ok still can eat de! i looked at him suspiciously.. i tried e soup eh no pungent smell leh.. tried a bit of e fish oso ok leh.. haha heng ar.. c how distracted i can b jus bcos he's online lor.. grrr..
den my fried rice was another disaster haizz.. sian diao cos some parts still white white.. i din stir properly.. v sad.. okie thurs i will 努力！i shld switch off my msn on thurs when i m preparing dinner so dat i wun b distracted again thou i doubt he will b online lar.. he hit his weekly quota liao haha..
okie enuf of disasters today liao.. poor daddy hafta put up wif my lousy cooking tonite.. eh but weird leh he finished every single dish leh.. he din say anything was bad leh.. wah so 难得 e great gourmet nv 挑剔 my cooking..
i shall go back to my writing assignment.. bye..
the princess left at
7:14 PM
haha...
no i haben finish all my assignments n tut n yet i so free go visit all my frens' blogs.. n read.. den suay lar.. i saw my name first on e list to do sth! haha.. so here goes:
1) whether I like female or male --
hahahaha funny question huh.. i want a bf so means i like males.. haha dis sentence sounds farnie cos it may sound as thou i like all e males on earth but bleah.. i rmb a fren once told me she like guys sooo much dat she can nv b platonic frens wif them.. so yar she doesnt haf any v close guy frens.. as for me leh i agree wif another fren's argument: dat if e girl/guy is attached, its easier to become platonic frens wif dat person.. cos u noe its impossible mah den u wun harbour any funny thots! haha.. n u wun hurt urself too! but it doesnt mean i dun like females! haha i mean i like e companionship of all my female good friends! haha..eg can go shopping n tok abt farnie stuff n stupid stuff! haha can oso 撒娇 to them.. BUT BUT BUT like wad my fren mentioned in her blog.. i oso cant imagine doing intimate phyisical actions wif girls.. haha.. like some ppl can peck each other on e cheeks eeks! i dun dare!! let alone on e lips lar.. haha.. but holding hands wif girls is ok! haha cos i alwiz hold my gf's hand ar.. haha..
so i m straight! muahahah..
2) 8 criteria for my ideal partner --
hmmm ehhh v hard leh... cos ar.. usually 事与愿违 wadeva kind of ideal guy u dream of ar.. ultimately ur bf will 差 十万八千里 haha.. n i believe in 感觉很重要 nvm if he doesnt possess those criteria dat i set as long as we can get along its fine..
1. MCP
haha yar i noe some of my guy frens "HUH??" me when i told them i set dis as a criteria cos nowadays girls dun like mcp.. but i like! partly cos ar when mcp gets angry n jealous dey look v cute!! muahahaha.. like my father.. den e way dey try n hold back deir feelings n thots v farnie too! but e most impt thing is dat mcp usually dun like to c damsels in distress n dey will feel e need to protect u.. awww... haha..
2. cannot smoke
i dun mind if he drinks.. eh not those alcoholic kind hor.. n hor pls ar drink as in not drink 6 cans of beer at one go kind.. can drink others anot cos beer v smelly.. if drink liao better not come near me haha.. i dun mind if he gambles too as long as not 烂赌鬼 haha.. i mean occasional dai dee, mj, bridge, blackjack is fine wif me.. but definitely no smoking! not eben social smoker!! my goodness n nowadays if u walk along orchard road ar more n more youngsters lighting up le.. damn sian.. polluting our air mah..
3. smarter than me
i dun mean smarter as in academic results or wad.. but e overall feeling i mus b able to learn sth from him.. or dat he possess a quality dat i dun haf so dat i can look up to him haha..
4. he mus love me!
haha v impt rite! sheesh how can i forget!! he dun like me den wad's e pt?? hahaha.. so if he love me den he will 疼 me mah hahhaa...
okie enuf of inner qualities cos ar i really think all dese r really written for e sake of writing cos 感觉 is still e most impt one.. let's tok abt physical appearance..
5. i dowan tall bfs.. as in taller than 180 kind..
in e first place i dun think anybody of dat height will 看上 me oso hahaha n oso in sg ar not many ppl wif dis kind of height.. but yeah i prefer guys wif at least 170. yeah too tall no good ar cos ar my head will b v tired lar.. n i prolly cant lean on his chest or rest my head on his shoulder.. den v 痛苦 haha..
6. 顺眼
eh yar i dowan too 帅 one those kind girls will go wah n ga-ga over.. den everyday i nid to 提心吊胆 boohoo dowan haha.. as long as i think he's 帅 can liao hahaha..
7. face bigger than me + palm thick n big like bear's paw + broad shoulders
hahaha.. yeah my face v big ar so ar he better not haf samall face lar.. if not i dowan take pic wif him liao boohoo.. i like my dad's hand! cos v thick like cushion lydat so i hope my future bf hand oso got dat kind of 安全感 haha.. broad shoulders v impt! i dun like thin lanky guys.. dowan too thin lar.. dowan too fat oso.. haha cos ar i v fat la.. stand nxt to thin guys will only make me look fatter boohoo..
8. i cant think of anything liao!!
oh.. hmm a bit bad to put down in words but ya i cant accept if a guy is v v v v poor.. eh i mean if u r not dat rich den u mus haf 上进心 go work or sth.. den i dun mind.. but if those kind v poor one ar den whole day borrow $ from me sorry i bui tahan.. cos ar i still hope once in a while my bf will pay my meals for me! haha we can take turns to pay so fun! so if he cant afford den i will feel v 辛苦 cos he may feel obliged to pei me go indulge once in a while.. i dunno lar.. i think it may sound as thou i m mercenary but i rather i sound like one now than in e future he nid to 让 or 迁就我 den will haf a lot of conflicts in e future..
haha.. dat's abt it..
oh i used to think guys who play e guitar v good n talented n i set it as one of my criteria back in jc.. but nah its no longer one of my criteria anymore.. mayb at least likes music eg will listen to music or go ktv [even better] haha.. or mayb noe how to play any musical instrument.. n i dun mean recorder ||| haha..
3) list out 8 friends whom I hope to see them doing this in their blog too
1.vien
2.xq
3.cz
4.anna
i dunno who else who reads my blog n haf a blog liao leh.. boohoo so if my blogders wanna do dis in ur blog too feel free too! =)
the princess left at
9:54 AM
time really waits for no man [ n girls too =) ]
today woke up early to go sch for mon lect.. yeah it shld b an unofficial free day for me.. y i go sch rite?
1] prof ng will b away nxt nxt wk so today covering 2 lect..
2] nid to help rena collect stuff from iro..
3] nid to q up for concert tix..
yeah in e end e first pt wasnt really accomplished cos e lt air con was spoilt n its damn hot n stuffy lar! irritating so we left during break..
e stuff for rena werent ready so i jus helped her write her email add n dey will send soft copy to her..
yar got e tix in e end..
den after collecting tix i was sooo hungry me n gh went jp to eat.. cant decide wad to eat.. in e end chose kfc ha..
n i m amazed by my BIG appeitite!! today i ate eben more than gh leh!! so 难得！cos usually i cant finish my food den he alwiz say he help me 积德 by finishing it up for me.. yeah but i shant say wad i finished today haha i think will 吓死 all of u!! so i m all ready for e nxt chomp chomp visit.. i gear up my appetite liao!! haha. but got trick one.. mus distract me n keep tokking to me so dat i will b distracted n become unconscious of e amt of food i popping into my mouth haha..
when i reached home i slept all e way to evening until it was time to cook dinner.. haizz hafta deal wif two sick ppl at home.. daddy stomachache sis i dunno cos she nv tok n jus slept slept n slept.. din eben help me wif e dinner preparations..
i had to prepare everything alone boohoo..
yeah daddy say can cook fried rice tml since today got lotsa leftover rice!! haha y i so happy rite? cos haizz daddy alwiz insist we mus haf proper white rice n 3 dishes at least.. so if tml cook fried rice my job wil b sooo much easier!! eh but not really.. fried rice oso nid to prepare a lot of stupid ingredients.. c how lar tml.. i feel like eating wanton.. c if i can buy ingredients at ntuc tml lor..
tml is e last day to use up all my esprit vouchers!!!! [p/s: those ppl who i haf given esprit vouchers.. pls rmb to use hor!!! dun waste!!!] haizz shit!! dunno how m i gg to finish using.. so many lor.. so irritating.. i m spending money for e sake of spending.. so bad..
eh but i haf been to esprit a couple of times last wk n last last wk but really nth nice to buy leh!! how how how?? i dowan waste my vouchers!! boohoo...
n i haben use my topshop voucher oso!! boohoo..
oh hahaha my neighbour's son jus came over n play again.. he is not exactly v cute lar but he jus learnt how to tok.. so every night he will stand outside my door n shout "姐姐！" n if we bo chup him he will keep knocking or banging to get our attention.. i jus gave him biscuits... n he chose all my choco biscuits!!! n u noe wad? he threw his bread down from e little hole at my balcony! so i urge all of u who stay near me not to walk under my flat at night cos u might b hit by killer litter.. eg unfinished bread of e little boy. haha dat time he threw biscuits wrapper down oso.. haizz can he dun throw in frt of my hse wah lau later police come n catch me lor!
ok but he's a nice boy cos jus now my sis gave him more biscuits den he v full le.. he started to feed his maid.. den his maid asked him " not nice ar? " den he nod his head n said " nice, dowan." haha so cute..
can i pinch his cheeks?? haha but i scared his ah ma muahaha..
nxt time den i pinch my own son's cheeks!! hahaha.. i think if i dun get married in future i will go sperm bank or sth cos i want a son! or a daughter oso can.. cos i oredi tot of my kids' names hahaha...
haizzz anyway i in a dilemma.. its btwn china summer prog n bkk.. i mean i can go for both lar.. but bkk will b dangerous cos if gh is gg china sp he confirmed plus chop wun go bkk liao, not dat he agree to go now.. haizz.. den if gh not gg willie wun go too.. n me n cz go only so dangerous.. somemore now chatuchak got strike leh! boohoo.. can go elsehwere strike anot.. wah lau go chatuchak boohoo..
n i dun really wanna go wif my jc guys cos dey told me dey wanna go too.. wah lau.. dey cmi de leh.. i dowan!! i dowan sleep in cyber cafe wif them n cant brush my teeth properly.. boohoo...
but i feel that even if we dun get to go china sp, ultimately its prolly jus gg to b me n cz 相依为命 go bkk alone.. ha.. n ah bu dat day contributed to my bkk shopping fund le! she got leftover thai baht from her krabi trip so she gave me 200 baht hahaha.. prolly can buy a bag or sth or mayb eat 2 meals.. 在见到你 关键的第一秒 爱的情愫 开始发酵
小心翼翼 写给你的字条 幸福画上心型记号
你像一座孤傲的岛 有自己的城堡
我是上不了岸的潮 也只能将你围绕
全世界的人都知道 一厢情愿是种烦恼
只要换你一次微笑 就算是作梦也会笑
全世界的人不知道 我不在乎付出多少
我想这就是幸福写照 任何人不能阻止我对你的好
sianzzz... gotta get back to my tut..
the princess left at
9:40 PM
titleless...
okie jus went to sing k wif cz haha it was a spur of a moment n thou i jus went last sun to e exact same venue.. dere were a few different things:
1] ha we were sitting nxt to e toilet! so can hurry up go toilet n come back which is good cos only 2 of us.. if left one alone in e room v no kick lar..
2] it was not as cold today leh.. i was only wearing t shirt n berms lor.. cz din even wear jacket..
3] n yar i was not as high as last wk haha..
4] we din take as much pics compared to my session last wk
5] dere were a few more new songs!! eg jj songs!! my goodness!! n eben guang liang song is there!! wow!!
n i managed to sing all e songs which i FORGOT to sing last wk! hahaha.. yay!
den nth much to tok abt liao abt ktv..
but along e way home cos my dear nano no batt i was thinking abt some stuff ha..
i realised i v long dun haf dat kind of 一直很想很想要某样东西，然后最后得到了 or rather certain things u wish wld happen n eventually happening dat kind of ecstatic feeling.. dat kind of over e moon feeling which will make u happy for days, or even months.. n i dun refer to those materialistic stuff which can b bot using money, more of like relationship wise..
cos ar today daddy looks a wee bit happier cos his 宝贝daughter => ME! haha.. v guai today.. i vacuumed n mopped e whole house n helped prepare lunch! n i eben did my laundry n helped out wif e other household chores.. i did all this cos i m gg out in e pm.. i used to hate vacuum n mop but ar today ar after i finish mopping e oily kitchen floor cos sis fried fish.. n e kitchen floor is now so clean i m so proud of myself!! haha..
if only i can b so enthu every other day.. but when i got home after ktv.. daddy asked if i had eaten.. cos he was alone at home mah.. den i said yar i ate liao.. n i know he v lazy de.. he will jus wait at home until someone comes home or calls home to buy dinner for him.. so i thot he haben eat.. den i asked him den he said he jus ate..
hmm its ok if he stopped there but he went on to say 我一个人而已，怎么煮？haizz den i feel v bad cos like i went out to enjoy den daddy had to dine alone..
wad will happen in e future when he's all alone.. dis is prolly one v big issue dat i can nv find a solution to..
haizz he seems bored.. cos ar.. i jus opened fridge daddy bot lotsa of cornettos n soleros.. i tot sis bot them cos i jus took one to eat but daddy said he bot them cos he noe we all like to eat.. wah i tell u my 眼泪 really 差点飚出来 cos ar a few entries ago i still complain abt how daddy has been nagging at us.. den i m getting qt irritated n i dowan stay home..
i wanted to sign up for china summer studies.. but now i having 2nd thots.. cos i wld b away from home for abt 1 mth.. den daddy will b all alone.. sis shld b bz wif her sch work then cos she having exams.. she might not b able to handle all e household chores alone.. if i were to go away in may/june daddy will b v 可怜 how? but i really wanna go summer prog.. i noe if i ask daddy he will say if 对你有用 你就去 but e prob is.. haizz i oso dunno lar.. damn sianz..
n my dad 比较疼我 i guess.. thou he nv beat my sis b4.. alwiz cane me when i was younger.. cos dat fateful day when we had a family emergency my sis cldnt pacify my dad.. but when i reached home my dad was somehow pacified cos i helped him settle some of his stuff prepare some documents n stuff.. he also trust dat i can handle such documents.. hmmm so i oso dunno how..i have you to be with
everything will be easy
晒的阳光
淋的雨滴
都值得回忆
i have you to be with
懂心不够近才怕距离
心电感应
绝不断讯
会如影随形
曾灰心以为
我来错了世界太多想法很另类
找不到人了解
当我说的感觉
牵动着你的脸互动的泪
让我们变得特别
你是我的魔力
想要勇敢就想你
一眨眼睛
把不如意
都变成流星
你是我的魔力
心情不好我就想你
删除忧郁
复制甜蜜
笑容不结冰
幸福是间电影院
没有单人的座位
要肩并肩
才能看好戏上演
daddy has alwiz been e pillar of our family.. but recently.. i really c how 岁月 really 在他身上留下痕迹 haizz den i v 无助 cos i can nv b daddy's little girl liao..
haizz dunno la..
dat was y i at first i thot of not marrying.. ha den eben thou daddy haf me to accompany him.. i will haf to live e rest of my life in solitude.. dunno lar c how la..
the princess left at
11:11 PM
not feeling so down liaozzz.. =)
met up wif yanling first at heeren cos i wanted to shop shop.. so tempted to buy e new adidas jacket.. boohoo but i no $$ wait till i set my hands on my $800.. dey say e letter will come in end march den we will noe how much we will get..
den we went down to ps for gathering.. knowing our class ppl will b late as usual we went starbucks lim teh n eat tiramisu cos i was famished!! hee.. but eeks tiramisu not v nice de.. e liquor taste not strong enuf leh.. i wanna learn how to make tiramisu cos i falling in love wif tiramisu n tiramisu dun nid oven i tink.. wait till i free shall go popular flip those recipe books n quickly memorise haha yay i m cheapo.. i broke lar..
den after 7 our phones start to ring.. or rather most of it is yanling's haha.. our class v li hai la tell them meet 630 all late lar.. den bday papa oso late..
[im typing dis entry while waiting for e photos to trf finish.. trf speed so slow today grr...]
oh e waitress is v cute we gave her e bday cake to help us fridge it.. den she even suggested we play prank on our bday papa.. but haizz cannot lar.. we old liao dowan disgrace ourselves hahaa...
n our class were discussing abt e growth dividends we will get in may n some of them dun think i will get $800 cos ar my here flats shld b e most expensive in sg boohoo!! means our annual value will b v high means i might not qualify for e max payout eben thou i stay in 4 room.. boohoo... okie lar dun haf $800, $600 mah see bui pai.. haha..
anyway speaking of today's gathering.. today's attendance really hit an all-time low lar.. dat me n yanling really dun feel like calling it class gathering, but more of bday papa celebration or sth haha.. but hey ntu once again full attendance ok! e 4 of us! yay..
haizz bo bian lar.. a few more ppl flew away liao.. n somemore dis sem got ppl go exchange lar.. n attachement overseas kinda thing.. so haizz.. but we expect our attendance to rebound again! =)
anyway we were commemorating 5 yrs of friendship lar.. n it was qt farnie cos bday papa commented dat in another 5 yrs time when we celebrate 10 yrs of frenship its prolly at someone's wedding dinner or sth.. cos rena told us she gg to attend her first wedding dinner of a fren.. e guy is 25 yrs old.. qt young huh.. cos usually guys dun marry so young de.. den we were thinking dat is like 3 yrs from now.. as girls i dun eben think i will marry at 25?! haha.. like wad rena said.. 连对象都没有 how to marry 3 yrs later lar.. haha.. yeah man..
den i was thinking i really cant imagine myself settling down in 3 yrs time! my goodness.. dere's seems to b sooo much i haben do haben accomplish.. marry at 25 seems almost impossible haha.. but it wld b fun lar.. but must first haf a 对象 la like wad rena said..
but its qt scary lar to noe dat we known each other for 5 yrs liao.. n time really flies.. it wld b scary to attend all e wedding dinners in another 5 yrs' time when we turn 27.. wad if by then still no 对象？boohoo.. den i dowan go ur wedding dinners liao lar.. if not i will loogie haha...
hahaha.. oh but yanling said it better b wedding dinner first then 满月酒 n not e other round hor.. or both tgt.. haha.. eh both tgt oso good lar.. jus need to bao 1 ang bao enuf liao hahaha..
ok but most of us r placing our bets on yanling to b e first to get married hahahaha.. so yanling ar jia you la!! den i can b ur kid's godma! woohoo... if i still no 对象 then ar, den i can help u look after ur kid while u n ur dear go 二人世界 hahaha..
okie enuf of farnie thots.. its pic time! tot will not haf any pic to upload.. din eben wear nice nice or wad today dat's y din bring camera oso haha but in e end yl brot..
yeah we were done wif e menu.. we decided wad we wanna eat liao..
e rest still not done yet so we continue take more pics.. hahaha...
"dun disturb us lar.. we noe u all choose hao liao.. but we haben decide wad to eat... haha..."
"ok we choose hao liao... can pose for e camera liao hahaha.."
dis pic is farnie cos e waiter din say 1-2-3 den ar, dunno y me n ui turned at e same time haha.. n it seemed like we tokking to each other thou we werent haha..
nvm let's try again! argh~~~ jev's eyes r closed!! boohoo...
thrown enuf face in e restaurant liao.. let's go out n take ba.. aiyo my face so big.. n i look so fat!! boohoo...
e waitress suggested bday papa shld stand in e middle haha.. so we took another one..
while e rest went to toilet.. me n rena took a nice pic! yay! but rena complained her face v big.. haizz nobody face can look big nxt to mine lar.. haizz..
after dinner dey actually wanted to go sing de.. but qt late liao.. a lot of us wanna go home liaoz.. so we called it off i think e other guys went to watch soccer ar..
ok i m tired i wanna go sleep liao.. bye...
oh yar stumbled upon dis lyrics thot its qt 感人 [p/s i nv heard of dis song b4..]谁和我同行过排排坐
还挽臂看星座留堂不爱喝汤
同样爱上天蝎座
付出不懂寄望
谁来过停留过迷晕我
从爱上到失望到一次说谎
情路跌到很痛么但有幸曾观光
我天真失去太多太清楚只会迷惘
热情变得生疏
听一首孤独探戈去安抚心理状况
暂时麻醉便可
其实我害怕面对
任性已经没法撑下去
纯真早给榨取才伤感到空虚
其实我害怕学会面对
便会变得极理智不许
回忆掺到细沙涩双眼
谁明我怀疑我然而我
试过太赤裸被无情地奚落过
如若再豁出更多运气便离开么
我天真失去太多太清楚只会迷惘
热情变得生疏
听一首孤独探戈去安抚心理状况
暂时麻醉没不妥
其实我害怕面对
任性已经没法撑下去
纯真早给榨取才伤感到空虚
其实我害怕学会面对
便会变得极理智不需
谁的手支撑么谁的心爱惜么
不想讲可以么好么
the princess left at
11:57 PM
i feel so aimless...
n its irritating i cant seek refuge at home.. cos daddy cant stop nagging at me.. he jus called me e big boss of dis family.. argh~~ i jus want some peace..
he can nag everything from like u din contribute to dis pm's lunch so nxt time u dun help out u dun get to eat.. to like u nv help out nxt time u cant even stiry fry a plate of vege.. diaozz..
i dowan go for gathering later.. cos i v sian really.. i jus wanna b alone..
as i m typing dis entry now.. tears jus rolled down my cheeks uncontrollably..
i wanna go somewhere where...
hmmm actually i oso dunno where...
but i hafta go gathering rite? cos actually i dowan stay home.. cos i can foresee dad is gg to niam me at nite or dinner time.. but i dowan go gathering n put on a plastic smile.. u noe dat kind of feeling when i dun feel like tokking n yet i m forced to put on a smile n pretend to b v interested in wad others r saying..
haizz i m not eben comparing myself wif others.. cos some ppl r jus so fortunate n yet i haf to deal wif so many stoopid things in life.. dey may seem v trivial to u all but u noe all dis small little things can snowball to a big crisis.. v sian really v sianz..
now got no motivation in life.. nth to go ga-ga over.. nth which can ignite my high-ness once again..
the princess left at
2:03 PM
haizz...
he is qt upset recently.. n hence he can b qt grumpy.. n it gets tough when we hafta put up wif his unreasonable-ness..
n again he jus nagged me for treating dis hse as a hotel coming back only when i m tired.. out from morn to nite.. nv help out n stuff..
yar i noe i noe i noe.. he is upset.. but haizz i jus feel v helpless that i cannot share his burden.. v sianz..
im jus sooo sianz n sick n tired of a lot of stuff..
i dowan think dowan make myself so tong ku..
i oredi dun get enuf of quality sleep dunno y dis few nites i haf become a light sleeper alwiz waking up in e middle of e nite n e stupid thing i keep dreaming of certain ppl in my life.. n sometimes i wld wake up thinking isit a dream or reality? cos sometimes it jus seem so real..
v sianzz...
i wanna go sleep early n i shall go sleep early.. cos tml nid to wake up early.. another long day ahead.. dunno how la..
n soon recess will come to an end n i wld b back to my no-life sch life.. sianzz..
the princess left at
10:00 PM
updates on a non-mugging day...
n e stupid thing is i noe im jus studying for studying's sake.. cos i noe if i stay home i will slack.. budden i think nth gets into my head leh.. n i still haf no idea wad is gg on.. n dat i will continue to do as badly.. sianz..
okie i let my alarm snoozed for abt 2 hours b4 dragging my body out to meet rena for lunch.. promised i will lunch wif her.. n cos company got fixed lunch hours i better not anyhow b late lar.. den when i reached somerset bus stop i smsed her told her i will reach in 10min she can walk down now.. n i walked briskly, as fast as i could cos i din wanna let rena wait mah cos it was 1230.. but when i reached kiliney kopitiam it was v crowded n i din c rena!! boohoo so i called her.. i guessed she's still in ofc thou i din ask.. den waited 10 to 15 min deh i finally c her.. grrr.. if i noe i shld haf smsed her when i was along holland v or sth.. grrr... taking her own sweet time mah..
its nice tokking to 老朋友 n keeping each other updated on e latest happenings of our lives.. n rena wished me 幸福 n i wished her too.. n she told me sth which left me to ponder for a while.. i think she oso dunno wad isit she said dat left me pondering n reflecting on myself.. i think i alwiz make e same mistake n end up hurting myself time n again.. hmm so i only haf myself to blame at e end of e whole issue.. n i can sense history repeating itself again.. so i mus try n prevent any tragedy from happening.. ok lar mayb not so bad not really a tragedy..
but i qt agree wif rena's logic.. mayb i shld adopt n apply to my life.. n not b so crazy n go ga-ga over certain things..
*ahem* i can b mature too! hahaha..
den again i think its cos of e many things dat happened in my life [gh commented my life super drama] dat's y i tend to adopt a more childish manner to 掩饰自己 i oso dunno leh.. but i think a lot oso leh.. so i oso dunno.. haha.. wait till i find an explanation to my xiao ding dong behaviour..
den after lunch i walked wif her to her office building.. den i took bus down to bugis to repair my dear red converse bag which i lugged all e way from tw.. i used it for only 2 mths i think or less than dat n e strap came off le.. v sad.. cos its my fav bag!! cant find in sg de!! boohoo.. finally found a place to repair.. but e uncle looked at my bag n say its a typical cheapo sch bag dun waste money repairing lar.. huh?!! cheapo??!! no lor it cost me $60sgd can!!! wah lau.. he was saying even if he helped me repair oso cant last long.. he 劝 me go buy new bag.. haizz i look like some sec sch kid v upset abt her torn sch bag or sth.. but haizz i like e bag a lot leh!!!! n i din throw it away along e way oso..
but i went bugis to shop hoping i can find sth similar.. but i cant!!! boohoo.. i v sad... i want to go tw to buy bags!! boohoo boohoo...
anyway today my driving instructor was telling me i shld get $800 from e election budget thingy.. cos i qualify.. dunno if its true cos he said i no income mah n stay in 4 room hdb so i shld qualify for e max amt.. dunno true anot.. cos i thot it doesnt work dis way.. i m only student leh.. how can gif me $800?? hmm if got $200 i v happy liao.. but but but if really got $800 i wld b v v v v happy!! cos can go bkk shop till i drop lor!!! wahahaha but cannot spend all $800 better save some for aust trip if not vien kill me.. its not everyday dat e govt gifs us $$ so mus save for rainy days... muahaha...
the princess left at
9:36 PM
althou i m dead beat now...
i miss my bed n tatty more.. but cos i waiting for my hair to dry grr...
din get to bathe IMMEDIATELY when i reached home cos my dad kept calling me every 5 min after i settled sth for him..
n my stoopid sis was faking sleep cos she doesnt wanna b called.. ok forgive her cos she faced a grumpy daddy for a few hours.. so e only way to rescue herself is to fake asleep.. n being a nice daddy he wun disturb us..
today studied in sch as usual.. n i was so elated when i went lwn lib to use com today! cos air asia having promo now! wahaha even cheaper than my jsa hahaha.. so i keeping my fingers *crossed crossed crossed*:
1] china studies wun b on those few days..
2] mr gh earn more $ on mj tables so dat he will go bkk.. or mayb he strike lottery den he will go haha.. n dat he will quit complaining he spending $ for my sake.. grrr...
i hope dey announce more details on e stupid china studies soon.. grrr $80 so difficult to earn lor! grrr i wanna book my bkk oso cannot..
den nvm! while studying i had another one of my brilliant idea!! haha if cant go bkk we r gg genting n kl wif my uni clique! hhahaa pin said ok! cos she nv been to genting b4 haha.. so happy!
den at lwn i got a sms from my sis dat we r facing a family crisis n ah ma n daddy r angry! ok its related to e worst fears thingy.. now no more worst fears but another thing to b sad abt cos haizz.. another long story.. so i guess my no-home-cooked-food n more-household-chores days will last longer than 1 mth, prolly 1 yr or 10 yrs until i get off e shelf or sth..
haizz den i asked sis if its v v v v v serious den i nid to sprint home immediately n cancel my marina steamboat session wif my uni clique? den she said daddy din ask me to come home immediately so it shld b ok..
so i set off for steamboat happily wif my uni clique! haha.. ma chiam excursion..
haiyo we collected our v much alive prawns n crabs from e uncle.. aiyo e 4 of us only.. he gif us 3 crabs! i was trying to gif some to a malaysian.. but he looked at me suspiciously.. oh wadeva so i taught gh how to cut crab while i remove e insides n scrub n wash e crabs.. n idiotic crab "thorn" pricked me! boohoo now my index finger still sore lor! it bled jus now lar.. but i used to all this pricks n pain cos i oso alwiz gana pricked by stupid fishes' fins.. so proud of myself! cos first time i cut crab withou dad's supervision! haha usually he will b ard to niam niam niam.. but yay! i noe how to cut n prepare oso ok..
den e prawns were v alive n one actually jumped onto my bag!! boohoo...
we r a bunch of weirdos.. cos we dun eat prawns n dun eat crabs.. haizz waste money lor.. in e end i think gh n win ate e crabs n prawns thou we din finish everything oso.. n towards e end, i was soo full while e rest r still gg on strong except winnie haha.. [as usual cmi like me] i decided to shell prawns for them to keep myself occupied.. n i realised its v fun muahaha.. n i seriously dun really like to eat prawns oso haha.. cos i ate one.. dunno leh dun really like..
prawn shells.. "hei-hei hei-hei hei-hei"
c pokka green tea! my fav haha...
pin was trying to siam e camera cos she refused to act cute wif me n win hahaha... hence e facial expression on me n win's faces haha.. we r v sad haha..
so we boohoo-ed.. haha..
while waiting for bus b4 we home sweet home.. n we all stink now.. boohoo...
ok i finished blogging liao.. but my hair is not dry yet.. argh heck liao la.. tml still nid to wake up early.. cos got qt a few places to run to.. haizz.. nope one day break from all dat studying haiz...
the princess left at
12:22 AM
i wanted to blog...
but i cant blog now cos i m tired..
cos ever since i m online my fingers nv stop working.. cos all e msn stuff jus keeps coming in..
argh now i noe le.. when i dun come online e whole day all my windows will blink at nite!
so i shld make myself scarce at times if not sometimes when i m online in e day no one toks to me oso.. eh pls dun get it wrong.. i enjoy my peace at times oso haha..
in short i m gg to sch for e nxt few days n recess is coming to an end!!! my goodness!!! argh!! boohoo!!! its tue liao!! wrong! now wed le cos its past midnight..
okie tml another day of intensive mugging [not really intensive cos me n gh only completed 4 chap over e last 2 days only haizz.. we r v slow..] n after dat we r gg lau pa sat! yay my uni clique outing! woohoo!
thurs finally can stop mugging for a while n go out! haha.. got qt a few places to gan chang..
den fri ar.. shld b mugging! not confirmed yet..
sat another gan chang day.. haizz.. den sun is rest day..
den mon!! oh no end of recess!!!!
ok im sleepy hence e nonsensical post.. *yawnz* n my msn windows r still blinking..
i wanna sleep bye..
the princess left at
12:12 AM
back to my normal life..
but i m back to e bz life = more household chores n no homecooked food for a mth.. unless me or sis cooks.. i shall try to b not lazy n make use of dis 1 mth to hone my culinary skills then! muahaha...
bkk trip updates: u noe e kind of feeling when some things r not meant to b urs.. no matter how hard u try it will NEVER b urs.. in my case i tried v hard le.. when i m trying i often asked myself.. isit worth all e trouble?? i m prolly blinded for a moment or sth.. i n not sure of it myself rite? its more of like ppl haf been asking n i m jus living up to expectations isit? suddenly rmb wad my econs prof said: in e long run, expectations will b realised.. haha i guess it only applies to inflation ba.. cos in my case expectations is nv realised..
e higher hopes i pin e more disappointed i get..
nvm for e nxt 1 mth i wld prolly b occupied wif cooking dinner n lunch on mon n tue.. i dun think i will haf time to think oso..
i tried my best not to think abt it liao.. cos if not i will jus trap myself in a mental turmoil.. haha its another one of my 多年来的愿望 to go bkk.. gh asked y on earth do i haf so many 多年来的愿望。。 cos i used e exact phrase for chomp chomp haha..
im tired.. dun feel like typing.. i like dis song lyrics..突然觉得我只是一个人
有点孤单浅浅的忧郁
我不知道明天会不会很美丽
虽然今天天很蓝
而云很白
风很凉
今天日记空白没有关系
不必每件事情都在意
不想工作
不想困扰自己
不必刻意想你
该是我的总会来
就算挑战
我不走开
一点点你的微笑
已经让我觉得温暖
我还不懂坚持
正好让我
学会去爱
我曾经看见困难
变得胆小
不够勇敢
但还是要相信
相信感觉
相信简单
有一天
等我懂得事实也许更会幸福
至少现在让我去相信
哦
我还是会相信
相信感觉
相信简单
the princess left at
11:22 PM
suffering from insomnia sianz...
all dis insomnia is driving me crazy..
k den woke up at 7 wah kaoz.. its recess can?!! n i cant eben sleep like nobody's biz cos my mind n body refuse to cooperate..
latest updates on bkk trip.. it seems hard to materialise afterall.. cant agree on a date wif cz, gh n fren, winnie n bf.. haiz.. n e promo ends today thou we r keeping our fingers crossed e promo will extend.. or dere will b some other promo later on.. due to safety reasons a lot of ppl haf been encouraging us to get guys to go wif us.. yeah which i found liao but cant settle dates! argh.. i wanna go bkk boohoo..
now i feel bad not gg airport last nite to c weibin off.. cos in e end junyi went down haha.. cos he thot its qt bad he needed a senior to tell him his classmate flying off.. n idiot junyi nv tell me earlier he driving.. n can send me home.. hmph! if not i wld haf gone down.. cos i thot i prolly can only reach at 930 ar.. [junyi said he reached at 945 thou] den i thot i rot ard for 1/2 an hour den ppl leave liao.. waste my time travel all e way rite.. den travel all e way back home myself.. which will take prolly more than 1.5 hours lor.. so if ppl drive dat's a DIFFERENT story haha.. n out of 5 juniors who went to c wb off.. 4 drove! omg! i haf rich juniors! haizz or mayb its jus wb clique.. n i feel so useless! cos dey all got driving licenses liao haizz poor me still go thru lots of tests.. sianzz..
on another note sometimes i think its best not to b hopeful n think too much.. being e typical capricorn i thot of leaving everything e way it is now.. i dowan move on liaoz.. cos i m so tired n everything is jus getting on my nerves.. dat i dunno wad i shld do.. n it seems like if i try n initiate anything nth ever works out [since sec sch/jc?] so i better not try anything farnie or further humiliate myself.. haha.. sounds serious.. k wadeva shun qi zi ran is e way! yay!
the princess left at
8:34 AM
i dunno how i shld b feeling...
n cos i kept luffing i din sing up to std.. haizz.. so sianz cos keep wanting to cough lor.. haizz.. den sing sing sing voice will suddenly become hoarse.. so sianzz... n gh jus commented my voice sounded v airy haizz...
boohoo.. some of e stupid photos we took... m tired to type more...
me n pooh bear haha.. keep threatening to leave me alone to dine with willie huh...
a failed attempt to make my face look smaller.. stupid gh hand so big covered my whole face...
so we tried again! n dis time its sooo much nicer.. gh said change to 3 fingers if one palm is too big.. diaoz..
n for those who r curious to c how willie looks like.. eh all e photos taken wif him r horrible.. haha either my face too big or eyes closed or dunno wad.. sianz.. or he looked weird haha... so here's e "nicest" one thou still not v nice... so i shall continue to keep u all in suspense.. put one wif his side profile only! muahaha..
ok i m tired liao.. thou its e start of recess.. i m gg back sch to study.. one whole day of mugging .. if not i stay home sure slack one...
gotta sleep early! bye..
the princess left at
10:31 PM
im happy...
but i managed to 化all the 险s 为夷。。 c 好人是有好报 hahahaha..
den ar went down to mcr to suan piao.. so proud of myself.. i suaned a lot of piao leh! one whole box lor v long dun haf liao.. i suaned today alone cos nxt fri might not b gg down.. cos gg sch study..
yeah den after piao suaning we went to eat 炸鸡排 wooo nice! hahaha... den i went to do some retail therapy! sooo happy i bot a necklace, a bag n a bottom! i mus say i m sooo happy to buy dat pants leh! cos i wanted to buy b4 cny de but it was too ex.. so haiz yl said dun waste $$ la.. so i din buy in e end.. today ar dunno y i jus felt i was gg to buy dat pants thou i walked ard topshop 2 times n i cant find! den i went fitting room tried a top.. not v nice.. jus went i was abt to step out of e shop.. i went to e budget area n i saw e bottom!!! my goodness its 50% off!!! i dun buy its really 对不起自己！ hahaha n i was sooo happy! n i can actually fit into small! wahahha so happy!! n e length is jus nice cos its for petite ppl yay! thou e waist still a bit loose.. but its really a bit.. so still can! yay im sooo happy!!
den we went heeren.. wanted to buy a top i wanted to get for cny.. din get dat time cos dun haf e colour i want liao.. e lady boss asked me to go back after cny mah so today go n c.. but haizz reached there it closed liao.. but nvm i walked ard n i bot a bag! its my fav 公鸡brand!! yay!!
okie on e way home dis lady lost balance n her stupid heels injured my poor toe! now i lost a bit of skin off my toe!! boohoo!! haiz.. cannot wear dun wear lar.. like me wear flats so nice n comfy!
den when i alighted bus i bumped into another hc junior! haha.. he was v shocked when i told him we haf one wk break.. he was like 为什么？den i was like huh pri sch kids can haf one wk break we cannot ar? hahaha den he luffed..
y do i keep bumping into ppl? haha.. but its fun to bump into ppl i got things to say to.. if not v awkward..
its friday liao.. but he hasnt come online leh.. haha but at least i blogged liao if not later he online i will 语无伦次 again haha...
n dat stupid cz 出卖我！she 竟然为了扯开话题abt her v day cos j asked abt her vday den she went to say hey u noe ar huimin got new crush!! den j asked her den wadeva happened to dat jy n her??
den cz said oh cos jy too 婆婆妈妈 liao so she gif up... hahaha...
thanks huh cz u 出卖我！
the princess left at
10:58 PM
i jus knew it..
n now i m thrown back to e harsh reality..
sometimes i wonder y m i so affected by wad u say... [dis is totally unrelated to e prev para ha..]
the princess left at
12:17 AM
i dunno what to do from here..
i dunno wad to do n wad's my next move...
everything is "progressing" so fast n i might lose focus.. i dowan dat to happen.. u noe when things u want so badly to happen jus happen in a twinkling of e eye i get v frightened cos i dun haf time to ponder wad i really want.. n it makes me wonder if i m dreaming.. i m afraid i may wake up one day n realise all dis is a dream.. isit even a progress to start wif? i dunno.. i jus noe i dunno wad i want.. n i really wonder wad will happen on e day itself.. cos if things get out of hand dat will spell e end of everything.. i dun like failures.. n i dun like e feelings of hmm i dunno how i shld put it.. but when ppl tends to get too active in helping i may get turned off like how i m feeling now..
在我还没理清自己心里在想什么的时候，让我静一静。。。
i m easily affected by others.. its not ez to say dis person is better than dat person.. it doesnt work dis way.. i dunno wad to do n wad to think.. i dunno n i m afraid when ppl haf expectations.. now its like sooo many ppl waiting to c wad will happen on dat day n i jus get v sianz.. cos cant we jus wait for things to b more or less confirmed b4 i say or make it known.. now its still like nth nth nth has begun lor wldnt eben call it an initial stage or wad.. sianzz...
ok today is a v farnie day haha a decision to pei cz go c dr tan allowed me to bump into sooo many ppl!
first as we were walking outside city hall mrt i bumped into junyi! my goodness!! he was our adopted mortal back in hc.. was asking where he gg after ns n his ans gave me a shock!! cos he gg smu do econs! hahaha same road as me ar.. oso trip sc student giving up nus science place to go do econs.. i was trying to encourage him to come over ntu instead den i can sell him textbooks hahaha.. plus somemore smu jus announced another 15% fee hike leh he will b affected! den he v farnie he said now he v scared cos ar those ppl who had nv done econs b4 n went smu either change sch or change course.. now he noe one more person who's done e same thing n its me! haha...
den cos was in a hurry lar so after dat he smsed me lar n told him some more stuff y i trf n stuff lar.. n i told him i bumped into him at bbdc but cos we both driving lar so din horn him or wave to him..
den he say i driving nv pay attn! still can c who's ard me!?? den he asked i f i passed liao?! wah i really hate dis qn lar.. den he said he got his license in e 1st attempt! last aug somemore... wah lau n he added it was tyco!? ok i really hate tycos can? grrr i mus b damn suay lar.. told him i failed numerous times liao la until i v demoralised so he better not rub it in..
ok enuf of junyi.. den i went dental wif cz.. after dat we went raffles city shop shop was hoping i can use my esprit voucher! but again nth to buy.. sianz.. den walked ard.. we went marks n spencer.. bot choco for cz thou she cant bite now oso she extracted 2 more teeth.. haizz looking at her reminds me of wad i went thru [almost] a yr ago.. *shudders* i nv wanna go thru it again! y din i guai guai do it in sec sch when my dad asked me? haizz.. now so ugly.. haha.. not dat i m v pretty without braces la.. but jus feel uglier wif my braces boohoo.. den i bot choco n biscuits! haha.. so happy.. but i haben eat yet..
den i smsed sis told her i wanna go home for dinner.. but stoopid she sleeping.. so in e end i called her said dun need i dine outside..
we went citylink n i tried e new bread toast stall.. ordered my fav butter sugar.. for those ppl who dunno i dun eat kaya de haha cos got coconut.. i dun eat any coconut products [eh depends la] n milo dinosaur.. wah i tell u e milo powder is really one big heap lar.. hmm i think e toast is no diff from yakun la.. i still like west mall one haha..
den went roxy at citylink oso no yellow tees?! haizz.. n nth to buy oso.. sianz.. went adidas saw nice jackets! but i tried.. doesnt look good on me.. cz said we shld stop spending now go bkk den buy! haha.. a bit hard but i will try! yeah!
cz need to go back to mcr so i went home liao.. n on e bus home ui boarded e bus too! my goodness got so qiao anot.. bumping into 2 ppl in a day.. haha..
k lar i m tired. my recess unofficially started liao! but a lot of stuff lined up too!
the princess left at
11:07 PM
boohoo....
haha did jy sense dat i haf a new crush? cos yest [v day] he msn me.. after a v v v long time liao... my goodness since my bday ba.. eh no after my bday still got tok a few times.. after jan when i blocked him.. but weirdly enuf e heart thumping was not there anymore n our conversation was jus short n sweet.. wadeva.. i oso dunno wad or how i shld feel both towards new crush n old crush.. mayb dey r jus crushes.. mayb i m jus displaying my fickleness- a main capricorn trait.. cos when something doesnt belong to me i jus lose interest? so wad's e pt of harping n dangling there.. ha.. c how la..
yar y i set boohoo as my title rite? cos stoopid gh called me a pig in frt of e class!! ok dis may sound as thou its coming from a pri sch kid! but but but.. dis is wad happened...
our chinese module prof was saying he can tell who is hokkien n canto n hakka n wadeva la.. we were like stunned lar.. cos arent we all chinese? can tell one meh? den gh got v excited n asked prof to guess wad dialect i m.. den prof said he cant tell.. den gh turned to me n said v loudly! muahaha cos 你是猪 dat y cant tell.. den e whole class luffed!! even prof! my goodness!! den my prof was saying 怎么可以这么讲人家？？ boohoo... idiot!!!!!!!
n when he drove me home he kept mentioning e 5FIVE rochers i gave willie.. n cld tell that he v 耿耿于怀 cos i dun really noe willie mah den so 不好意思 麻烦 ppl dat time wanted to get cheapo mentos but dat stoopid gh said i made use of his fren n gif such cheap stuff wah lau so i got him rochers la.. n i tot e 3 in a pack look horrible.. if u haf seen those 5 in a box one its v pretty de.. ok lar at least presentable.. n he went to ask willie to share wif him.. n mr willie finished everything liao on e day itself liao?! haha.. so poor me.. asked gh to turn into petrol station near my hse n i bot 3THREE rochers for him.. yeah i noe got different treatment haha but bo bian lar.. dat petrol station only sell 3 in a pack de.. n i din wanna get him 6 cos its too ex liao.. muahahhaa..
haizz y m i so nice to dis idiotic person huh? called me pig in class n buy rochers for him ar?
but muahaha i alwiz use his cashcard cos i alwiz forget to bring.. n like today wanted to pay using mine but muahaha insufficient balance.. bo bian la..
n ok lar he will drive me to sch la.. n drive me home la.. but alwiz threaten to throw me out of e car on expressways haizz.. where got ppl lydat de?? alwiz bully ppl haiz.. poor me..
k dun tok abt idiotic ppl liao..
haha i m so happy wif cz's crazy idea!! muahahah i like! yay man! we r gg bkk!! finally someone heard my pleas!!! air tix 2 way wif airport tax cost abt $100 n hotel is abt $34 per nite per person! woohoo!! so cheap!! we shld b gg in june! so anybody wanna go ar.. we can buy tgt.. more ppl go more fun lar! we can 各shop各的 but i jus want safety in no.s hahaha.. especially in hotels! yeah nid to go research on thai liao.. nv go b4.. only hear b4 wad chatuchak n dunno wad la.. yeah man can shop till i drop! mr c say i shld b v happy there cos can shop a lot!!! he whole day go thai de lor.. hahaa.. ppl who r thai gurus pls help me out k? jus like how i help u all out for tw lydat la..
woohoo~~ got things to look forward to le... heh which means i nid to save a lot a lot... haiz...
the princess left at
10:29 PM
有时候
有时候交谈变得空洞 沉默却像沟通
当情人那么沉重 当朋友反而轻松
有时候孤独可以寂寞 也可以是自由
能安慰自己的人 比较容易快乐
i went orchard today after visiting my derma cos i wanted to get rubber bands for tying up my hair..
decided not to go cut my hair liao.. m broke u c haha so i snip off my split ends myself again! like wad i alwiz did.. aiya i think i layered too much le cos its a bit qiao now.. haizz...
yar at first wanted to go get a top for myself.. wanted a yellow tee so i went to 3 roxy stores along orchard.. i like deir kid sized tees cos its cheaper than e adults size hahaha.. n i noe wad size i wear mah so no need try liao..
haizz but e 3 stores i went dun haf YELLOW tees? boohoo... wanted to settle for white tees cos i saw a few nice ones.. navy blue oso got a few.. black oso.. haizz but i want yellow la.. sianzz thot dat time citylink i saw.. how come those 3 along orchard not a single yellow tee? haizz i not even hiam-ing e design can..
haha n i oso looking for a nice purse to put my money n cards.. haizz wif special design or sth.. but haizz mah see boh..
sianzzz so e only thing i got for myself on a v day is a super BIG butter sugar loaf from breadtalk.. which i din finish oso.. cos i no appetite..
ok no other interesting thing happen liao haha was hoping for a miracle.. eg one of my potential candidates asking me out or sth.. towards e later part of e day i changed my miracle to mayb a sms from one of my potential candidates haha but nope.. all e smses i got today were all from girls haha..
k lar i go sleep liao tml need to wake up early early.. sianz... wish me luck!
the princess left at
10:18 PM
happy v day..
did i frighten u all wif my recent posts? oops haha...
i m especially warmed by those sms-es i got from ppl who r attached liao.. cos i tot today u all wld b v bz mah still got time to think of me n send sms.. n its not forwarded kind.. *touched leh*
wad's wrong wif having a new crush?! boohoo.. cz smsed me:"wad the ... u got new crush??!! ... " heh.. den i asked her wad's wrong wif having new crush?! den she replied u r supposed to like jy a lot a lot.. hmm true.. but dunno leh now i c him online i no gan jue le.. we dun tok either.. e feelings seemed non-existent..
dun ask me if i really like my new crush cos i dunno.. mayb i jus needed to deposit my feelings on someone n do nice things for dat someone.. thou i oso nv do anything nice yet hahahha...
k lar i got bigger problems to face other than my new crush..
after tml hopefully problem 1 will b solved n i can move into a new phase of my life: fatter life perhaps cos i shld b gg out for suppers more often hahaha..
problem 2 which is gg to b a super big one dat's gonna impact e rest of my life will start affecting me in abt 7 more mths.. haizz..
yest chked email got dis summer program to university of columbia.. in vancouver, canada. really tempted to go.. cos i wanna leave dis place.. n cos its only for 1 mth wun affect my braces.. hmmm but for 2 modules which can b transferred over i wld haf to pay 5k for accomodation and sch fees.. not inclusive of e close to 2k air tix.. n not inclusive of my living expenses n stuff so total expenses may amount to close to 10k.. this is gg to strain my family's finances n if i go for dis i definitely cant go aust liao cos i wld b spending too much..
i dowan to put daddy in a difficult position cos problem 2[mentioned earlier] is gg to cost us some money.. n i so old liao shldnt keep taking $ from him..
but but but..
if got cheaper summer prog eg to china or i dunno where.. i will sign up for it..
anyway oh as u can c i m still at home at dis time means i nv go make up tut haizz cos i overslept.. shit! n i din manage to finish 208 tut lar.. den i go oso wun learn anything.. n i haben do tml's 211 tut oso.. sianzz.. tonite need to do so many things.. n yest i was still happy i finished labour report.. haizz..
really no time to rest.. but nvm fri fri fri is start of recess!! n surprisingly dis time's recess coincides wif nus' but dey v ke lian one leh only from sun to thurs.. haiz.. so means its time for 7a gathering again! but we cant decide on a day sianz..
the princess left at
4:37 PM
done!
but but but..
i haben chk thru my work cos i m v v v tired.. spent e entire wkn plus today doing leh!
drawing graphs n collating data think v ez ar..
den still got word limit wah lau..
really testing my summary skills mah.. haha but summarising is easier than asking me to bull shit..
tml still need to wake up early go c dr tan.. haha all my doctors r dr tan.. my derma, my dentist all dr tan so farnie..
anyway yar supposed to go lunch wif rena but she last min cant.. nvm lar i go home do park tut think i shld b gg for tut ba.. no other legitimate reason for not gg other than "i dun feel like" haha..
think will go shop ard n get myself a gift or sth haha.. c how lar.. c my mood n oso if i can finish tut..
tml is e day liao.. i still rmb how i fantasise my 21st vday to b haha.. so farnie..
den as i was watching some tw variety shows i dl-ed in e morn dere was dis part abt dis singer who was saying how she fell for e same guy as her best fren.. dat happened to me oso.. n as in e case of e singer, my best fren prolly din noe.. up till now.. it was v farnie actually cos my best fren was trying to matchmake me wif dis guy.. but i cld tell dat dis guy liked my fren.. thou my fren insisted dat he liked me instead.. n all e while i became good frens wif e guy n e both of us dunno if my best fren liked him anot.. but my guess was she liked him too.. so i promised to help him put in a few good words in frt of her.. on ther other hand, my best fren was still trying to pair us up.. e whole episode was v farnie..那时我们总有好多话
什么事都可以讲我的爱情比你早
却一直放在心上
后来你们之间的变化
我不想再多说话
经过了相遇挣扎
我还是无法将他放下
那是多久后的事了
有一天你突然问我
在那个时候是否也爱着他
我也很想他我们都一样
在他的身上曾找到翅膀
只是那时的他
是因为你他开始飞翔
我也很想他
在某个地方
我少了尴尬你少了肩膀
而夏天还是那么短
思念却很长
还记得那年我们三人许下的愿望
星星骗了我们我们却因此上了一课
成长必修的学分
我们都一样
dey r still tgt now btw n in retrospect thou e guy seemed to possess most of qualities i look for.. i think he wld b happier wif my fren haha.. n no i dun like him anymore.. now i c him oso no gan jue liao..
it alwiz seems soo much easier if u haf a fren to help u especially in r/s problems.. like i cld tell e guy wad my fren likes, n try to sound her out wad is gg on n her opinion of him haha.. but towards e end i m like e foolish one cos dey progressed soo fast dat i dun even noe, n still foolishly saying good things abt e guy n telling e guy more stuff bt my fren..
so mayb u nid a fren to b e catalyst n u r supposed to take it on from there..
happy v day, my frens!
the princess left at
2:37 AM
my worst fears haf come true..
we r so deeply affected..
we can understand dat it's dad wish..
but..
but..
but..
but..
we cant deny e fact dat some things cannot remain e same liao..
we will no longer haf e same status at home liao..
we will prolly b e 2nd citizens in our family liao..
sian diao..
dunno how now liao la..
try being in our shoes n u c how u gg to cope wif all dese..
me n my sis r picturing all the worst scenarios dat we can think of..
n yet..
we haf to pretend nth has happened in frt of our dad
we haf to pretend like its not gonna to affect us
we haf to pretend like we dun care..
its sth only my dad will b happy
my ah ma happy
but me n my sis in misery.
ok la mayb dad will b in difficult position..
but haizz i hope mummy was still ard...想念属於纯真年代 快乐单纯如晴天
白云 蓝天 绿野 阳光 看得见的美好
成人的世界好复杂
仿佛总走入阴天 乌云 灰暗 冷冷 空气
好想加快步伐 往熟悉的方向回去
有一个家能够回去真好 家人的爱永远不减少
关切的慰问或安慰的拥抱 受伤后是最好的治疗
有一个家能够回去真好 家的温暖是不会熄灭光芒
让我 又重燃了希望
成人的世界好复杂
仿佛总走入阴天 乌云 灰暗 冷冷 空气
好想加快步伐 往熟悉的方向回去
haiz haiz haizz...
c how things go from here la.. only thing we can do now..
the princess left at
7:13 PM
forget me not.. forget me anot.. forget oredi..
i jus went to support rena's hall prod! ppl co-producer leh! n gave us such good seats! haha..
in e pm was still trying to forget i haf to go support her muahaha.. den amanda smsed me haizz i smsed yanling but she din reply. boohoo..
after abt an hour she finally replied n i quickly bathed n set out le..
really hate to go bugis on wkns especially sundays cos e bus i need to take to change goes to little india n yar so e bus will b v crowded! n i hate ji go peks who take advantage of such situations to stand v close to u.. dere was this uncle who was trying to get down e bus n he jus circled his hand ard my neck lor.. n cheekily said:"oops! haha" i feel like giving him one TIGHT slap!
cos i was standing near e door where u board n c e bus uncle.. n another uncle board e bus! dis uncle one look oso noe he ji go pek material cos he was wearing dis super floral print t shirt like some "ah-long" dat kind u noe.. n true enuf.. cos e bus driver drive v fast cos he doesnt stop at bus stops to let ppl to board liao n e stupid uncle leaned sooo close to me i can jus feel his chest pressing on my arm!! haizz he's standing on my right.. n on my left another uncle who jus refused to move.. poor me.. at times like dis i feel so vulnerable n i hope i haf a bf nxt to me to protect me haha.. can u imagine how mad i was? cos it was an air con bus yet i was like sweating like nobody's biz cos i was fuming mad!!
i wanted to get down e bus n change since i m early [yl will b late] n i haf concession mah.. haizz but i figured e other buses wld b abt e same oso lar.. haizz.. so i persevered!
finally reached bugis.. shopped ard topshop no new stuff sianzz.. went muji oso no nice things..
den after a while more of aimless shopping yl called.. she reached liao.. we wanted to go fong seng eat nasi one.. cos she said nxt to nafa got fong seng..
but unfortunately it was not open.. n we went to walk ard n c got wad stuff to eat.. we r v farnie lar.. main course haben decided we oredi aiming tang yuan since its e 15th day yuan xiao mus eat tang yuan mah.. thou we din eat in e end cos was too full haha n too lazy to cross e road..
n yl oso said we ordered a lot for chomp chomp haha she said she got a shock when she scrolled down n look at e photos! so its not only me lor!
i wanna go chomp chomp again SOON!! hahaha... anybody wanna bring me there?
ok tok abt rena's hall prod.. hmmm me n amanda wld b in agony whenever those ppl start to sing haha.. cos we really think dey can do away wif e singing.. e dialogues r farnie lar.. i like DONG! haha he so cute.. e way he tok so cute hahaha.. den it makes me wonder if i wld like someone like him haha.. cos thou he's really different from my dream guy ar.. yet he's e kind who wil b a good husband n e one by ur side alwiz cos he 傻傻的 n he will do things dat will make u v 感动 but hahaha no lar i dun think i will like dis kind of person.. its jus so farnie how ppl wanna 自讨没趣 in reality.. n make lives difficult for themselves..
wad really affected me is prolly not e hall prod but e person dey dedicated dis hall prod to.. rena told me abt dis senior who committed suicide after he handed over e hall prod stuff to them.. hmm means his suicide was planned.. n it was qt some time.. den on e way home rena n yl started to tell me more abt such suicide cases.. apparently qt a few ppl attempted to take their lives.. my goodness..
k lar i m hungry now.. dunno y oso.. i m not sad or anything leh.. y i so hungry tonite ar? when i m v v v sad i will eat a lot.. haha when i m v v sad i will lose my appetite.. so got varying degrees of sadness de..
btw i bumped into 2 熟人at rena's hall prod.. one is rena's senior who graduated liao.. aaron lar its really farnie how i got to noe him n its eben more farnie dat time when we went out.. nv thot i wld c him again cos i felt v apologetic alwiz sending him blank smses cos he's e first person on my phone list.. now no more liao haha..
another person is my ny junior hahaha.. ooh! suddenly rmb she from taiwan! haha...
oh n yanling keep telling me abt dis nus shuai ge she met on e bus haha.. it seems like all e cute guys r in nus boohoo.. mayb i shld go over haha for exchange i mean.. but ar i think i will lose my way cos i only noe how to go central lib and science canteen only.. boohoo.. n being a v dao person i think i will lunch alone n worse still i wun eat cos nobody pei me eat.. boohoo.. cos all my frens in science nobody pei me lunch at arts! only my jc guys will lunch at arts cos dey wanna oogle at pretty girls.. haha..
aiyo den how? all e shuai ges in nus leh.. hahaha.. i think nus guys r better muahaha.. ok i shall go nus whenever i m free n c if i can find any golden turtles.. think dat is more useful than gg mkt n buy green turtles from auntie n painting it gold..
hmmm but die liao lar cos e guys dat i like r usually dao n wun take initiative de.. haha 人就是那么犯贱:越是不理你 越有兴趣 hahaa... mayb i shld change my preferences to friendly guys.. eh but too friendly not good later no sense of security how ar? ah! i noe friendly to me ONLY! hahaha...
the princess left at
12:40 AM
元宵节快乐
cos ar it gets scary how ppl noe wad is gg on in my life.. i mean i dunno who is reading consistently.. n it jus gets scary how ppl keep track of my progress..
*shudders* wanted to blog abt 211 proj but i shant..
u noe how dey alwiz say those ppl who display their weapons upfront r e best enemies u can haf.. cos those ppl who hide everything r those who r most unpredictable.. aiyo.. so scary...
den it seems like there's no pt for dis entry hor..
hahhaa...
later gg out for rena's hall prod.. nv been to any drama ever since my hc huang cheng dayzz.. its really fun back then..
u noe i haf alwiz wanted to join in some eca or some prod or sth.. cos i think its fun.. but haizz yr 2 liao.. join now so farnie.. n not as if i noe a lot of ppl.. i dunno how to go abt joining oso.. and ar i v lazy de.. if i join ar i think my not-so-good studies will dunno b in wad shitty state..
haha
ok i shall tok abt my new crush.. in e end din haf any sweet dreams leh.. n i m really fickle minded cos i woke up yest thinking aiya he not dat great liao la.. jus tot he was cute n farnie.. but heh.. its really no hope dat kind.. hahaha... cos i dun c him often.. n itz prolly nxt lifetime oso wun c him kind.. boohoo.. haha..a bit contradicting but.. hahaha.. its fun to haf crushes cos 你牵起我的微笑 牵起我的心跳 haha oredi nv exercise liao ar.. so heart beating v fast is oso a form of exercise haha.. n got sth to look 4ward to when i sign in msn thou thou thou haizz.. we oso wun tok hahaha...
dat nite when he was online ar i jus foolishly stare at my com screen haha.. den when got "deng-deng-deng" was still hoping it's him.. but its everyone else except him.. den i kept all conversations short n sweet n i went to lie on my bed facing my lappie.. den idiot lar i fell asleep!!! woke up at 2am he offline liao.. boohoo... eh not as if i will do anything oso lar.. but seeing him online v fun mah.. hahhaah.. i like some dumbo hor.. sheesh...
dis morn was reading a survey abt how guys actually prefer girls to take more initiative haha eg giving them things n doing things for them.. cos when a guy likes a girl he will flood them wif sms-es, shower them wif gifts n flowers rite.. but when girls like a guy dey jus tell them their frens n foolishly wait for guys to take action.. n in e end nth comes out of it! aiyo so sad...
den ar as v day is approaching ar dis newspaper v jek ark oso cos dis reporter tokked abt how divorce rates r escalating n there seems to b no true love ard.. aiyo so sad.. i still believe in true love n everytime i pass by parks or my neighbourhood n c ah gong ah ma holding hands i will wanna cry de leh haha cos v gan dong.. sometimes when i take bus i c ah gongs holding ah ma hands up e stairs i will b v touched oso haha.. of cos i wun try not cry in public lar.. muahahaha...
v day is no longer a taboo topic in frt of me liao cos cos cos.. i 想通 le! everyone shld b 幸福幸福！i shld try my best n help ppl if i cld! n since so many 看得起我 ask me for help i shld try n help lar! =) so wad if i haf no date hahaha i haf tatty to pei me! yippie yay! dun b jealous of me cos u dun haf tatty! hahaha...
i think i will try n sew tatty a new t-shirt but a bit hard cos he got BIG tummy! muahaha...
the princess left at
1:44 PM
wkns jus make me feel v much worse..
wad's wrong wif being slack rite? cos i noe of some ppl who r envious of me.. who can slack whole dayzz... i read a lot of blogs n ppl complaining abt deadlines n stuff.. harlowzz i oso haf my fair share of complaints can? n when i get stressed i m VERY stressed! nightmares n insomnia.. haiz..
anyway yar y i m angry wif myself for being slack rite? hmm cos cos cos..
no.. not bcos i haben start on my 211 assignment.. cos i keep telling myself i still haf tml n mon n tue.. n i researched oredi.. shld b ok.. jus nid to figure out how i wanna present it n structure e whole thing..
yar i m angry cos i jus let my imagination go wild wild wild..
n i will start to lament how my whole life is.. i noe i noe i noe i shld treasure e things i haf..e ppl ard me..
i dun need u ppl to drive dat into my mind! cos i jolly well noe!
but cos u are NOT in my shoes!! dun tok to me in dat "oh well i noe wad u r gg thru" or "things arent dat bad lar" tone..
u wun understand n can never understand cos everyone's situation is different!
u wun noe wad r my worries n y i m complaining...
everything jus come crashing on me... i jus wanna b a hermit crab..
i jus wanna stay home n not go anywhere..
i dowan to tok to anyone..
i wanna b alone..
at 1st i thot i wun go out on v day but i will b gg to visit my derma on tue morn i haben decided if i wanna go make up tut cos it will end at 630.. n i feel bad for not gg.. cos i oredi din go for e one on fri.. n dis coming tut is e last one wif park.. n i beginning to dislike him oso.. not dat he cant teach but i dunno y he seems to b more temperamental dis sem. a lot of bad moods i can sense.. n he keep changing dis n dat.. v irritating.. he used to b my fav prof n i even tot of asking him to b my fyp mentor de.. i doubt so now cos i v traumatised by him now... *shudders*
seriously ar if his make up tut is in e morn i'd haf gone.. ha weird hor.. morn tut i will go one meh.. cos its in e evening n e thot of shoving my body ard a sea of lovey dovey couples jus make me feel sick..
n cos it ends at 630 by e time i reach home its oredi 730 earliest n no dinner for me liao..[dun ask me y no dinner y cant ask them keep.. cos dere's a v irritating person at home who doesnt like to wash dishes at different times.. n i seriously dunno y oso.. not as if i cant wash myself.. n dat irritating person is not dad or sis so dun bother guessing for those of u who dunno..]
irritating irritating.. or mayb i shld cook porridge b4 i go sch so dat i reach home can jus heat up n eat..
i shall c how.. cos i dowan go out on v day liao..
hmm today i got a sms from A ask me wad i want for v day.. v farnie cos she said anything oso can other than a bf which she cant get for me..
come to think of it.. since j1 every yr i will celebrate v day wif frens de.. n every yr sure will haf gift exchange..
but dis yr i choose not to haf any gift exchange cos i v broke so u all dun waste money on me la den i dun hafta to spend $ oso..
BUT...
i wanna go out!! i wanna go sing ktv n eat good food!
i wanna go fisherman's village!
nxt wk is recess liao.. as in dis coming wk is wk 7 den after fri is recess liao..
i think i will feel so much worse during recess if no one asks me out boohoo.. sian diao..
心里的无奈 多希望能对你说明白
the princess left at
9:17 PM
my heart jus skipped a beat...
ok nvm jus a new crush..
anyway i m so suay.. e toto i shared wif jilian n gh din open ar! im not 1 million richer.. or rather 300k richer! cos 1 million split by 3.. haizz was still hoping i can go buy car or sth.. or dat adidas bag which is on e shelf waiting for me..
yar shit so distracted by e HE online den i cant eben rmb wad i wanna blog abt..
once again i think dis entry will b v incoherent..
today along e way to sch ar.. i saw dis guy who was driving.. controlling his steering wheel wif one hand.. n he was shaving wif e other.. n his head was tilted cos he was trying to look into e rear mirror.. wah! damn power la! haha... so much for multi tasking n bz singaporeans.. no wonder accidents do happen.. let's pray he din cut himself la.. haha..
anyway dis pm a lot of hiccups happened was on e verge of crying.. din wanna cry on 179 so i chose to walk ard jp..
n it did help! coupled wif my happy food- hot fudge sundae! hee..
but after dat sundae i coughed like mad!
now ok le.. thou jus now was horrible..
okie i m blogging abt trivial stuff.. but i really cant rmb wad i wanna blog abt!! sheesh!! he is distracting me.. even thou we din tok aiyo.. how ar..张开双手我迫不及待 等待世界给我的爱 等一个依赖
我踏着稳健的步伐期待 期待未来安排的爱 Baby你在哪里
我的心跳 不知该怎么好 我要爱一个世纪
爱要大声说出来 让他明白 努力制造机会爱要才有未来
等一个好机会 向你说爱你的告白(大声的说爱)
疯了 因为我爱你最久
为了不让爱继续发呆 为了我幸福的结局 我一定努力
Oh每天创造更多的surprise 要让他生活过的精采
Baby你不知道我的眉毛 为了你而修好 我要美一个世纪
你对我的好 我也开始感觉得到
你牵起我的微笑 牵起我的心跳 牵走我的问号
a current fav song! haha.. everytime i think of him i will play dis song! i oredi 努力制造机会 liao... if i try it too often might get too obvious.. oh no! hahaha...
k wadeva m jus v happy dat he's online..
im sure i will haf sweet dreams tonite!!~~ tata...
tml den i come back n blog.. when my heart is not thumping as fast! haha...
the princess left at
11:26 PM
vien u r right...
but i still wanna meet him.. cos its a v comfy feeling..
[vien u noe who i m tokking abt hor..]
haiyo y mus it rain like nobody's biz today? or rather jus when i was abt to set off to nus to return e chinese books..
den while walking along e clementi mrt i was so afraid of slipping n fall cos i was not wearing my birks! i wore another slippery sandals.. sian diao..
den i had a traumatic experience!!
dis sec sch boy he was standing in e middle of nowhere.. n he had dis v weird n psychotic look i din dare take a 2nd glance n walked on..
den guess wad? he grabbed my arm!!
i was glued to e ground n i jus stare at him i dunno wad to do!! e auntie behind me had dis v scared look oso.. haiz..
i wanted to scream! but ar so paiseh..
his hand ruff ruff de.. boohoo.. den i mustered enuf courage to shirk his hand off n hurriedly walk away!
so traumatised!!!!
some promoters approached me along e way to interchange but i was concentrating on my footsteps so dat i wun slip n fall i jus ignore everyone n oso i haben recover from my trauma.. boohoo..
den i went 7-11 n buy choco.. den can shun bian get carrier for my umbrella.. i bot choco for willie cos he helping me borrow books.. i dun like to qian ppl ren qing la..
i dropped e chinese books in e book drop n den chop chop photocopied den go home liao.. e photocopiers r getting lousier.. there were only a few working ones.. damn sian.. n i alwiz feel out of place there so i chop chop photocopy cos i was alone n left.. ha..
along e way home i wondered y din i choose nus haha cos e journey is soo short?! hahaha... i think both abt e same la.. nus shorter by a bit.. i think.. hee..
k napping time..
the princess left at
5:29 PM
i jus saw dis v good lobang...
v broke la...
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haizz dis advert really make me feel like flying.. bkk not a bad choice cos i haf nv been there b4.. keep hearing ppl say things v cheap can shop till i drop haha.. n e air fare only $29 so interested parties can jio me! muahaha.. can fly in late april or may cos my exams end den n can avoid e small kids' sch hols..
n i saw taiwan air fare! my goodness less than $100 of cos i noe add all e airport taxes n stuff surely more than that.. but still tempting.. muahaha..
[cz: mayb we can fly there eat oyster mee sua n drink 就是好喝 muahahhaa]
ok at least dis v day promo is relevant to me.. haha..
n i read in today's papers dat there wil soon b budget airlines flying to places like prague, england etc.. so happy!! e world is getting smaller.. pls make travelling cheaper for ppl like me.. [who r v broke n yet love to travel] haha..
i hope dey can hurry haf budget air flying to melb den i can save a lot a lot of $ thou i think ultimately i will still choose sq cos ar e flight so long nth to watch/listen [i like kris*world] n no good food to eat v sian de leh.. i think sq inflight meals v nice i like e haagen daz ice cream! hahaa...
wadeva.. i need to go sleep liao.. tml got lesson n i hope i haf sweet dreams~~ tata...
the princess left at
2:14 AM
i know wad's wrong wif me liao..
im alwiz putting myself down..
im afraid of making mistakes...
i dun like to hear ppl making nasty remarks abt me..
i noe if i m complacent things will turn out e opp way..
it alwiz happens..
i seriously think i m dumb..
i used to think i m smart n i dun really nid to study v hard..
but i seriously doubt it now..
i mean i m still e same old me leh..
i dun fall asleep in class..
i still pay attn or tries to pay attn like in sec sch
den y isit i can do better in pri sch/sec sch/jc but not uni?
n e worst thing is i feel dat even if i work hard
i can nv achieve good results..
im soooo drained after my chinese presentation..
dun ask me y but dis chinese report has seriously taken a toll on me.. i haf alwiz been confident of my chinese.. but somehow dis few modules i haf been taking really make me ponder if i m dat great.. mayb not anymore..
i woke up at 4am.. last nite slept b4 midnite.. jus din wanna look at e powerpt liao.. so i slept.. i woke up at 4.. forced myself to go back to sleep.. but jus cldn't so toss n turn till 440 i went to bathe n read my chinese report again..
i got sick of it n went to sit at living room waiting for e newspaper man to deliver newspaper.. den i brot to my room n read.. den i fell asleep! got a shock when i woke up! cos its 9! lesson at 930!! n i jus saw gh's sms dat he's reaching my place soon! i dun dare look at e time of sms.. i only noe i need to hurry hurry! so i grabbed clothes changed dump files into my bag.. n dashed out of my hse.. i went down waited.. eh dun haf his car leh.. thot he left without me cos its 910 liao..
so i called him.. heng pie jam..
eben today's lunch i had no appetite.. i was rushing to go thru e power pt again.. haizz..
now dat i reached home i m sooo tired... n hungry! cos i like nv eat anything substantial today..
sometimes i dunno y m i sooo tired.. like wad my other frens alwiz ask.. n tell me.. i haf no job.. dun need work.. dun need gif tuition.. dun haf hall stuff or other commitments.. no bf or r/s to maintain..
n yet i m alwiz so tired n stressed...
i dunno leh..
mayb cos i roam abt too much at home liao.. cos i dun watch tv oso.. i dun go after drama serials.. hmmm y huh??
i dun tok on phone [only occasional]
i dun play computer games..
i dun chat much on msn leh!
i only blog.. n chk ppl's blog.. [thou i shld b e most diligent blogger ard liao]
den den den?? y my 24 hours seem exceptionally short??
haizz... so angry wif myself..
wait till i figure out y..
im tired n HUNGRY! shall go nap while waiting for dinner.. tata~
no more nightmares pls...
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i jus went to c my bestest fren off...
i think i need to trim my hair soon my fringe is sooo long n my hair is outta shape..
ok dat aside.. i m sooo gonna miss my dearest vien yeo.. thou technology has shortened e distance b/w us..
[interrupted a while by another guy] wah lau ask me where can buy hello kitty stuff?? mus b another v day present!! my goodness!! stop asking me for help for v day lar!!
n to think jus now vien was still trying to "see no evil hear no evil" whenever we pass by those jewellery shops or gift shops wif glaring "v day promo" signs!
ok wadeva i hate v day! i hate hate hate hate hate hate v day!
all blog-ders b warned! a word of "v day" from ur mouths i m gg to flare up!! grrr...
k k back to vien yeo.. haizz thou e rest of our sec sch clique cannot make it.. at least e ntu-ers all there lor!! muahaha.. n thanks to cpl i got free ride home!! if not poor me hafta take mrt change bus blah blah.. n i nv free ride on cpl cos ar i help her read map leh!! good geog students we r!!
n all thanks to my *ahem* long hand i managed to take a trio photo can? haha...
how i wish time can come to a standstill n dat we can go back to our sec sch days when we r not so troubled now.. haiz..
last nite vien sent me 2 songs which we cant relate to when we were in sec sch days. n its ironic how we can jus play it on repeat cos its jus how we r feeling right now..
anyway b4 gg to tampines [oh vien was late!!! n i was early!! grrr..] i went to orchard to drop by n cheer auntie mary! yay! she v qiang leh!! still gg on strong lor.. haha.. but so traumatised by e siao fans outside.. so we had to rescue her.. haha.. too bad i cant stay too long n "tokking" to her makes me feel like using sign lang oso.. so dat i wun hai her into saying anything.. so ke lian i think if its me i wld haf died.. haha cant tok for 48 hours leh! i will miss my bed.. n can u imagine sleeping in public.. no door somemore.. so ke lian.. n so freaking cold in e morn haiz... poor thing leh..
n i was supposed to rescue cz oso cos she din take lunch.. but when i bot her a super big bun ar she oredi munching old chang kee away liao lor.. hmph..
but ok today i v efficient! managed to accomplish everything i aimed to do like gg orchard cheer auntie mary, gg to c vien off, chinese report printed, hw101 essay printed n labour tut done thou its luan lai one.. eh left chinese presentation not v shou still haizz.. hope i can rmb e pts by tml pm lar!
i hope i can sleep soundly tonite n not haf so many nightmares!!
[weird.. y isit dat my dad is so enthu abt fruits tonite!! i brushed my teeth liao leh n he insist i mus eat wah lau den he say my mouth doo doo so difficult to please.. ppl cut fruit for me still hiam.. wah lau normal hours i wun hiam la cos i love vege n fruits BUT i brushed my teeth liao!!!! v irritating!! ]
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i hate my life now...
dun eben dare catch one more min of sleep..
i dun eben get quality sleep lor.. cos i had a nightmare!! i dreamt of a senior in smu n i dreamt of my chinese politics prof.. horrible horrible.. really nightmare lor.. den i wake up liao thou i slept at close to 4am
haizz cos was tokking to vien.. if not she fly back today liao dunno when's e nxt time we can tok lydat..
yar so after yest i m still not done wif e chinese proj cos haben think of intro n conclusion.. haben really edit oso.. jus edited e cuo bie zi.. but power pt is done.. a v simple one..
i finished my hw101 essay oso... zhun zhun 250 words ha dey say to keep to word limit of 200-250..
but haben done labour tut cos i dunno how to do..
n today still need to gan chang.. if dun go orchard n support e radio70hour gag cz will b angry wif me ba.. cos yest supposed to go down but rushing chinese.. den after orchard still need to rush to tampines to pass vien stuff n to get stuff from her.. not gg airport cos it will b too late.. her flight is 1145pm lor..
how how how i feel like dying..
ok after wed i shld b better.. thou my wkend wun b dat great oso cos another proj to rush!!
haizzzzzzzz v sianzzz a lot a lot of deadlines!!!
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10:22 AM
i feel as thou..
jus came back from chomp chomp.. finally e long awaited visit to chomp chomp..
we ordered a lot a lot of food.. i really mean a lot! cos we spent 18.50 each.. n after my hearty meal i really feel like puking..
e food we ordered...
e char kway teow wif lotsa "hum"
sambal kangkong [i ate most of e kangkong =) ] n satay!
"xia po" or crayfish which jilian thot we ordered lobster |||
how can i forget my sting ray rite? but its damn hot la.. haizz...
carrot cake.. nicey thou i din eat much of it cos i v full..
chicken wings!
n i ordered drinks for them! gigantic sugar cane nice!! v big glass! which is $3 a glass so u all can imagine e size! haha...
after dis round of food gh n jl were not satisfied althou i really wanna surrender liao n gh went to order wu xiang.. haiyo.. but he still aiming chwee kueh which we din order in e end..
den we took a walk ard e serangoon garden estate cos jilian said she has nv been there b4.. n i mus say i m amazed by jilian's appetite cos ar she v petite de lor n thou she din take lunch she ate a lot! my goodness! usually in sch she dun eat a lot de leh.. wadeva..
我真是没用！
n we wanted to go sing ktv de! cos me n jilian like 10 yrs nv step out of hse or sth or mayb we do our chinese proj do until almost feng diao..
okie den i wanna say i m pissed wif a person.. sometimes i really dunno which sentence u say is e truth.. i m so tired of guessing n inferring.. i dun eben noe wad to think of e other person.. ok sounds luan.. but wadeva..
den i jus chked edventure [our sch student portal] den wah lau for some unidentified reason, my prof moved our tut from fri to tue!! which is v day! n its in e evening.. not dat i haf anything on.. but wah lau i was intending to stay at home n cry or mayb immerse myself in 211 proj due nxt wk.. wah lau.. i haben decide if i wanna go.. cos i seriously dowan go out on a v day.. if its in e morn not so bad lor.. in e evening.. den c all e lovey dovey couples.. 伤口撒盐 lor..
n i seriously dunno y but a lot of guys haf been asking me to recommend good restaurants wif nice ambience.. eh seriously ar my face got write “情场高手”or sth ar?? my 约会经验 is ZERO! grrr... ok i noe le.. cos of my round figure.. [n it got rounder cos of chomp chomp meal] dat's y u all think i noe all e good places in sg.. ok good restaurants i can understand.. but nice ambience wif candlelight n river view? my goodness.. how i noe la..
to vien: n u said v day is a taboo we cant mention it infrt of u.. i feel 1000 times worse than u can?? horrible horrible..
e nxt person who asks me for recommendations will get it from me! i will try n help e rest who haf asked me so far.. still need to rack my brains for u all my goodness..
dun tok to me abt v day unless u wanna ask me out.. [subject to my mood]
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10:24 PM
i was hoping for a miracle...
this morn woke up n haizz my miracle wont happen afterall..
at least now cos circumstances haf changed.. i dun really want it to happen now.. sianzz... really v suay leh!!
ok back to report typing..
alrightey b4 i really get back to work i saw dis person's post n i think she really described how i m feeling.. btw dis person is jus some stranger i dunno ha.."i realised i let my heart rule over me most of the times. i always paint a beautiful picture of the things i wan. when things dun turn out e way i wanted it to be, im hurt. e cycle always repeats itself, coz i always do things out of my wishful thinking. y is it tt i cld be so realistic sometimes yet so idealistic when it comes to matter of e heart... i feel so aimless once again."
hmm how true.. i can b v practical n realistic but when it comes to some irritating mind boggling n heart wrenching issues i jus cant b as resolute as i can b at times. hahaha adjectives a bit exaggerated but yar idealistic is e word!
troubles aside, i mus get my work done if not i cant enjoy tonite!! grr...
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what changed e course of ur life?
my education path has alwiz been qt smooth, being able to make it to all e so called "good schools" which my parents wanted..
dey tried so hard to get me into nanyang primary.. thou i doubt i wil send my children there.. ha.. i still rmb mummy alwiz drive us to sch.. n at dat time bt timah road was not wad it is like today.. itz alwiz congested dat's y dey built e 3-tier road.. mummy said she wanna drive us to nygh using e new road, which she nv got to do it oso.. when i got into nygh i was v happy cos i fulfilled mummy's wish, not mine..
mummy's death prolly changed e course of my life cos if she were still ard.. i might b more pampered n ferried from place to place.. n we cld prolly b richer..
if mummy were ard i doubt i wld ever go taiwan.. cos she prolly wun lemme go hols on my own..
anyway getting into nygh wasnt one of e most fantastic thing dat has happened to me.. but getting to noe 2 most impt frens: xq n vien.. was e best thing dat cld ever happen to me.. dey r like my emotions bin alwiz there to listen to all my grumbles n whining..
not 4getting cz who i din really keep in contact but happened to chong feng at radio acad..
even gg hcjc was not a choice made by me.. i got 8 pts for prelims.. e cut off pt for hc so i might not get in in e 1st place..
i rmb during e jae, i dun haf internet access so xq helped me do e reg n she chose hc for me 2nd was nj.. dey were all gg hc so i jus followed..
nxt choosing of courses.. i gave up being a doctor after O levels.. cos i was afraid of hardship thou being a doctor wld b v prestigious n 光宗耀祖 but i noe i was not up to it.. but so as not to disappoint my dad i still chose trip science.. partly cos i haben decide wad i wanna do in e future n trip sc is e safe option.. i haf nv considered arts cos i was nv an arts person.. n so i think i chose trip sc bcos vien asked me to pei her.. [so dat we might end up in e same class]
if i had really allow my heart to decide back then, i wld choose e odd combi of bio chem econs n maths..i wanted to do econs in jc.. my physics sucks big time! n i rmb how i struggled wif physics back then.. *shudders*
n being in a trip science class we haf e longest timetable in e whole sch cos we haf 3 labs each wk can u imagine! n we were alwiz rushing lab reports n stuff.. [peanuts compared to wad my sc frens r doing now i guess] i rmb i was e bio rep n i alwiz haf to b at bio lab early to count test tubes n petri dishes n wad haf u got.. grr.. luckily its only for 1 yr..
i still rmb after 1st 3 mths i still got 8pts for Os n dis time round i think i might b kicked out of hc.. me n rena pon lect on e day of e release of posting results.. cos we were so afraid..
heng i got to stay in e end if not i prolly wld end up in nj, just across e road jus like some of e girls in my class.. heng i stayed n eli came over! n wif some manipulation haha she got into my class.. n i m thankful for e 2nd intake cos of my clique 3 of them r 2nd intakers.. yanling ting n eli were from e same nj class somemore.. sometimes it gets tough tokking to them cos i rmb dey were not v happy in hc.. dey like nj more.. but heng everything is ok le..
was disappointed wif my As results.. n i chose not to do science or pharm like wad e bulk of my class is doing cos i was sick n tired of science so i decided to do econs.. y did i choose econs? i din wanna choose biz cos i thot it was too general.. den while looking thru some of e pamphlets wif my sis, my sis took out e smu econs one n say y dun u try for dis? den i was like huh? smu? i nv eben think of dat lor..
but i went to smu, took e written interview n verbal interview n surprisingly i cleared! n i got in!
after 1 yr there i dun really like e environment n e long n steep slope leading to e sch was v irksome n i dun look forward to gg to sch at all.. especially during wk 13 n 14 when there r presentations almost every day n wearing heels n carrying laptop up e slope is no easy feat!
n for e 1st time in my life, i made a deviation! i transferred to ntu. y did i call it a deviation cos my education path has alwiz been a typically defined as a good n proper way it shld b..
my transfer to ntu was a spur of a moment.. i rmb i din tell any of my smu frens cos i noe i might get emotional. if dey try n ask me to stay i might stay n regret in e future.. so i called yanling n rena n told dem i feel like transferring to ntu.. i wanted to do acct at first cos its 3 yrs mah n i will still grad ard e same time had i stay in smu..
so i wrote to nbs dean but he/she i cant rmb said dey haf too many ppl on waiting list le.. n cos i missed e deadline n stuff.. its jus a spur of e moment like i said so i din go thru e "correct way"..
den yanling asked y dun u try econs since its a new sch.. so i emailed office of academic services n of cos dey told me i missed e deadline n i can try for e nxt academic yr when e time comes.. but i din gif up i emailed chen kang.. n he said he need to chk.. den he said oas said e deadline was over but he was still curious y i want a transfer.. after a few emails wif chen kang he promised to help me out n tada so here i m now in ntu!
i haf nv regretted coming to ntu n dis place really make me feel at home wif all e nice ppl ard me! its v different from smu.. i dunno how different it wld b if i had really gone to acct but my hss frens r great!
my dad was really happy when i decided to trf to ntu surprisingly cos i tot he might b angry i wasted 1 yr.. thou he was still irritated y i din go nus instead! partly cos to e older generation nus is more prestigious n oso nus is nearer to my hse its jus one straight road down [if u drive] ha..
oh another thing.. shortly after i trf to ntu, smu announced a fee hike ha.. so i m glad i trf.. n cos its in city area i think i might shop a lot or worse still alwiz late for lessons..
i think 179 is soo much nicer cos its so frequent.. ha..
another thing which changed my life.. not really course of my life is joining radio acad.. getting to noe e reality of broadcasting industry.. i m really glad i get to experience it b4 deciding if dat is e kind of career i really want.. nope i dowan.. cos its really ugly! ha..
wad other changes do i wanna c in my life?
i wanna do exchange cos i wanna try n c if i can survive on my own n i wanna c how wold life b like to stay abroad n study for 1/2 a yr..
oh i forgot to mention after As i was actually offered a place in melb uni b4 my As results were released.. dey gave me a place in biomed based on my teachers' forecasted results.. i told my dad n he asked me to decide but i was to leave sg 1 mth after my As.. it was too sudden so i gave up.. haiz if not i wld haf been in melb now..
i want a someone to change e course of my life cos i m tired of being alone ha..
i want a job in future which i will enjoy working wif nice colleagues n all.
i want a good life in e future.. not necessarily e tai tai sense.. a good life simply means i m happy wif whoever i m wif n dat's enuf..
yar i noe some may say dat i behave like a tai tai now liao ha.. wadeva..
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