http://www.astrology.com/year/love/capricorn.html
LOVE: Your New Year starts off with a bang indeed -- while you may be seriously chipping away at your list of resolutions in other areas, your reserve is blown away in the love department directly after the first week in January. You surprise the heck out of yourself, and whether you're carousing with somebody new or just anew with your steady, they're pleasantly shocked as well. Then your trademark perseverance in some matter of the heart can pay off the weekend of February 4th -- and the weekend starting March 4th can be whatever you want to make it, lovewise.
Spring's all about relationships. If you're coupled up, you're as protective of your privacy as ever to outsiders, yet you slowly see that letting your true tenderness show is a risk very much worth taking -- perhaps beginning April 1st (no fooling). Similarly, singletons amp up their love lives by getting a little deeper, realizing there's not much to lose and a great deal to gain. May 7th and 8th hold much promise, romantically speaking, and June 22nd is a perfect time to say what you mean and mean what you say.
Your heart continues to occupy your mind through a sizzling summer, with the weekend of July 15th presenting a decision that you're very much ready for. Those who think of you in a businesslike way make some major adjustments at the beginning of August, as your love life takes you through some extremes that you ultimately find thrilling. Who knew you were so wild at heart?
With your innate practicality, you're never one to dwell on your romantic past; but in the fall, someone from your romantic past may be dwelling on you. Your old loyalty may be sparked, but is the connection still there? Let your intuition guide your, especially the weekend of September 16th. In October and November, your mind's on your money and your money's on your mind, but don't exclude the nourishment of a sweet little something in the romance department. Look for a hot holiday party on December 16th or 17th, and as far as New Year's Eve weekend, it's got your name (plus someone else's) written all over it.
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Great at management and always one to have at least one eye on the bottom line, you are not likely to be distracted from this factor. With liberating Uranus in your twelfth house, representing institutions, including prisons (literal and figurative), you may develop an interest in the growing prison-reform movement. You stand to achieve significant success, in creative terms as well as financial. Your enormous creativity can generate a substantial income. If you are not self-employed, you are at least likely to operate in a highly independent manner.
Four planets in your conservative Sun sign of Capricorn would probably prevent you from ever going completely wild, but you also have two planets in zany Aquarius, plus another two in adventurous Sagittarius, making it impossible to straitjacket you entirely, either. Your thinking is highly intuitive and inspired, rather than merely logical; and your love life is likely to be decidedly unorthodox. How you bring this together with your incredible business sense and gift for organizational overview will be a sight to behold. An Aquarian excites your affections as well as your passions, while a visionary Sagittarius becomes an encouraging confidant. Your greatest challenge is to decide what to do with your greatest gifts-your enormous talent, including keen financial and management ability.
p/s vien!! u c sagi leh! haha... i think qt true.. wang xq is an aquarian leh.. but she doesn't excite me bwahaha..
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oops so paiseh take pic in bath tub haha.. but dis is not e usual bath tub u noe... look at e breathtaking scenery!! OMG!! 
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yay!! me!!! fake bathing haha... so happy!! haha.. gg back soon!! cos anna won a free hotel stay!! so i can go stay at ritz carlton hor anna (",) bwahahaha
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den she abandoned me to go clubbing.. haizz.. so i walked ard chinatown wif henry n his roomie.. den i bot one pair of shorts n one pair of berms hee.. qt happy lar.. all in all i only spent 29.10 haha..
den today haizz.. even busier.. but heng i got anna to chauffeur me ard!! bwahaha.. she came my hse n pick me up at abt 1230 den we gg bugis cos both cheez n anna gg to style their hair.. cheez got comp den anna got d&d mah..
den after dat had to rush cheezi down to j8 haizz but we were still late lar.. den waited for a while.. e competition started le.. j8 open plaza really damn hot.. so we kept walking in n out.. wanted to buy flowers for cheezi at j8 de.. but dat florist damn qiao za one.. $75??!! for 3 sunflowers.. den she kept insisting its v long blah blah blah.. den i told anna cheezi not v tall wad gif so long for wad later she hold until so xin ku...
so we left.. asked joanne to get instead lor.. but we waited v long joanne still not here n anna get more n more gan cheong le cos she's running late for her d&d liao lor.. n we needed to pass joanne vcd n e cny card for shu shu..
anna was supposed to leave at 5 de.. den we left at 530.. can imagine anna's face was expressionless le.. "no-joke" face heh..
but at e same time my class gathering was postponed to 7pm cos a lot of ppl cant make it.. so i hang ard in ritz carlton wif anna lor haha.. wow i tell u ar e toilet damn luxurious lor can overlook e whole skyline of singapore i took pics.. wait till anna send me den i can upload bwahaha.. really damn good i got nuddin to say.. wait till i become a tai tai.. i go stay there evri wkn wah!!! haha..
den class gathering.. hmm nuddin much to say leh other than dis time ard like a lot of ppl v bz.. got qt a few left early sian.. turn out wasnt good compared to our high attendance e last few times.. dis time only got 14.. heh.. but nevertheless dis number is oredi amazing for some other classes le.. well we once hit 20 ppl leh! haizz.. a lot of ppl not in sg le mah.. mark left (shld b in michigan ba haha) skif leaving for melb to do medicine.. n kai er in cambridge... bo han in melb doing biomed..
today i realised i was jus a substitute all along.. e gap between us is getting wider n wider... it seems almost impossible to bridge it.. mayb its me.. i tried pretending nuddin's wrong.. i wanted so much to jus get on wif life, n pretend nuddin has happened.. but i was WRONG! e more i try e worse it gets.. i m running away again...
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dis is e bath tub.. got head rest somemore.. ask me stay forever in e bath tub i oso shuang haha.. e scenery damn good!! wait till anna send me e photo she took for me in e bath tub de haha..
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dis is a pic i took using my hp from e window of dat ritz carlton room dey r in.. damn good view hor..
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me n cyn at chinatown haha...paiseh look a bit pale huh.. jus went to c doc b4 dat ha..
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i dunno y will lydat but i actually forgot i belonged to cac??!! yesh for those of u who din noe i m e chinese editor for cac n one of e editors for e new publication "arts jam" u shld haf seen a few copies of dis mag in canteens few wks ago ba.. but so far i onl wrote 1 article on fish leong ntu concert. n it has not ben published yet. k anyway dat time my publications head asked if i wanna b in chrg of external advertisements. den i told her to gif me time to think abt it. i think cos dat time i was working n flying to taiwan soon..
after i came back from taiwan i forgot abt it n nv heard anything from dem since.. so it jus slipped my mind n i concentrated on my foc stuff..
in e first place i guessed i wasnt too interested in dis Arts jam thingy la..cos i signed up for publications thinking i cld continue writing chinese articles cover pop entertainment events... but ended up doing things which i dun like something like biz mag getting ppl to buy ad space n stuff?? can anybody tell me y isit e job of a supposedly chinese editor??
k den my publication head came n asked so how wad's e results of e ads lar? anybody interested? den i huhed? i m supposed to do sth.. ok i may sound irresponsible here.. but i certainly dun mean it i wun wanna tarnish my own reputation. but she heard from our arts jam in chrg dat i "agreed" to b e external ads in chrg?! ok dis is e 2nd time or dunno how many times dis "lydia-person" put words into my mouth. me n her mus b ba zi bu he or sth lor!! wad e hell?!! i haf nv heard from her or rcve any sms after my publ head's lor..
okie so i wanna quit! i noe v irresponsible but i haf been harbouring this thot ever since i noe e existence of arts jam.. i mean i asked my pub head alethea b4 den wad abt chinese pop scene.. den she says it doesnt go in line wif our mag's theme n image.. so only e artsy stuff will b covered.. hmm at dat time i feel cheated n conned.. i mean asking me to write english articles is e furthest i cld go.. now wad?? cover artsy events?? call up event companies organisers blah blah blah??!!
ok i m tired!
dis wk dere r jus so many things to do.. sms my jc ppl inform dem got gathering.. gather suggestions on wad to eat..
den my foc.. met our vice dean n manager twice dis wk le.. got soooo many things to discuss wif dem.. n darn SAO! i jus feel like slapping dem.. at first was still qt pleased wif e meeting yest cos there were jus soo much laughter.. we realli enjoyed ourselves.. n i feel our main commers getting closer.. i was so happy.. but we hafta face reality... i wanted so much to believe in my biz mag.. i hope u guys will do me proud!
anyway i think i m becoming more n more of an escapist. save me anybody??!!
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anyway was qt happy at biz comm in chinese lesson today haha.. found another fren in dat course.. a fren i gotta know at mediacorp radio carnival last yr haha she was from my jc too! den we started tokkin after lesson den v funny la.. i oso dunno wad to say haha.. oh yar den she told me actually last wk she saw me le.. but she wasnt sure its me la. cos i look so dao n serious?! oh really i nv knew dat haha.. tot i looked more siao half e time.. hmm mayb i shld reflect on myself huh?? serious?? dao haizz..
anyway can tell i m in qt a good mood today hee. n i need to welcome one more fren to my blog!! welcome kevan! haha..
hmm wad else..oh yar i found a new treasurer!!! a girl volunteered herself to my vice chair!! n anyway today i followed my biz mag committee to c e vice dean he's a nice person giving us lotsa canvassing jobs like gg his house to sort books den he paying us few hundred bucks!! wow! foc got hope le!! den we haf car wash nxt wk so fun!! remind me of e 958 charity car wash marathon last yr!! those were e days! woohoo!! hmm now i m considering if i wanna run for main comm, as in e hss club one.. cos elections will end dis thurs.. haiz..
tml is my early day end at 1130 but start early too! sian.. nvm go home n kun.. k lar need to go slp liao if not cant wake up on time again!!lastly share wif u all a personalised horoscope i did online haha.. sounds good...
– First, I see a nice income for you around day Monday, January 31, 2005...
– on day Friday, February 04, 2005, you will make an important and decisive encounter,
- you will experience a great stroke of luck (one that will not happen twice in your life) on day Tuesday, February 08, 2005...
For this reason, I urgently write to you so that you get ready to fully enjoy all the good things that these extraordinary events will bring you.
This will be for you Emeline a great opportunity to make a new start in your life. And even if this new start might be hard to negotiate, at last you will enjoy the life of your dreams, a great life, the life you have been dreaming of for a long time, the well deserved life of your dreams.
Yes, Emeline, in a few days (9 to be exact) things will suddenly change for you as if you were about to start from scratch.
This will be for you the wonderful opportunity to change your life.
I have also seen that you have entered a delicate and very important time in your life. But thanks to those 3 decisive events that I foresee, you will be able to go from a dissatisfying life to a great life where Money first, then Good Luck and finally Love will fulfill all your wishes.
haha time to hit my bed n stack my pillows high up mayb i will haf sweet dreams~~!! lala land here i come~~
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k at first i was still qt proud of myself for waking up early without e help of my alarm clock haha i woke up b4 my alarm clock.. but i din get out of bed jus let it continue snoozing.. den finally dragged myself out of bed n get ready to go sch..
den dat stupid 174 is so damn freezing cold i oso dunno y haizz.. its a single deck one.. so irritating!! y cant dey haf more of dis cold cold buses in the hot n scorching afernoons waste such good resources in the morn..
well den nvm i got down at boon lay to take 179 to ntu mah.. n shit lor i fell down e stairs while alighting.. how suay can i be... n until now its still hurts lor!! wad e hell?! den got some abrasions a lot of blood!! shit lor c lar another scar on my foot haizz... i suspect got sprain dao or sth la cos until now i walk still a bit pain pain de haizz...so suay!! den i m sitting in nbs free access lab... waiting for rena wong!!!!
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first: every sun i look forward to reading zbw (a zaobao supplement which is published evri sunday) anyway alwiz got some feature articles, in depth interview wif celebrities la n some travel journals. dis few times i realised there's an increasing no of articles abt taipei haha.. or mayb cos i liked e place soo much, dat y any article related to taipei would capture my immediate attention... i trying to find e article online so dat u all can read if not i will haf to scan n upload.. while reading e article n looking at e pics i was reminded of the times we spent at taipei on 2 occasions..
lemme share a quote wif u all which i find it qt interesting haha.. k k i shall attempt to translate into english cos my blog cant type chinese de...(for some reasons i cant solve) k yar dey were saying singapore is a country one fall in love easily but the love is not lasting.. however taipei is not a place where ppl will haf dat kind of love-at-first-sight feeling but once u fall in love wif it, u will ai ta jiu jiu haha...
hmm i think its qt true cos at first i liked hong kong more de.. now i liked taipei more mayb cos my canto cmi la.. haha i still rmb e last time i went taipei chungder asked me y i keep gg taipei? hongkong more fun mah haha seems like he like hk more.. haizz... he will nv understand de lar.. cos he's born in taipei haha he get to experience e taipei life evriday.
e article oso mentioned one shld visit taipei in winter n savour all the food from e da pai dang e food stalls in e night mkt its one great experience.. hmmm i dunno i cant compare wif e other seasons since i owiz go during winter.. but i definitely wanna try gg during summer or wad.. so dat i can SHOP hahhaa..
k 2nd reason y i blogging...
at first happily switched on my lappie wanna blog de.. den i received an email from my foc treasurer.. she's quitting.. second resignation i received liao e first was my publicity officer. haizz.. she refused to disclose e reasons for quitting jus say VERY personal reasons.. how m i gg to find ppl i dunno.. cos nxt wk is the start of the elections of e main comm n in main comm u definitely can earn more pts than u r in foc comm la... so i dunno wad m i supposed to do now... sometimes i m oso v tired jus feel like quitting but haizz i m e chair who m i supposed to tell?? hahahaa mayb can say i m more responsible than e rest ba hahahhaa cos at first dat time when i din get into dj semis i once blogged i dowanna help out anymore.. but bcos of e 150 premiums (for my foc) auntie nix promised me i hafta continue lor...
haizz guess i hafta send out email to my whole hss liao beg someone to take up e position...
n also, when i m back from tuition later i will try n upload e article too.
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i wanna work towards my goal! dat day after meeting wif my vice dean i was told i cld grad 1/2 yr earlier than my peers hmm but he din tell me i still had to pay e sch fees for e whole academic year. dat's wad i heard from my other frens who requested for early graduation.
but i dun really wanna grad so soon n work haha cos once i start work i wun get long breaks like wad i enjoy now.. n few hours of studying compared to long hours at work.
k so wad's my new goal right? i hope to go for GIP (for non-ntu students, dis is global immersion progamme sth similar to student exchange programme) k i wanna go china n do attachment i chked out e place le.. its where e beijing economic bureau is situated its one whole technical n economical zone kinda thing.. cant recall e exact name la.. but wif e heat of olympics 2008 building up in china, i think dis period between now to 2008 is e best period to go china n witness their economic progress n boost！ dat's y i m taking up a lot of chinese courses including business communications in chinese. i hope to gear myself for e gip thing!
dat is if i qualify la.. n another of my plan is to go on exchange to national taiwan university which is more commonly known as tai da! hmm at first i was thinking haizz i'd rather go beijing uni or shanghai jiaotong uni. den i was shocked to learn dat tai da is ranked higher than e other hk n china universities in the top 500 uni list.. tai da is even ranked higher than ntu lor!! but of cos below nus la.. wow i m so shocked!! haha yay!! go tai da den i can eat e-zai mian xian n chou dou fu evri day!! haha... did i tell u e area ard tai da is like a mini city lydat.. got a lot of place to shop n stuff lor.. n night market!! v good!!
hahaha so dis is e dream i set for myself n i hope i can accomplish within dis 2.5 more years in uni!!
den mayb my fyp(final year project) i can do sth abt e china economy n e bandwagon effect?? n mayb taiwan economy eben? hahaha... wish me luck!!
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walking up to sg checkpoint!! we r heading for jb!! yay!
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yay!! 4 of us at marry brown!! dis is e swing i m tokking abt lor!!
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so xing fu!! drinking big big mug of sugar cane haha!! n i feel as thou i m in taiwan again!! mai dong xi chi dong xi!! awww.. i miss taipei!! oops dis is in jb!
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four of us at da pai dang.. below from left to right is cynthia n annabelle n top is alison n ME!!
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all e food we ordered!! haha sambal kangkong stingray black pepper crab n cereal prawn
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look!! we finished our food!! hahaha... simply delicious!
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the attendance was considered pretty good n a lot turned up wif cars n even van haha!! anna, joanne, cheezi, sin yee, grace, caiyao, cecelia, janet, meixian, and auntie jy turned up!! woohoo!! was so gan dong janet and meixian turned up thou dey had a minor crisis prior to the bbq n somemore dey supposed to meet client at 9pm de but in e end dunno y dey nv go meet liao haha mayb cos we more impt??! haha xiang tai duo!
we played indian poker n i din zhong at all haha unlike last yr when we played zhong ji mi ma!! alwiz i gana one lor.. haizz.. dis yr i m jus so lucky haha mayb we shld play indian poker more often..
haha den we made a lot of noise lor.. even normal conversations we r oredi shouting let alone when meixian took sparklers n went ard scaring me n cheezi so we were like running for lives n screaming our lungs out haha.. evribody is like looking at us lor.. oops to those couples who were trying to get hanky panky. u cld haf gone further u noe haha.. (pun not intended) but anyway i still helped cecelia drink her forfeit lar.. which was e 8.4% beer mixed wif root beer n vodka n bacardi i think cant rmb liao haha.. but wasn't too bad lar the taste...
haha den dis yr bbq food was not too bad haha i still love peng-ing marshmallows n so happy so many ppl "ordered" from me which means dat i m improving!! hahaha.. n i love e satay oso.. hmm n taiwan sausage.. haizz which simply means dat dis wkn i ate a lot of good stuff.. i pamper myself too much liao lar..
den when meixian n janet n auntie jy leaving, i saw sin yee hug janet. den janet asked her to get her email from us.. i wonder if sin yee drank too much den her face rosy or she wanted to cry.. cos at dat time i was so gan dong n so "i-dunno-how-to-describe" i almost wanted to cry lor haizz.. can i dun b so gan xing.. crying evritime.. so i held back my tears...bwahaha luckily sin yee nv luo lei if not i think i bui tahan de..
after dat me n cheezi ran to e middle of the road n stood on the grass partition waited for 5174, 8550 and 5297 to u-turn so dat we cld wave to them haha.. we were v high liao!!
den we packed e stuff n go ktv liao.. it wasnt planned lar haha we us xin xue lai chao wanna sing.. was supposed to go civic plaza to sing de.. but it closes at 1am lor no kick lar.. so we went down to town lor... n sang from 1230-430 hahaha.. first time i wore glasses to orchard n wear shorts to orchard.. den sang sang sang until my throat a bit pain now.. but shld b ok by later ba.. gg to sleep soon le.. jus tot i shld hurry up blog first! mus capture my immediate after thots ma!
k thanks to evribody who can read dis blog n who went for e bbq.. definitely one of e best hari raya i haf eva spent other than watching tv prog at home on public hols haha...
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anyway bot qt a lot of stuff at jb lar.. bot 5 comics n 2 chinese storybooks spent abt 15 sg dollars on books so cheap hor! haha bot eben more than when i was in taiwan.. den i bot 2 t shirts.. 2 tops n a nice skirt! so happy... dat cost me another abt 70 sg dollars.. qt happy wif my shou huo haha.. den i ate my favourite marry brown!! n sat on e nice nice swing! haizz.. but ar i think their standard dropped leh.. dis time i eat like not as nice as e first time.. but still it was not bad lar!!!
after shopping we went to dis marketplace like da pai dang! we ordered seafood! damn cheap lor.. let's c.. we haf 4 girls.. so we ordered 1 stingray, 2 black peppper crabs, cereal prawns, n sambal kangkong! n we finished everything! haha.. of cos as usual i m the bu zhen qi one haha.. wah will post e photos up when cyn returns to sg n send the photos to me! n guess how much we spent on all these?? RM86 only lor.. each one 21.50RM dat's abt S$10 per person leh!! can u imagine?? my goodness.. can nv get dis kind of price in sg de lor.. n i mus say first time i ate cereal prawn.. yuan lai is lydat one! haha.. far from wad i imagined i mus say haha but qt nice!
oh yar.. den alison v funny.. she told me she saw my blog den noe i wanna drink den she recommend choya wif green tea! k k i shall try tml if i can get hold of choya! haha.. i owiz wanted to try choya but had no chance!
oh yar i m so proud of myself i actually went thru e customs myself to come back singapore haha.. i mean i noe it may b some jia chang bian fan for some of my frens who travel to n fro.. but dis is e 1st time i go thru myself! haha...
p/s: none of e tops i bot is suitable for cny haha.. so dat gives me another chance to shop!
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y m i so unhappy??? just wad is wrong??!!
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ok firstly.. i mus say i was v excited dis morn to receive the call from fedex! my wang zi mian n nai you su bing at my doorstep! haizz too bad i wasn't at home to sign for it.. so i sms my sis ask her to sign for me lor..
ok so thru-out e day i was thinking of my wang zi mian haha..cant wait to get home n c my wang zi mian haha!! [right now.. i m eating]
haha i really suspect e fedex fee costs more than my wang zi mian n nai you su bing. haiz i really feel v bad.. cos shu shu said not enuf let him noe.. i ask him how much he oso dowan tell me.. say nvm dun need worry abt e charges.. haizz.. a bit e kua zhang rite.. fedex such cheap stuff over heh... but its true!!! look at e photos!! haizz.. seems like when shu shu comes over i m gg to b broke!! haizz.. how m i gg to pay back dis ren qing???
hmm yar althou i m v happy.. but all of a sudden i was reminded of a piece of unhappy news. hmmm strictly speaking dis isn't supposed to b a bad news.. itz a good news depending on how u look at it.. but it seems like i m e only victim lar.. hmm a bit cheem but as usual.. whenever i dowanna think of sth i jus go to slp.. but when i wake up dat's e terrible part.. 'the hangover period' where i go thru the phase of splitting headache from all that thinking n "dreaming" hmmm really feel like drinking to numb myself haha.. i want blackcurrant hooch!! i cannot!!! if not i will turn into a alcoholic!! hahaha.. anyway looking fw to dis fri bbq!! i wanna bbq n drink!! hahaha...
ps: i think e smaller packet of wang zi mian nicer.. e big packets one taste exactly like our mamee lor.. haizz..
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i saw dis on my floor next to my bed when i got home!! a fed ex 10 kg box!! wif international priority written on it! he mus haf spent a bomb!! haha
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whole box FULL of wang zi mian n nai you su bing!! i m so excited!!!! hahahaha... so happy.. n v neat!! n evrithing is not crushed!!
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i especially moved away e wang zi mian to show e 3 boxes of nai you su bing!!!
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hmmm i wonder wad will happen to my own 21 bday?? i heard dem say parents supposed to gif a golden key to deir kids.. well my sis din get it last yr.. haha so dun think dat will happen to me.. think my dad dun eben rmb my bday or birth yr.. my family members wun wish me happy bday anyway.. so dunno i jus feel like going overseas on my bday again! jus celebrate on my own or sth to mark my adulthood haha..
today sth happened which made me not v happy n tired.. left me to ponder for a while n reflect on myself.. in fact i feel dat dis few days i m a bit fake.. i mean i m not happy but i seemed so cheerful n alwiz smiling. n i dun find it difficult to "wear" a smile... i mean i m not happy!!!! how can i jus continue smiling???? i think i m going mad or sth!! somebody pls save me!!
i alwiz hear ppl say as u grow older e frens u make cannot b compared to e ones u made earlier in ur life.. somehow that innocent touch is not there anymore.. mayb i m v clique-ish de la.. i dunno n yet sometimes yearn for dat bit of independence to do my own stuff.. haha i oredi explained to anna & joanne i not referring to u all.. cos u all haf been great so far! thanks for all e conference calls! n i haf been late for lectures haha cldn't wake up la!
k k back to e earlier topic.. mayb i shld jus learn to live for myself.. y bother to make sacrifices for frens when dey may not noe or appreciate??? but the world doesn't revolve ard me n me alone.. but i m so tired of dis kind of relationships problems.. so n so not informed of dis plan blah blah blah... so n so dunno abt dis outing... haizz.. y y y will somebody b left out somehow??
haizz sian lar... n it saddens me when frens ard me plan sth without informing me assuming i m not free.. dat's y i often tell my fren(u noe who u r) treasure ur frens ard u.. dey r really nice to u.. really! n i envy u! cos some of my frens haf given up informing me of the outings dey haf thinking i wun b free all e time.. althou sometimes i m free n cant find anybody to go out.. dat's y sometimes i jus go shopping on my own, go watch movies on my own.. i enjoy e time i haf wif myself.. mayb only being alone will offer u all the freedom n ability to do evrithing u want without having to account to anybody...
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i only realise i m so indecisive today. n i alwiz tot i m v guo duan. for instance ppl ask y did i choose econs when i ming ming like broadcasting n stuff so much.. bcos i want another degree to fall back on. y did i choose triple science in jc when i dun really like science or rather especially physics. bcos i haben decided wad i wanna do in uni yet.. i wanna b a dj yet i wanna work in bank n command a high post. i wanna go china or taipei to work yet i m afraid i wun b able to adapt..
y y y m i so contradicting????haizz..
ok updates on my dj preliminary rounds rejection "aftermath" dis few days haf been receiving a lot of sms asking if i m ok n stuff.. if i say i m ok le.. means i m bluffing lor. dis was after all my dream.. e first time i gathered sooo much courage to stand on stage.. wif so many ppl listening to me.. trust me! dat feeling was good.. no matter if u r making sense or not on stage.. dat stage belongs to u n u alone! n compared to e rest of e contestants i m unfortunate in e sense dat they may b rejected but e judges wun rmb dem unless of cos dey r "outstanding" in their own right. i still hafta face dem. n facing them wasnt an easy thing. especially dat day when i went down to 933 chris squeezed my hand.. n said sorry... haha i rather she dun mention abt it.. actually sometimes i ask myself.. mayb i m more cut out to b a PE (promotions executive) more than being a dj ba.. i dunno leh.. cos being a dj is not an easy thing n i seriously suspect my langauge ability is not up to it leh.. haizz... dat day during business comms in chinese lesson i was supposed to promote my product. it was rather impromptu la.. but i dun think i did well.. haizz... v sian lar.. i need to find back my confidence i lost..my senior told me i dun seem to haf a lot of self confidence.. but yet at times i seemed v zuai haha.. v contradicting huh.. hmmm dunno leh.. mayb cos sometimes i think i v ugly hahaha...fat ugly n short haizz.. sian!!
lastly welcome a new reader to my blog.. haha.. i wanted for u to read my blog a long time ago.. but some of e contents of my blog i dowan u to noe dat early.. was trying to look for a correct time to let u noe de.. well since u knew from another fren den welcome lor!
n btw may i add.. my blog is exclusive to certain readers.. if u r not invited den u r not.. haha not like some of my frens my blog contains some of e highly confidential stuff hor..
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den yest was an exciting day again! we went down to mediacorp ar.. den went up to 933 studio(conty) to get a fren's cd cos she wanted zhong dong liang's autograph.. den oso shun bian get tix to watch di xia tie last nite.. itz a musical den e female lead is chen qi zhen..anywayzz den cheezi saw her ou xiang coming! yesh wu yue tian MAYDAY will b coming in abt 20 min time.. so she wanted to loiter ard e studio but we need to suan piao cos e time was already 620 lydat den e musical will start at 8pm n its at esplanade so all e more we cannot b late! haizz...
so after some coaxing from auntie mary cheezi v unwilling went down to suan piao first.. of cos we were monitoring e situation from our radio downstairs..
basically we sorted out e tix in abt 15 min time a record low lor... we were nv so efficient de.. den she ran i followed behind to 933 studio. haha but mayday not here yet.. so we paced up n down the corridor.. den i decided to go toilet haha den from e window we saw a bus coming into e carpark.. mayday is on their way up!!!
[slight commotion] dey went into 933 studio.. haha we hid at some corner like some siao fans hahaha.. n cheezi slumped into her ruo zhi zhuang tai.. she waved to ah xin n ah xin waved back.. but shy me! i dun dare waved to my ma sha!! haizz.. den shi tou kept lookin at us haha he mus b wondering who r these siao za bo outside studio haha.. so we jus stood thruout the entire interview outside e studio..
den its time for them to do some recording like jungles n prog in another studio..so dey walked past us!!!!! for dat few seconds i was like holding my breath when dey walked past! all of dem smiled to me n cheezi when they walked past..dey even bowed to us.. i wanted to say hello ma sha!! but ar he looked a bit sheepish haha n abit paiseh!! hahaha so i decided to jus smile back haha... den guai shou tok to us!!! hahaha.. omigod!! i think i might change target liao i like guai shou too!! n he looked so shuai n good in real person!! haha.. after all dis hoo-haa we decided to go back to our mundane job..
jus when we decided to hurry up n count fast fast de shi hou.. andy came n find us!! haha he ask if we wanted to take photos wif mayday!! cos he has camera!!! n i can use my hp to take too!! cos he noe e rock records person!! i want leh!! haizz.. so we went up again loitered around e studio where dey were recording "i oso dj" but so sad while waiting.. janet called!! haizz she fetching auntie mary to esplanade n she giving us a ride.. so disappointedly we went back to count our votes..
after dat we rushed down to find janet n we on our way to esplanade!haha heng those ppl let us in n gosh during interval den we realised so many artistes were there... n hui shi n veron (jin ying) chinese radio stations assistant GM la were there.. haizz e last ppl i wanna c on earth wld b hui shi la... but anyway it was qt ok lar.. sitting wif so many celeb (nick shen wei jun sitting in frt of me) n i was sitting nxt to zhiyong's mum haha.. she looked qt young haha.. at first i din eben noe i was thinking who is dis lady sitting nxt to zhi yong haha..
k lar all in all dat wasnt a bad "first-meeting-after-the-results".....
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i m fine.. as my fren said "sometimes the going gets tough, but the tough gets going."
hmmm mayb i m not dat tough anymore...
n for those who think i will appear on sun for semi finals i m sorry i dun think i m dat tough. anyway i haf tuition i hafta go for my tuition lar.... m i running away? i dunno.. i jus dowan to appear in front of dem..at least not now.. gif me some time..
i rmb one of my closest fren often remarked how dramatic my whole life can b.. really.. all e things i've been thru.. sometimes i wish i m e lead in truman show.. n i could wake up from e dream n not deal wif all dis alone..
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today is 11 jan n in dis 11 days i cried 5 times in 5 consecutive days.. which means that almost in every 2 days, i cried once.
when when can i ever break free from dis vicious cycle of depression? y isit that e things u like e most u enjoy e most dat hurts u e most.. mayb i shldn't join radio academy in the first place? no no no.. if i had not join i wldn't get to noe joanne & anna n i wldn't be able to step foot on taiwan at all n get to noe ah yi n he shu shu... if i hadn't join i wldn't noe janet & meixian.. i wldn't noe auntie mary.. and i wldn't b able to enjoy many free concerts n free movies.. if i hadn't join i wldn't be able to meet cheezi again.. mayb if i hadn't join i wld still b in smu...
dis sem all e modules i m taking seem so difficult n demanding.. almost impossible to cope.. i m jus falling apart i cant take it anymore lor..
"i dream i could run like the wind n be strong ..."
jus chked e calendar.. next fri is hol!! hari raya... n feb 2nd wk is cny loooking out for all e possible long hols.. i m dying!!!!
i oso dunno y m i feeling dis way..
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shld i let go...
i dowan to help out alone in future oso.
mayb... not gg on to e 2nd round is like a decision made for me.. cos at first i was still v troubled how was i gg to cancel my 2nd tuition cos semi final will b on sun.. ha good now i dun haf to make any decision..
e only prob now i perhaps when m i willling to let go of my mediacorp stuff.. i think e day will come....
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in e end i went..
i really shld applaud myself for my courage to walk up the stage.. i mean it shld b so much easier for me since e judges sitting at the table r ppl i alwiz bump into at mediacorp.. its not my first time tokking to dem.. but yet somehow things r jus so different when i stand up there..
thou i compliment myself for the courage.. but i hate myself for not performing up to my own standards!! i dunno how shld i phrase it.. but wif e semi finals coming up only dis sun.. i dun feel like knowing e results.. i haf no time to prepare. i feel like backing out liao! it means cancelling another tuition.. i noe some of u may say dis is a one in a lifetime experience i shld try n go as far as possible.. but i shld also b practical! i need e tuition fee! ha..
now e position i m in is even more awkward.. i m like back to e earlier option of if i shld continue being a helper or jus leave them totally... i really dunno..
i told myself i was not ready for e auditions but i went.. i din really prepare.. even my intro speech.. i changed n changed.. n when it was my turn i jus blabber on forgetting wad i had in mind at first... when it was e Q & a it was worse.. when hui shi asked me abt e qn of y i shld b a 933 dj? i had formulated the ans. but when i opened my mouth to speak, suddenly my mind went blank.. n i noe dat there shldnt b any dead air or leng chang.. i mus go on tokking.. so i went on blabbering on not knowing wad i was tokking abt.. n that's it..huishi eben corrected me.. n i shld haf known better... i mean after all i haf been hanging ard dem for some time.. i noe e procedure..argh!! wad was i thinking abt??
when i was reading the news.. i noe i shld differentiate b/w e news n e trailer.. buti i was jus too nervous to decide which tone i shld use.. n ended up using the same for both.. at times my sentences were even choppy...
haizz!!!! it really wasnt easy standing up there n i m seriously considering if i wanna go thru e same ordeal again..
meixian asked me y i did not eben prepare my resume.. but was i eben prepared for e contest? i said a lot of times.. i rmb janet say if u r not ready dun accept the challenge if not u will only put urself at a disadvantage. until dis morn.. until i handed in my form i was still in a dilemma..was dis really wad i want? were e judges convinced when i said dis was my dream...
i think meixian knew.. cos she said when i went on the forum programme on air i sound so much better.. i know i know i know!
i can only say dat dis 2 days i wasnt happy at all.. i felt as thou i was suffering.. running away.. it was not a good feeling.. i m jus so stressed lor.. i haf been questioning myself... m i up to it..?? i really dunno e answer leh.. i dun eben noe wad i want..
so when i told my fren i m so envious of u.. u could gif me a definite answer that you r definitely gg for e competition.. wad abt myself?
i think its a knot dat cannot b undone until i get e green light from my dad..
sometimes i really wish i cld tell my family members more abt myself.. my dreams... i wished when i get a piece of good news.. i can call my dad n tell him abt it.. n he will b happy for me.. but i cant...
sometimes it gets lonely when i want to share my feelings wif someone.. n scrolling my hp phonebook not knowing who shld i call or sms..
but thanks to rena n yanling who went down to support me...
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thou late but here it is snippets on my taiwan trip..
I really enjoy my taiwan trip dis time ard! it was incredible! i managed to visit places i nv dream of gg in e first place.. eg jin shan n keelung.. n i tot i might b jus bored to death revisiting e same old places like xi men ding n shi lin ye shi (night market) but i was wrong! i was captivated once again!! n i jus cant wait to go back to e same country again!! hahaha.. dun ask me how many more times m i visitng e place again?? i haf no idea!! haha.. its not like singapore.. go once den sian liao.. no where to go de..
last yr when i went i tot i wun go back to e same country again at least not before i m out working or wad.. haha but abt one year later i went back again!!!
n e next taiwan trip is scheduled to be in 2007!! wif rena wong!! haha.. before dat we need to work towards another target b4 we can set off.. rena kao ni le! i dun think i will ever get attached bwahaha..
hmm dunno wad to say abt my taiwan trip leh.. evrithing is in my travel journal!! haha.. cant wait to let all of u read..
dis yr is like a taiwan visit sg year!! i haf so many visitors from taiwan! first up in march chung der is coming! den in may or june.. uncle & ah yi coming too! wif their kids!! yeah i think nxt time my fav past time wld b hanging ard wif dem liao!! dey r so fun to b wif.. listen to dem bicker haha n uncle being so da nan ren so funny!! n dey r like lao wan tong!! they love to eat!! so it means when dey come i mus get ready extrim lar xando lar.. wadeva!!cos dey will certainly not miss out on e good food of sg!! haha n i promised ah yi to bring her on a gourmet tour ard sg n a shopping spree!! she even said if can find time can go on cruise tgt!! haha...
dey v bad keep tempting me to go taiwan end of dis yr again!! haha go pao wen quan n visit yuan zhu min.. no lar.. but dun think its possible! eben if i m crazy enuf to go.. nobody will go wif me de lar.. haha..
meanwhile.. i planning to go thailand bangkok to shop wif my uni frens... but dunno whethere can work out anot?? 3 mth break mah! den work one mth go shop abt 1 wk.. den come back work n plan for foc liao.. not much of a time oso.. but its jus like me to keep myself v occupied lar huh...
oh yar.. haizz i too bz enjoying myself in taiwan i actually forgot to buy wang zi mian!! haizz.. n i din realise until a few days later.. while tokking to my fren.. all i rmb was sun biscuits n tarts n also the comics which i din buy..
argh!! i wanna go taiwan again!!! anybody interested haha????
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me at taipei national university main entrance!! e number one university in taiwan!
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me & xiao ding dang so cute hor!!
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me and ah yi at keelung harbour!!
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ah po de dian ( ah po stall) wah e vege here v nice!!! n all e bamboo shoots v soft n crunchy a bit contradicting but u mus try for urself!! n their sweet potato is golden yellow v nice n sweet!!
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wind here is super strong!!! n when we talk there will b smoke!! so cold!! but so shuang haha!!
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e flower clock on yang ming shan!! e place which snowed on my birthday!! taipei is freaking cold dis winter!
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look at their starbucks!! so big hor...so shiok!! n evriwhere is lydat...its representative!
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e yu ren ma tou bridge!! not v bright n its freezing cold!!! haizz..
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e front gate of e hotel.. like some palace hor.. oh my gosh!! i feel like a ge ge!! hahha
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dis is e hotel where we ate e 6000twd meal all e govt officials will put up here including e korean star bei yong jun i heard...
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so paiseh hafta pose nxt to dis soldiers!! ah yi said we r so lucky to catch dem in action!!
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