Monday, January 17, 2005

After much agony i dropped stats b. For those who do not know e implications of dis move, it simply means i cant major in quantitative economics aka econometrics. E econs major wif most job prosepects! But at least wif my stats a now, i can still major in public pol & developmt or banking & finance (which i like). Hmmm i think in a way dis subject registration forces us to plan our future now n not like in e past where i jus choose all eg. triple science in jc so dat i can keep my options open.. den now i jus wanna do stats b so dat i dun haf to make a choice now..mayb i shld kick dis bad habit of mine. i shld jus focus on one n work towards it..
i only realise i m so indecisive today. n i alwiz tot i m v guo duan. for instance ppl ask y did i choose econs when i ming ming like broadcasting n stuff so much.. bcos i want another degree to fall back on. y did i choose triple science in jc when i dun really like science or rather especially physics. bcos i haben decided wad i wanna do in uni yet.. i wanna b a dj yet i wanna work in bank n command a high post. i wanna go china or taipei to work yet i m afraid i wun b able to adapt..
y y y m i so contradicting????haizz..
ok updates on my dj preliminary rounds rejection "aftermath" dis few days haf been receiving a lot of sms asking if i m ok n stuff.. if i say i m ok le.. means i m bluffing lor. dis was after all my dream.. e first time i gathered sooo much courage to stand on stage.. wif so many ppl listening to me.. trust me! dat feeling was good.. no matter if u r making sense or not on stage.. dat stage belongs to u n u alone! n compared to e rest of e contestants i m unfortunate in e sense dat they may b rejected but e judges wun rmb dem unless of cos dey r "outstanding" in their own right. i still hafta face dem. n facing them wasnt an easy thing. especially dat day when i went down to 933 chris squeezed my hand.. n said sorry... haha i rather she dun mention abt it.. actually sometimes i ask myself.. mayb i m more cut out to b a PE (promotions executive) more than being a dj ba.. i dunno leh.. cos being a dj is not an easy thing n i seriously suspect my langauge ability is not up to it leh.. haizz... dat day during business comms in chinese lesson i was supposed to promote my product. it was rather impromptu la.. but i dun think i did well.. haizz... v sian lar.. i need to find back my confidence i lost..my senior told me i dun seem to haf a lot of self confidence.. but yet at times i seemed v zuai haha.. v contradicting huh.. hmmm dunno leh.. mayb cos sometimes i think i v ugly hahaha...fat ugly n short haizz.. sian!!
lastly welcome a new reader to my blog.. haha.. i wanted for u to read my blog a long time ago.. but some of e contents of my blog i dowan u to noe dat early.. was trying to look for a correct time to let u noe de.. well since u knew from another fren den welcome lor!
n btw may i add.. my blog is exclusive to certain readers.. if u r not invited den u r not.. haha not like some of my frens my blog contains some of e highly confidential stuff hor..

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