easier said than done...
e place where i spent my first 11 years..
a lot has changed...
i took e shortcut
me n my cousins discovered
when we were out exploring the neighbourhood
[one of our fav activities]..
as i walked in..
i was reminded of e times my mummy will drive me n my sis out
to e little "neighbourhood stalls"
many of which r no longer there..
one of e v few remaining ones was
"lana cake shop"
i rmbed e wooden planks or rusty drain covers
that was used as bridges to cross e drain..
[i think those drains look gigantic to a little girl like me back then]
as i walked across today
i rmbed how my mum used to coax me to cross
cos i was afraid i wld fall into e drain..
[fine luff at me for all i care]
after collecting yanling's cake,
[i din buy any for myself btw
cos dis fri is my dad's bday
so we getting..]
i walked to my old house
since there was another shortcut
to my house from e cake shop..
i passed by e park
where i exercised evri evening during those 11 years
where i first learnt cycling..
where my sis learnt how to climb trees wif my dad...
if only i din haf to rush home to refrigerate e cake
i wanna try e swing again
i wanna play e slide again
i wanna build sandcastle again...
but all these prolly wld not b e same anymore
since u r no longer wif us..
mayb after exams
i will go back to e neighbourhood i grew up in..
sit on e swing i used to sit on..
strolling ard e park i used to walk/cycle in..
anyway today den i realised e lana cake shop boss was our neighbour..
she stayed across our house..
cos my sis was asking if my dad noe violet kwan
e lady boss of lana cake
den i was like "siao y wld papa noe dat woman?"
den my sis said i young n dumb
din eben noe who our neighbours were..
my dad said yar he noe..
but nv kept in contact ever since we moved hse
yar.. expected mah..一秒的安慰 是我想你的滋味
微甜的滋味 让我能去面对
欠你的安慰 尽管你从不曾说累
你寂寞的眼 我发现 对你总不够体贴
一秒的安慰 是那思念的滋味
微甜的滋味 给你力气面对
温柔的安慰 让它流入你的心扉
给我机会 去体会 生命里有你多美
想听见 你说的任何字眼 会温暖 这颗心忘了疲倦
再多的考验 不过是训练 训练更多的了解
明知道没有结果
却越陷越深
如果生病能唤起你对我的关心
我希望能永远感觉到这份关心
你真的变了
以前总觉得和你说话很痛苦
因为都会有所保留
现在，
我却能没有压力的说出心中的感觉。。
一直都在等待
而等待是一种煎熬
等待的最终
如果还是没有答案
是不是放手
会更快乐
还是
那是另一段折磨
我希望
自己有一天
能够坚决的放手
不再留恋
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