it seems almost confirmed...
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quick close ur mouth..
dun let ur jaw drop to e floor...
lemme explain first..
rmb a few posts earlier i mentioned abt gg exchange or sth.. well ah yi asked shu shu to help me get a place in one of e china university cos apparently shu shu has some connections there..
den i told him i cant jus go lydat cos ar got limited place n need to go thru interviews n stuff...
shu shu say den 这你就不知道了..
he ask me gif him my name.. choic of uni n wad stuff i wanna do type n gif him.. n he can ALMOST guarantee me a place...
den i was like den how do i tell my sch??
den he was like u jus wait for e notification from ur sch? cos e china uni will call ur sch n tell them dey want u to go over for exchange.. suddenly i felt so WOW!
but while i was eagerly looking for info.. i felt alone.. den benjie (shu shu eldest daughter) asked me 你真的要去吗? n i answered immediately 当然啦。。 but as i was browsing thru n gathering more info..
i suddenly felt i dun really wanna go do i? i jus wanna leave dis place n mayb e place i grew up in..
den i think i will miss daddy n sis..
den i think i will miss all my frens who used to b a phone call away...
[speaking of which i mus thank rena cos she helped me wif my bday invite design e whole nite n today as well thank u thank u =) ]
but as i mentioned a few posts earlier.. i think its oso time for me to grow up le..
althou...
我不想我不想长大
so i guess when shu shu settled all dis for me.. i will go over.. cos its not good to ask ppl to help n in e end i back out rite...
anyway b4 ppl start lashing out at me wad was i doing at shu shu place?? wanted to go on thurs after my macro paper cos i needed to collect my jstar magazine.. but i was tooo tired i slept only 2 hours e night b4.. y cant i wait till after exams rite? cos i dunno when will i meet yinglin again n i need to pass her her copy oso..
n oso cos shu shu bot some foodstuff over as usual n i need to go collect them b4 some of them turn bad..
n oso my acne cream i finished using le.. den anna went to dr tan's today mah so i asked me get one more bottle from him lor.. n anna oso asked me to help her record SHA so i need to pass her e video..
i dunno liao le lar.. right now i m like pissed wif everything in my life..
dunno y dis few days evri mon when i wake up i will experience dis excruciating pain in my forearm dat i haf to lean n put my entire body weight on it to numb e pain.. i will go back to sleep for abt 1 more hr.. when i wake up again its not dat painful liao but still painful..
it has been gg on for 3 days le i think.. v 辛苦 shall consult my med frens!! vien!! help me!
hmm i rmb e first warning was 3 yrs back during my 18th bday eli n rena n i dunno who came my hse to stay over.. den wanted to go mac for breakfast but all of a sudden v pain at abt 4 am so dey had to go home while i went back to sleep...
m i dying?? sheesh...
i dunno if its bcos my dad is not ard dis few days n most of e time i m left all alone at home cos my sis wld go out n havoc.. i seemed to sense my mum's presence.. u noe ar prev 2 days while i was watching tv late in e night past 12 nidnight kind i will hear sound of bells or metal chains tingling sound i oso dunno how to describe.. we haf no wind chimes at home de cos i scared of e sound hahhaa.. i m a scaredy-cat... but i keep hearing... den i will haf goosebumps.. hmmm...
11 yrs nv c her le ba.. dat day showed rena my mummy's pic oso haha she oso commented my mummy v pretty haha i oso think so yay!
mummy isit really u?
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