问世间情为何物？
my dad thot for a few days n today we finally got e ans.. [e fortune teller qt zhun hor.. haha..]
my cousin 表妹 plunged to her death after her bf ditched her cos she was pregnant..
hmmm we lost contact wif all my maternal relatives ever since my mum's death lar.. so we dunno wadeva happened to dat family.. to me n my family [ie my dad n sis] our family is jus me n my sis n my dad.. no others..
my dad was asking us wad's my cousin's name? den we thot for a while.. finally i rmb her name.. i rmb she had a bro whom i dun think i had seen b4.. den my dad oso found out dat her bro was caught by e police when he was 15 for being an accomplice in a crime.. but cos he was too young he was sent to a boys' home..
now my aunt is mentally ill.. she was mentally ill when i was v young i rmb.. cos my mum told us her husband [my uncle] had an extramarital affair n she was devastated.. n i think got some money affairs involved oso..
i knew my grandpa passed away 2 or 3 yrs back i think but no one notify us lar.. n dey sold off my grandpa's big hse n split the inheritance..
nobody wanted to house my ah ma n she went senile/mad i not too sure..
but heard from our old neighbour dat she is staying wif our youngest uncle la..
but seriously ar if she were to stand in frt of me i wldnt eben recog her.. dat is e case for my uncles n aunties.. n cousins.. i dun eben noe exactly how many maternal cousins i haf oso.. cos my youngest auntie n youngest uncle married a few yrs' after my mum's death n we had lost contact since then..
in retrospect i finally cld understand how my dad shielded us from my "mischeivous" cousins.. i rmb my cousins coming to my hse playing wif us.. but to my dad he thot dey were making use of us.. cos we had a lot of toys n good food.. n my cousins were not as well-off.. n my relatives were alwiz borrowing $ from us..
but still when i heard wad happened to my cousin i was nonetheless saddened.. i dunno how to react seriously..
hmm den me n my sis were tokking abt marriage n stuff.. den i told her i seriously thot of not getting married.. haha cos partly 1] no target oso mah.. 2]i really haf no confidence.. 3]some other factors..
n i oso thot of moving out after my sis gets married.. cos my dad might not b my dad anymore.. [v complicated stuff ha..]
my fren once commented my life experiences can b filmed into a drama..
i agree..
i think matters of e heart r e most agonistic thing in dis world!
my poor cousin.. i hope u r happier wherever u are...
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