i know wad's wrong wif me liao..
im alwiz putting myself down..
im afraid of making mistakes...
i dun like to hear ppl making nasty remarks abt me..
i noe if i m complacent things will turn out e opp way..
it alwiz happens..
i seriously think i m dumb..
i used to think i m smart n i dun really nid to study v hard..
but i seriously doubt it now..
i mean i m still e same old me leh..
i dun fall asleep in class..
i still pay attn or tries to pay attn like in sec sch
den y isit i can do better in pri sch/sec sch/jc but not uni?
n e worst thing is i feel dat even if i work hard
i can nv achieve good results..
im soooo drained after my chinese presentation..
dun ask me y but dis chinese report has seriously taken a toll on me.. i haf alwiz been confident of my chinese.. but somehow dis few modules i haf been taking really make me ponder if i m dat great.. mayb not anymore..
i woke up at 4am.. last nite slept b4 midnite.. jus din wanna look at e powerpt liao.. so i slept.. i woke up at 4.. forced myself to go back to sleep.. but jus cldn't so toss n turn till 440 i went to bathe n read my chinese report again..
i got sick of it n went to sit at living room waiting for e newspaper man to deliver newspaper.. den i brot to my room n read.. den i fell asleep! got a shock when i woke up! cos its 9! lesson at 930!! n i jus saw gh's sms dat he's reaching my place soon! i dun dare look at e time of sms.. i only noe i need to hurry hurry! so i grabbed clothes changed dump files into my bag.. n dashed out of my hse.. i went down waited.. eh dun haf his car leh.. thot he left without me cos its 910 liao..
so i called him.. heng pie jam..
eben today's lunch i had no appetite.. i was rushing to go thru e power pt again.. haizz..
now dat i reached home i m sooo tired... n hungry! cos i like nv eat anything substantial today..
sometimes i dunno y m i sooo tired.. like wad my other frens alwiz ask.. n tell me.. i haf no job.. dun need work.. dun need gif tuition.. dun haf hall stuff or other commitments.. no bf or r/s to maintain..
n yet i m alwiz so tired n stressed...
i dunno leh..
mayb cos i roam abt too much at home liao.. cos i dun watch tv oso.. i dun go after drama serials.. hmmm y huh??
i dun tok on phone [only occasional]
i dun play computer games..
i dun chat much on msn leh!
i only blog.. n chk ppl's blog.. [thou i shld b e most diligent blogger ard liao]
den den den?? y my 24 hours seem exceptionally short??
haizz... so angry wif myself..
wait till i figure out y..
im tired n HUNGRY! shall go nap while waiting for dinner.. tata~
no more nightmares pls...
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