Thursday, March 16, 2006


wad shld i do?

woke up from my afternoon nap *yawnz* abt one hour ago.. e past few nights had been horrible.. i m not depressed or anything but yet i can only sleep for like 3 4 hours cos i either cant get to sleep or will b frightened by nightmares.. like last nite i went to bed early cos i was v v v v tired.. [refer to prev post] but i woke up at 3am. at 1st i thot it was 5am liao so i was telling haizz nvm can sleep sleep cannot den i wake up n bathe n nua n go sch lor.. i got a shock when i saw my clock.. it was only 3am! means i cld haf slept 4 hours more.. which i din.. so i got out of bed at 6 n read newspapers n rot..
i woke up at 3 cos i had nightmare.. i keep dreaming of dis stretch of road.. i dunno isit all in one night or dat i haf dis dream on other nights.. but wadeva.. i told my dad e contents of my dream.. n as usual my mr-thinks-he-know-it-all dad tried n decipher my dream n he concluded dat i haf too many xiao ren [baddies] ard me n dat i shld go temple n da xiao ren.. haizz.. shld haf jus kept my mouth shut lar.. now dat i told him i still nid to go prepare sooo many things.. nv knew da xiao ren so ma fan de lor.. now i wonder those ppl i saw in my dream: r dey xiao ren? i rmb who r dey lar.. but weird leh... dun really believe wad my dad said abt xiao ren part.. he luan lai again i guess... haha..
okie yar anyway i woke up from my afternoon nap.. not sure if i dreamt or wad cos i dun recall anything.. den i went to fridge to get my fav green tea.. den i passed by e weighing machine n decide to weigh myself.. cos e last time i weigh myself was during xmas i think at shu shu's hse.. me n joanne went to play wif e machine haha.. cos its damn cool lar.. hmmm n it seemed to confirm wad ppl haf been saying abt me losing weight.. cos from dat xmas weight to e current weight dat i took i got a shock lar!! i thot e needle [of my hse weighing machine] hang or sth cant move further.. cos its a whooping 4 kg drop leh! i mean 4kg is like close to 10% decrease in weight leh.. of cos dere may b some measurement error cos after all different weighing scales r used in 2 diff occasions.. but but but!! i dun feel any lighter leh.. n my jeans or not v v v loose or wad lar.. i mean dey r loose la.. but dey r loose in dec liao mah.. weird.. n i still eat at weird times of e day n i eat a lot of meals n snack a lot leh.. dat time i jus finished one whole bag of chips lor! but i asked my sis to go weigh she say her weight nv change so weighing machine not spoilt?! weird weird weird.. 难道 i lose weight in 不该减的部位 boohoo.. if not how come i dun c??!! boohoo... n i still feel fat!! dat day jielin said i anorexic diaozz!! u got c a anorexia girl eat so much like me? haha unless e food is 难吃 den i wun finish. like yest's bee hoon.. yucks!
so i conclude uni is too stressful n its e good period to lose weight..numerically only.. i haf yet to c any physical weight loss..
i used to shun e weighing machine btw cos i refused to 面对现实 so i only weigh myself twice a yr during pe lessons when dey haf to take ur height n weight haha.. den ever since i grad from jc i dun rmb weighing liao.. hahaa..
ok nxt up.. gh confirmed his tw trip liao.. jus emailed shu shu to ask him help wif e hotel.. i told him i haben decide if i wanna go.. really tempted to go.. if confirm get $600 [cos now dey say we got no cpf contribution den considered no income.. den cant qualify!] den i think think think i might go.. but i wld b caught in an awakward situation leh.. i hafta 相依为命 wif someone i oso not v shou but can crap n qt farnie person.. hmmm.. haiyo 矛盾 leh.. grrr...
true lar a lot of ppl ask me bring them go tw.. but when u finalised n wanna book liao ar ask them ar den dey start to say no $ la not free during dat period blah blah blah.. dat's alwiz e case..
in case vien is reading dis, b4 u start to lash out on me n question me wad abt ausssie trip.. dun worry dun worry.. i will do some financial planning... i will scrimp n save n make sure i will fly there n celebrate ur bday wif u..

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