v vexed..
v horrifying to noe dat my entire cohort v kiasu leh.. dey r only in yr 3 sem 1 n dey r oredi forming fyp grps.[silently may i add] only e few of us left.. jus on sat winnie told me xn n cl looking for ppl to fyp wif them cos dey wanna grad earlier.. n winnie recommended me.. she said xn will call me.. n me n xn were qt gum de la.. so i jus waited for her to call while i cont to nua ard n recuperate...
n i din call her cos i was still thinking if i wanna grad earlier..
den today during lect.. taitai was telling who's in whose fyp grp.. n xn n cl found a 3rd grp mate!! but e thing is e 3rd member s will only grad in 4 yrs.. so she's like doing fyp earlier la..
i decided to grad in 3.5 yrs la.. so i called xn.. we decided to ask e prof.. haizz now i duno wad to do.. v bad to ask e 3rd person to leave e grp bcos of me cos xn dey all agreed to her liao.. but right now i wld hafta pay one more sem of sch fees if i cant find ppl to do fyp earlier wif me.. or i wld hafta go for exch.. but i seriously dowan spend my dad's money leh.. i spent a lot liao.. n when i trf from smu i promised him i wld b able to grad earlier.. jus dat a part of me doesnt really wanna leave sch so early oso.. but now bo bian la..
everytime i think of gg out to work n no more long sch hols to look fw to.. i v sian.. i really dunno wad kind of job i wanna do n whether i can earn enuf to support myself n provide for my daddy.. it jus struck me he v old liao.. cos cpf sent him a letter saying he can receive monthly payouts or keep his money in cpf to earn interest.. haizz.. i feel i m not equipped wif e knowledge n skills to land myself wif a good job.. i really feel my frens in smu r doing sooo much better than me.. if i were an employer i wld definitely hire my frens.. n not me.. i haf basically nth to offer.. [i not referring to e entire s*u pop.. only e few frens i noe n r doing v well] so demoralised n sian.. but like wad calvin said it shldnt b hard to find a job jus dat wad kind of job n e pay.. i dun mind starting from scratch.. eh.. but dowan bank teller la.. hahaha.. c i still hiam... dunno la.. damn sad..
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