u juz reached hm, the first thing u do is to on ur lappie, n signed into msn??it's 2am already~ v late liao... the 1st thing u do after ur msn is connected, u scroll down ur msn list... to tt particular category n check if he's online....to ur great disappointment, he's not... u decided to linger a while longer b4 u head on to bathe.... juz in case, u noe?

while waiting, u began to ponder over these questions...

"is he slping alr?"
"he got slp so early one meh?"
"mayb he's online, juz tt he appeared offline..."
"mayb he's studying now n decided to come online only when he's taking a break or worse... he's not coming online le..."
"or mayb he jus signed out!!! i missed him?!"

after waiting for 15min 'patiently'....u decided tt it's time to go n bathe...but while bathing, u were still bothered abt wad he's doing at dis moment..
"mayb he come online le? wat if he initiated a conversation n u din reply for so long?"

the first ting u do after u stepped out of the bathrm, u hurried to look at ur com screen...his nick is not flashing at ur taskbar....the 'heart-wrenching' wait continued while waiting for ur hair to dry....

Then after a long while, u suddenly see him sign-in at ur lower right corner! ur heart skips a little, & u excitedly double click on that msn icon at the lower right... u see his online status at the top of ur msn contact list...u give a little smile to urself...u continued doing ur own stuff chking e ur msn screen every now n then waiting to see if he'll msg u...u wait a little, then re-open ur msn window. His status is still online....Not away.... Not busy.... Not anything but online!!!

mayb he'll msg me soon?? u tink.

u turn back to ur browser...yet again...u repeat the above in another 5 min, then in another 4 min, then again and again. Soon you realised tt u r just flipping back and forth between your browser and msn!... & pretty much stoning at your computer sulking....

u grow so tired and fustrated & decided to go offline...since he'll probably NEVER msg you anyway....u grab ur lec notes, plong onto ur bed, hoping that u'll just grow sleepy and fall asleep, rather then to keep having silly thoughts tt keep u awake on ur bed for a looong time....

is tt wat u ve been doing to urself?! stop! stop! stop! tis agonising process is a waste of time!!!