sometimes love just ain't enough
den i realise it is actually v lonely for me to handle them all by myself..
sometimes when things happen i dun feel like talking to anyone n jus allow myself to sulk e entire day.. to continue to live in self denial... hoping my friends wld appear at e right time.. more often than not i think my frens also go on hols on wkns...
i was qt rude to my dad e entire wkn... it jus gets on my nerves dat he keep complaining he cant hear me... or rather when i jus grunted some noise to acknowledge wad he said den he wld complain i ignore him.. den he wld say i m so rude n not speak to him e way i speak to my frens.. [shldnt he go discipline someone else?!] dowanna go into details.. ppl close to me shld hear my story oredi... dowanna tok abt it.. n to those few who noe: yes until now still no improvements.. im so gg to wash my hands off this matter... i haf enuf stuff to bother myself wif..
last fri they told me when a company tells our sch admin dey wanna select without interview dey will jus pick randomly = draw lots.. i dun understand y not subscribe to meritocratic ranking?!
n now e same thing happened again.. i m denied a chance to go for e dumb test.. i m soooo pissed.. i m, really...
dis whole issue/episode is making me feel v unwanted... i feel really useless... i m v v worried abt my future... beginning to doubt e wadeva rubbish master khor said last yr.. if master khor words r not true den mayb i m cut out to b a taitai.. cos he said i dun haf a taitai life.. but hmmm i rmb master khor oso told me i more suited to work in BIG companies.. e bigger e better... e more overseas branches e better... e more overseas postings e better.. but right now even small companies dowan me.. wad m i supposed to do?!
then our sch iro [e student exch office] jus sent out email abt new summer prog... wah lau can dey dun release 1 by 1? do u noe how irritating dat is?! n dey told us dey not giving us AUs for our wuhan cos e duration v short rite.. den explain to me y dis other korea uni 13-day summer u giving them 3 AUs?! oh cos we will b learning some basic korean... n for wuhan we oredi noe chinese so no AUs?! tell me abt it man... but dey din quote e medium of instruction/new lang learnt as e reason for not giving us AUs wad... pissed... not dat i wanna go korea... not dat i need e AUs badly since i cant grad earlier anyway... but i jus tot it's absolutely unfair! [alright i can hear prof ng echoing at e back of my head: nothing is fair in this world] haizz...
nth is fair in my sch alright... it's not abt results.. cos i wun get intern still... it's not abt eca too! it's abt luck... i better go temple again on thurs or sth... cant believe my luck man! nth is gg right for me! [yeah everything turning left hurhur]
n i shld learn to ignore all dis stuff for e time being n concentrate on 1 last proj n my exams.. dey r coming right up man... i m so shocked to realise this is e last wk of lect liao.. i m soooo screwed.. n i think i m so gg to die dis sem... fin econs n chn ecy my most afraid subj... esp chn ecy!!! i m sooooo gg to die... n gh still can tell me 1 chap each day.. i haf no time can... diaozz...I don't wanna lose you,
but I don't wanna use you
just to have somebody by my side.
And I don't wanna hate you,
I don't wanna take you,
but I don't wanna be the one to cry.
And that don't really matter
to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know
it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people
don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.
Now, I could never change you,
Now, I could never change you,
I don't wanna blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you,
but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just wanna have it all.
It makes a sound like thunder,
It makes a sound like thunder,
it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know
it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people
don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.
And there's no way home,
when it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?
And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.
Baby, sometimes, love...
it just ain't enough.
Oh...
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