dis morn when i got my dad's call i was really on e verge of crying at e dumb lift lobby wif so many security guards looking at me... but i cant.. i wanted to call my boss n said i cant carry out e assignment le cos i really had no mood...

i really wanna go home.. i need a place to hide but i din noe where...

wanted to call ppl but i din noe who to call...

n nobody cld understand y my dad was so mad.. except my sis.. but when i called her i jus doubly worse cos she was so nonchalant abt it...ya but my dad is really really really mad...

i m v frightened cos i cant c him.. n i can imagine him smoking more... n becoming v stressed cos he is a perfectionist.. he wants everything to b done perfectly.. he doesnt accept any mistakes la basically.. n i noe he is ULTRA disappointed cos i m his trusted daughter n he thot he cld count on my calc.. e words he used was so hurting n he refused to tok to me n jus hung up on me.. i can understand how he felt la.. i felt as thou i haf failed him... i haf made him v v v v disappointed n i wasted all his money spent on grooming me..

v upset...

really v v v upset... i jus wanna go home n cry.. really...i really hope he wld call me n tell me things arent so bad.. cos i seriously dunno wad cld b done to salvage e situation.. i dunno e details.. sian.. ya but i noe sth arent reversible.. thou i did tell him to wait till i get home n get all e info i will confirm wif him again.. cos when he called me i was out.. idiot me shldnt haf offered to calc a raw estimate...

i prolly need a super super big miracle n godsend to help me man...

now at mccafe waiting to go for my next meeting.. half e time i m stoning n not paying attn to wad is gg on in my colleagues' conversation... haizz...

i wanna go home....