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hate myself for being easily influenced by ppl's emotions.. but mayb cos i m feeling sad myself... rather emotional recently... i can jus look out of e bus window n listen to my ipod n jus start tearing... dats y i love bus rides tooo.. cos i can tear n no one will notice... i nv like taking mrt unless i m in a hurry.... cos i feel bus has more private space... i jus dun like to sit, facing strangers...
sadded by a lot of things.. dun eben noe where to start n which issue exactly that is bothering me... most of e time i m jus angry wif myself... alwiz believe in being true to friends... i dun dare say i m a wonderfully nice n fabulous fren.. but i try my v best to b truthful.. but y isit sometimes ppl misunderstand my intentions.. i swear i dun mean it dat way... it was jus a question off my mind.. n i meant it jokingly n dat person seems offended.. sian la.. many times i haf questions dat i wanna ask u.. but i dun dare bring them up cos i dowanna appear as nosey... but i oso dunno wad i can ask or wad i cant ask... but when i do ask.. u actually misunderstood my intention... i jus had to treat as thou nth has happened n feign ignorance.. its kinda tiring actually...
but yet i duno y i still confide in u... wadeva la... i jus dun like e way u suddenly become v defensive to e extent of being aggressive... aiya u wun noe i m tokking abt u anyway...
j said my nick says 心情不好v long liao.. haha.. i din realise it has been v long liao.. haizz...
a lot of things to do over e weekend... e.g. preparing resume for submission, work on fin assignment... try to understand e irritating stata.. n read more economic news so dat i haf sth to present during nxt week news-sharing session... haizz..
as much as i m angry wif my dad at times.. sometimes when i reach home v late like these few dayz... i will feel v sad n angry wif myself for making him work so hard at his age.. ok la he's not like particularly older than ur fathers... but at least ur fathers can tok to ur mums abt their kids or troubles wadeva... my dad doesnt really tell us his troubles.. n when he does, me n my sis' ears will auto shut down.. cos somehow he nv fail to digress to our character/temper or untidiness wadeva... den he will go on nagging for as long as i can rmb.. ha...
k la i shld stop blogging now if not my tears will jus keep flowing down non-stop n i will go sch tml wif puffy eyes again... sianz~
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