useless
sometimes i really feel dumb.. now is one such time...
y m i nice to ppl who dun eben bother rite? n hurt those who really care...
mayb its e weather...
today while taking bus out from nus to clementi... i was alone on e bus... outside was pouring... i was feeling so confused... my world was turned upside down after reading a fren's blog entry...
n it din help dat my ipod was playing v melancholic ballads as usual.. den while rain falling n beating against e windows, i really felt like crying..
but i din dare of cos wif so many ppl on e bus...
haizzz im really bz all of a sudden n sometimes when i pause for a while i feel so lost... i dunno wad m i doing all these for... i dunno y i wanna run away... n i really wanna run away...
damn sad...
n when i m feeling sad even my great escapade dun make me excited anymore...
i need MORE miracles in my life, really..
these few weeks i haf been experiencing shitty stuff...
first was i lost a big sum of money [ hundreds of dollars]
2nd was our fyp in a mess [ie lib close for renov hafta go down to nus instead but frens move home]
3rd was fyp data we collected was overwritten n i tot i cld say byebye to nus lib, i actually went back today last min to rekey in some data
4th was when i was at my busiest, my internship supervisor had to call me again to tell me they really need my help... i swear this is e 3rd time they called me since hols... n i m vexed enuf.. den big big boss called to tell me more abt e proj... they dont seem to wanna take "no" for an ans... they kept asking "how bz can u b?" but my point is dis is my time, i dun hafta ans to u wad i m gg to do wif my time rite?! so wad if i m not bz wif my thesis on some days... i wanna rest lor...
5th was i m receiving all sorts of stupid tel calls which include loans, insurance n god-knows-wad... e recent most shocking call was to ask me to sign up for some financing package for my company n i was shocked they said my internship company name.. cos i sent only a few emails out to external parties.. usu i send emails to my bosses full stop. n i only include my office no in email so i was reallly shocked...
6th was my trusty dear ipod threw a tantrum dat day.. all e songs r gone... i only had time to move some impt ones back... trying to retrieve e rest...
7th was of cos my tutee absconded incident... n i still cant locate her btw.. i got her email from her frens but she din reply.. i guess she wun reply me de even if she saw e mail.. i lost both money n my v precious notes... i m more angry dat my notes r gone than my money....
8th i think my temper is getting worse.. i tend to snap at ppl n complain n whine more... shit.. im sorry ppl
tell me wad i can do to bring my luck back..
i need my luck back b4 release of exam results *gasp*
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